Once in a Year trip to Malaysia

for the once in the year CNY.

set out early in the morning to the ICA building to collect my passport then straight away speed into M'sia . once we got settle down, we had half chicken half duck for breakfast! B.R.E.A.K.F.A.S.T. i try to stick to my carb diet, but the plate of chicken rice smell and taste so good that i finish the entire plate. this is FAT FACTS #1

FAT FACTS #2- house visitation.
snacking on the CNY cookies of course. not in small portion, but binged.

FAT FACTS #3- before i know its lunch time already.
the host decided to treat us to one of the local restaurant with about a 7 dish menu? appetizer,  main, and one final dessert. food again, very tempting, can't resist. so i ate again. i wasn't hungry, but i ate bloody a lot, the host keep stuffing food to me, because he said, "young people can afford to eat more...."

FAT FACTS #4- long car rides
after eating we are back in the car for a long car ride before we reach another destination. SLEEPING ON A FULL TUMMY!. CNY = containers of cookies, eat again. i would have rather to choose to explore the area, IF all the houses are not located at such ulu deserted area with stray FIERCE dogs everywhere... those dogs scare the Olihua outta me.

i wanted to get around the house, just to explore around a little with my niece Chevelle, and there was 2 black stray dogs in the way. another word, i have to walk passed them no matter what. roughly about 4 steps out of the door, one of the dog starts to bark and on that split second both dogs charged towards us. it was quite obvious that they make Chevelle the target first because one of the dog came so close that he almost bite her! honestly i was startle when they charged towards us, my first reaction wasn't to run but stay rooted there. Good thing i was holding on to an umbrella, it was the umbrella that shield us away from the dog. thinking back about now kinda scares me still.... ureeeeeeeeeeeeee~

 FAT FACTS #5- dinner.
binged binged binged a lot at the last house before dinner.
again, dad's relative decided to treat us for dinner at this seafood restaurant. Fried seafood, food, food, food. i really really feel like puking out every everything.

in conclusion of the things that constitute to my weight gain in a day- 70% came from the enormous amount of food intake, 10% from unbalance intake and output, 40% from my greediness.

2010 CNY day 1

agree with me, do you find Chinese New Year is getting more silent each year? the decoration on the streets looks lifeless, the atmosphere was dull. what happen? my father brought up a very good point, back when i was a kid, CNY was much more joyous like you can feel it in the air. unlike this morning it feels like a slow motion. like a old film being screen only black and white with no audio. get my point? IT IS TOO QUITE TO FEEL THAT TODAY IS A FESTIVE SEASON!

end the whole CNY today feeling tired, could be the weather that makes people head spin a little. could be the little upset economics that contribute to the dull atmosphere. anyhow, i just argued with my elder sister regarding some Responsibility issue when i am the one with no Responsibility.

now i am an aunt of 2 niece, my sister gave birth to her 2nd child 2 days after my birthday on 4 Feb. in the normal situation, when the 2nd child is out the first child will suddenly deprived of attention. Chevelle was no exception. her tantrum is so bad, she makes nonsense cries first thing she wakes up and more nonsense cries before she sleep. all this nonsense sometimes brings me headache, cause you just don't what she wants and i bet she don't know what she wants either. she just wants to make nonsense cries.

my sister is doing her confinement in my house, and my mum is the busiest woman. anyone wants to complain, she should be the first. i have been very preoccupied with my world that i shut away from the others- almost entirely everything related to house chores or being a good aunt.

hey, i lose my train of thoughts. something showing on the television now is distracting me.

next time then.
and the word i've looking for is 'subtle'.
this is just random.

Give some thoughts

when i was on my home from a movie, suddenly this thought struck me. what will i be after i graduate? as i reflected, i realised that I have given more time into my temp job then my studies. though i only work once in a week or twice, but on those days that i did not work i have a tendency to took it as a "literate break from work" and procrastinate to work on anything else. when i got tons of things to be done. like my portfolio which i totally should do something about it.

the thought of being a nobody, as in career wise scares me. i think i need to give more thoughts to what kind of firm i want to work in and REALLY work towards it. i need to set a goal and work towards it. i need to be more self driven. i need to focus on my future more then all this temporary jobs that i have been sailing from one to another. because i just don't enjoy what i was doing in those temp job. if not for money, i'll not bother to labor there.

when i was jay crossing the road, another thought struck me again. what happen if a car came by and hit me down like Val? i have not succeed in any way yet, if i die right now i think i'll feel like the greatest loser on earth because i hadn't complete what i have begin.

one more year, graduation, excellent presentable portfolio.
and for now, i need a good internship. that will bring an eye opening for me, with lots of  blasting experience and very very beneficial to my portfolio.

Google Singapore

click on the image for a larger view!

the different races characters are drawn out using photoshop

the Merlion is crop out from a photo

background- building's skyline are traced out from a photo

the fireworks are created using photoshop burshes

A death of my classmate

my classmates and i attended her wake last Friday after school.

last Friday, 5th February, a classmate told us to check Val's (the name of the girl who had passed away) facebook, someone had posted Val's wake venue. she is dead. instantly everyone was shocked in disbelief, some of us thought it might be a joke. then again, it was too crude to be a joke.

the news was being spread while my classmates and i were in hanging out in the library waiting for our turn for the practical Understanding Test (UT).

me myself, i had goosebumps all over. just the day before, Val and i went for break together, she was still alive. then on Friday morning, she was pronounced death on the spot where she met the accident. according to the Chinese newspaper ( i might misread some of the character)her bike skidded and crashed into a lamp at the highway, the impact was so great that she was being thrown off the bike and landed on a grass patch. many body parts were severely injured, her head was the most fatal one.

at Val's wake when we arrived, it was a little awkward, we did not know how to react. her aunt came forward to bring us in, and my faci gave her the little envelope of money which everyone had pooled in. i had a little conversation with her aunt, she told me that Val passed away 5am in the morning that Friday. part of her sulk was crushed in, during the accident one of Val's ear flew off and could not be found. she told me something about how well the makeup artist had manage to cover up all the flaws, then she began to choke on her words, vivid tears starts to well up in her eye. she did not continue after that. that moment, i really don't know what to say. i just stared, i could feel the grieve inside her. Val's was covered and sealed, so we couldn't get to see her last, in the coffin...

some of the friends said it was a drink drive accident, but the newspaper said the bike have skidded. no one knows the exact reason, well, i felt really pity for her. i did not really get to know her well enough before she passed away. once, we had a chat and she told me about her family background and such. she is very independent, easy going, one of those who will crack jokes in class. just one more week to go and we'll all graduated from year 2, and one more year to getting our diploma. it is such a pity isn't it?

*Whisper it*

MY MOM FINALLY GRANT ME A ROOM!

i am happy, but i don't want to get over excited

because i got a feeling this is only for a short term.

i spend my birthday this year in the liabrary rushing all my project and night,

i celebrated it with my family.

this week got too many hiccups which are not very pleasing.

one of it was my

screwed up my presentation on wed,

my amount of works presented is too little,

i think my faci was looking for quantity > quality.

considering my quality & quantity of work i have now,

is really way to sucky to graduate with it

i feel embarrass for myself.

sucks man.

i feel like changing a job.

when actually the underlying reason is

I DON'T EVEN FEEL LIKE WORKING AT ALL

work is exhausting.

those time, i could use to work on my school projects.

"i need more time and sleep.

i need more efficient day time, and good night sleep."

my reflection will never lie.

i look so tired all the time.

those ugly sunken eye bag is as disgusting as my grades.

i got more Red then Black.

which means, i got more late coming then punctual.

those grades for my elective class is the most disgusting and demoralising ones.

C D C D C C D D X D D F

so disgusting!

AHHHHHHH

if only i can Ctrl + X now

and Ctrl + V myself back when everything have calm down.

those ulcers in my mouth makes me not want to open my mouth

makes me not want to eat

makes me kinda moody

makes my face feel swollen

makes me mispronounce my words

makes me not even want to open my mouth.

I can almost feel the Chinese Year spirit...

when one of classmate send me home just now. on our way back his dad went to pick up bags of CNY goodies along the way, as i sat in the car i listen to my friend and her dad chat about their CNY routine. that was when i feel slightly in the mood of CNY is coming.

apart from that, the entire day i feel so tired from the past 2 nights of rushing all my works just for my few seconds of presentation today. Sucks man. i was still mounting my works onto the mounting board when my faci called me up for my presentation. my presentation was brief, and i only presented 2 of my works. furthermore, today's presentation will be graded as part of my UT3! how not awesome is that? i know i had done a bad job. tsk! life still move on~

take a break, have an orange.

Chevelle just got a haircut. straight bangs!

*ps/// i'm wearing my hello kitty pj

Can't suppress it any longer....

obviously this issue affects me greatly

imagine it is YOUR birthday,

you have plan what you want, and how you want it to be celebrated

you send out your invitation

no one come.

you send your invitation to your "close friends", putting them first

you just want to celebrate it with them

and no one come.

i can't believe i have to beg and argue just so you could come.

i am so disappointed.

i am really really sad

for the 2nd time i cried over it.

I'm sorry, but i think your are so selfish.

for a friend that you call friend

i believe there is always- exception

isn't it?

coming all the way, JUST to make an exception

JUST for your friend's birthday. isn't that worth it?

when you are feel unwilling to attend a certain friend's birthday party,

you procrastinated before you come

you probably don't call that person a Friend

is more like a distance friend, whom you are not interested in.

i think it is time to reconsider this friendship.

when one's birthday is around, it does not always have to be the birthday girl to send out an invitation to celebrate her birthday with her.

IF, we call ourselves friends, i believe we could take an initiative to surprise or plan to celebrate her birthday.

and not blame the birthday girl for not inviting.

Friends are we?

or just a gathering group?

if that person is your BEST FRIEND, i believe she don't even need ask you to celebrate with her

you will ask her isn't it?

this time, i was really disappointed.

i know your boyfriends are important

at the same time, i think you should have your own say.

you are old enough to defend for yourself.

sometimes i think is not a matter of your boyfriend.

it is you yourself.

and how you weigh this friendship.

because it affect me so badly, that i cry.

........Too many emotions at one time.....

i was disappointed by my friends response earlier on. then i just found out about my portfolio sort of like critic session is due this wed! feeling a little panicky, a little stress because my works are all 'half pass six' kind of work. they are all so sucky.

too many emotions clash in at the same time, makes me feeling kinda blue right now.....

It's a Birthdaysss Bash Weekend!

Friday celebrate Jing's birthday,

Saturday celebrate Mak's birthday,

Sunday which is today, celebrating Jesse's brithday!!!!!

some where next week one more birthday to celebrate, and that is

MY BIRTHDAYYYYY!!!!!

i'm gonna party until my pant drop

my head spin

my knee weak

my fingers crample

until i total go HAYWIRE~

ok, i got to go now for the birthday celebration

before i'm late :)

*SHOUT*

IT'S A BIRTHDAY BASH WEEKEND!!!!

A firm "NO"

wah lao, there is like no place of negations with my mum to get my own room. my reasoning is, i need "A PRIVATE SPACE" where i can feel isolated and do my work. i need a empty room with no food and tv, simply layout yet comfortable for me to focus and concentrate on my projects. is it that hard?

and HER reason for not granting my wish is because, she sees that room as another source of income. she can rent out that room for more money....... if Money is a real person right now, i'm willing to commit my first murder in my entire life by killing him!!!!!

yup, just to gain MY freedom. MINE, ME, I. very selfish. very. BUT i really feel that i need one!.

my study place now is a shared corner in the living room. where activities took place, where people walk in and out of the house. where television is blasted, where my niece is free to run to me and ask for a 'bao bao' (hug hug). it is so freaking open that i must seat appropriately, because i got tenants living in my house.

i just want to be in my comfort zone when i work. tsk.....



i have start working again. i've been in the working industry as a part timer for about 3 years now, and i feel tired already. i am so tired of the F&B or Retail or any costumer related job. it is interesting that you get to meet all walks of people but one thing, serving another human is not a easy job.

This is to all consumers!!!!!!!!

• you as a CONSUMER, i don't care how rich you are, but when you talk to a service staff, PLEASE ask with POLITENESS, showing at least some HUMANITY would be greatly appreciated. so what you are rich and of high status? your manner just imply to me that your parents probably hadn't been teaching you some basic manners in your entire life!

• "where is my food? i've been waiting for 10mins already!" hello! you want good food, you need to wait for them to cook. you want your food to come fast, then i think fast food restaurant will suits you better. HEY, don't be so impatient. the restaurant don't serve you only. OPEN YOUR EYES, LOOK AROUND. there is other tables of costumers too! but of course if you have waited for 30mins already, just check with the waiter NOT SCREAM at them.

• A SMILE or an act of COURTESY, like a THANK YOU and PLEASE will make the service staff more willing and happy to serve you. if you want a good service, be a POLITE consumer. this way, service staff will feel more enjoyable serving you.

• USE YOUR BRIAN A LITTLE PLEASE, the service staff have probably stand the whole day, part timers like me come from school and work in the night feels physically strained already. DON'T BE SO SELFISH ANS DEMANDING. when i first started out working, when a costumer raised their voice on me, i swear my tears will just burst out instantly. now, i have learn that they are just being some BIG SHIT OF ARROGANT people, WHINERS and KINGS AND QUEENS of COMPLAINERS. now when i met a nasty consumers who abused this "Consumer is always right" policy. i feel like sticking a fork into their throat and dig their eyeballs out.

there is also some sterotype groups of people with seriously bad attidue. i don't want name names here, for those who have been in the service line will probably have a list of them.

i got a feeling i'll be late for school tomorrow again. nothing new. hey, i feel that i got some Waking up disorder. should i consult a doctor?

Something milk, creamy and thick

each day my tongue will crave for a new texture of food.

some days Hot and spicy,

someday oily and crispy.

right now, i want something boiling and sweet liquid.

so i satisfied my current craving with a cup of Milo mixed with a pack of instant Horlick.

have you tired eating horlick powder before?

it is not that nice as milo powder, drinking horlick taste much better.

i feel. :)

each morning i struggled to wake up.

the snooze function is a bad invention.

i feel like i am in a bed of quick sand every morning.

my head feel so drowsy.

i feel mentally weak to battle against the sleep monster.

my lateness is getting worse!

sight......

it had been so long since i feel the morning rush.

the feeling of racing against the time in the morning.

the feeling to have to catch the 8am bus

the feeling of being punctual.

when was the last time i feel the sense of urgency in the morning?

now

every morning when i wake up i'll go,

"shit, overslept.

********sight***********

late again.........

******ARGGGHHHHHH*****"

i DO feel piss when i wake up and realise that i'll be late for school

AGAIN!

late late late.

this feeling sucks.

Not there yet, not even close...

this is the current work i'm working on, which is still uncompleted.
A big Thank you again to those who have feedback on my work, really appreciated.


i decided to redo the entire thing, which means more research.
the research part really kills me.
It is hard to find the right photo and the right tutorial.


i felt a little demoralise, because my photoshop skills just suck.
hopefully i could come up with a better one this time round. :)

WAH, Sian.

i really refuse to switch on my computer when i reached home hours ago. i procrastinated for like 4hours till my RJ time is close. anyway i am sending them in via email because my LEO is still 'freezing', so heck about the 'Rj closing time'.

i feel really 'sian' to turn my computer on, so tired of looking at this rectangular lited screen almost freaking 70% of time in a day! i got a feeling, that Mr Spec is going to knock on my door soon.

take a walk around the level during class time, and look into the other class in RP. you will most probably find many 'zomb' faces that transfixed their eyes on the screen. i just feel like screaming "GET ME A LIFE!!!!" sometimes the class get so quite because everyone is on the com, instead of talking to each other face to face, we chat through the MSN. what happen to talking face to face? what happen to this amazing creation by God call Mouth? ARGGGGGGHHHHHHHH.

i was planning to continue my design on photoshop when i get home. well well well... giving my eye a break on other medium like watching television programme and reading newspaper (yes! i am actually reading newspaper. to look for a job) is way more relaxing then starring into this intensive screen that consume my energy 4 times faster.

AND you know what, just found out that 'Allah' which means God in Malay is ban to be use by non-Muslim in Malaysia. so you people better be careful when you make any racist joke when you are in Malaysia. is there is penalty for offenders? i cannot remember what i read. OH HO.

did i mention before that i don't feel like getting a job? this is a question, because i cannot remember if i mention it before.

well anyway now a days i got the feeling to want to work again! reason is as simply as a gogocart. i need money to SHOP! isn't that obvious?! i am like struggling to hold back my temptation, i can't control it for too long, i'll go crazy~ HAHAHAHA. FLEA FLEA FLEA FLEA!!! i haven't been flea-ing!!!!! must must do it soon soon!

Officially Obese

another photo of Chevelle to share :)

should i announce my weight?

i feel like one lump of fats right now.

i weigh bloody sixty! SIXTY!!!!

oh my fatty fats fats!

where do your come from?

i seriously need a lipo suction.

i didn't know one term of school is so freaking expensive! $1050! i have an unpaid school fee and my access to LEO was being freeze. which means, i can't view or do the daily assignment through the usual way. i have to ask my classmate to send the documents to me. URGH! so troublesome. which also means that i can't get my lipo lipo until i pay my school fee. boh ho boh ho~

Relationship
a relationship is build based on communication, time spend. i think time = relationship. the more time you are willing to take off to spend with your friends or family, the closer bond there will be. understanding don't come over night. therefore it takes time to build relationship.

i need to need to learn to make time and not waste time. this year, making more time to spend on building the distance relationship shall be my goal.
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just now, my mum came in and sat beside me and watched me do my stuff on the com. honestly i feel that my private space was being invaded. i am not used to her being around, but i can tell she want to spend some time with me. or like want to 'kaypo' what i am up to. ahhhh, which ever it is, i am not comfortable with that. you know somethings are meant to keep away from parents?

this is a public blog. so if one day she just so happened to read this post. then...................................................

Chevelle's Photos update!

this is a series of collage, some of the pictures are small.

but do scroll it down slowly and look at the EACH and EVERY SINGLE photo.

it's worth it, trust me.

:)

#1 top:

i love this photo. i think this is the sweetest smile i'd capture

so far!

#2 top:

in this collage, you can tell from her face,

she was tired....

#3 top:

believe it or not, Chevelle cam whore too!
it is evidently shown in picture at the top right corner! :)

#4 top:

Chevelle got a scolding from her mum for toppling the cup

of ice onto the floor. she was being very grouchy that day.

#5 top:

if you look carefully, you can see Chevelle's mucus! hahaha

(or you can simply click on the photo to enlarge it)

#6 top:

it was a family bbq at east coast, and happy little Chevelle!

:) :)

#7 top:

everyone have their own 'Big Head shot' so as Chevelle.

look at her hair, it was still not fully grown out yet.

#8 top:

HAHAHA, little Chevelle drumming the yoga ball!

she love love it!

some great shots too! ;D

#9 top:

Cheeky Chevelle

#10 top:

posing for FHM. so sexy ~

HAHAHAHA

#11 top:

see how well she posed?

she is a potential model!!!

:) :)

I'm side tracking...

i am suppose to be doing my project, and yea here i am SIDE TRACKING. my blog is so plain omg, i am so lazy to 'beautify' it. if only putting picture is so simple just drag and drop them in here. i assure you, I'll post many pictures! ;)

*the music that is playing on my player now totally suck!

oh yesterday was a oh-so-awesome day~ Thanks to Kc for organising it, and gather all the precious busy bees together so we could have a steamboat in my house! :D i know i am sucky host, i only pack my sty when my guest had arrived. Imma damn lazy dog........

we played DIRTY truth and dare via Kc's itouch, those dare was really dirt~ Thank God there were only girls. ;D it was a quite record breaker yesterday.

it was my first time licking ketchup off Na's h_____.

it was my first time going top n______ in front of precious.

it was my first time my tongue k_______ Na and makmak.

the list goes on....

we have really lots of fun, and Kc next time you must really do your Dare k! otherwise.....MUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHAAH~

we had so much to eat, 5 girls and we eat at least $60 out of the total $75 worth of food. the prawns was really a waste, we cooked all of the prawns but none of us eat it. Na was making a joke about us being so 'rich' using prawns as our soup base. i added, " if we are richer, we'll use real abalone as our soup base." :D nah, this will never happen, who will cook the abalone and not eat them? not me! :)

school is starting tomorrow!!!!! my holiday project is left uncompleted. very well done Olivia. i actually have start a little on my poster design, then vfnruefh vonf oinv ajnv iuaernvoureah foanvoaiurh voavn oauhv oav ankjfv oafoweunavkl hgoolnval nv poegh oirgvj oajnougho arigj oaihrguahgohojbgaognovj pojrfiawj9 jbvaeg.

Good night.

Happy New Year in 2010

hello, how was your countdown? yesterday i was working while the clock struck 12 as the whole world enter into the new year, 2010. it was a only a one day job, my friend's workplace needed some temp staff.


the crowd got high on alcohol, crazy mess happened. this ang moh girl came to me upset because this another ang moh girl from another group threw wax at her for no reason. she wanted me to talk to that girl who insulted her, or do something about it. but, erm, i don't think i am fit to confront her, plus that was between she and her, not mind. i can't do anything about it really. that poor ang moh girl who came here to party left upset. i felt really sorry for her and that pretty dress she was wearing.


another crazy ang moh case, this another ang moh guy got too high on alcohol wank naked on the parapet. EPIC! FYI, he was seated 7 storey high up in the sky. i didn't see the part he wank on the parapet, my colleague told me. i only saw the part where he got into a fight with this chinese uncle and trampled on the ground by about another 6-8 angry men. this ang moh guy was real bastard that ask for beating.


at first it was only a dual fight between ang moh guy and chinese uncle. the bouncers manage to separate them in the beginning. while the bouncer was busy holding back all the angry chinese, the ang moh was behind the bouncer- free. he was was really cocky, he puts his hands up high in the sky, like some soccer player who have just scored a ball. he thought he won, because the chinese was being held up by the bouncers. then he moved on to provoke the angry chinese by wanking his weeny *ick. (Heavenly Father please cleanse me eyes for what i've seen.) his *ick really looks small. one of the bouncers gave him his brief for him to put one, but he threw it back at the bouncer. fair enough, the bouncer gave him a punched (or maybe a few?). his action evoked more anger in the crowd. the angry mob break through the bouncers and that was when the ang moh guy was being beaten to the ground. it was quite a long winded fight. the bouncer separate the crowd, the ang moh guy provoke again, fight, bouncer came in, provoke, fight....


the whole thing ended with 2 bouncers trying to hold the ang moh guy in custody while waiting for the police to come. i did not stay till the police come, i got back to work at the part where the bouncer was trying to take the ang moh in custody. what i heard latter was the ang moh guy ran away! hahahha! 100% sure he was naked!


hahaha! so that was how i enter into the new year 2010, by witnessing a fight. woohooooooo!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

I'm stalking Lady Gaga on Youtube

i am watching this video of Lady gaga performing poker face in acoustic version, suddenly it just came to me she love her ass a lot, or very proud of it. watching her perform is so pyschotic. all the insane she can put up, i wonder what's going on in her mind. i wonder what is running through her mind when she stand on the stage and perform? is that her real self? or is it her inner like mad person that she can't express it out in her normal self, only on stage she can let her inner mad soul run? her fashion is over the top, or you call it cutting edge. but i call it Over the edge and fell off the cliff. it is so extreme! if she would ever start her own fashion show, i think i'll probably walk out feeling i've just watch a cosplay. everything is so "BOOMZ" "BAMZ" WHAMPZ!" i realise in most of her vid, she is superbly into the swimwear fashion. the V that cut your butt in the way that reveal your cheek butt? she totally hype that.

this is one fashion that all the hype boutiques are adpoting too. it depends how the V cut, it is actually quite sexy too, like how Dawn yang wear it with a pair of jean. me for sure can never adopt this fashion, the high V will reveal my muffin top! awwww, but i like it. :( too bad, i am fat.

back to Lady Gaga. i know i am slow, but i realise Lady Gaga don't just have a pretty face, but a great vocal too. for moment, i thought Lady Gaga looks bimbotic-not. she is talented and definitely artsy crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!

if only i could have a collaboration with one of these great graffiti artist...

http://buzzinn.net/the-art-of-graffiti/

i think i will even laugh in my dream when i sleep... :)

Heart Not in Peace

i cannot find my camera charger, i get very vexed and impatient. it annoys me a lot, those little mess in house looks 5 times messier. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! is times like this i feel like throwing away stuff, i pick on everything around me. i just know that my charger is some where around in my house, BUT WHERE?! there is so many bloody stuff, thrash, use-less stuff!!!!!

tsk. i am a messy person myself i gotta admit. i don't put the things back to place after used. my stuff is everywhere. i am suppose to start on my holiday homework, i wanted to took some picture of my drawing so i can upload into the computer to get it digitise, that was when i realise the camera battery is low...

where are you Charger!!!!!!!!!!!!?
ARGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

Trying out the Gritty Effect

Before

After

http://photoshopfrenzy.com/?p=94

Gone

just last week i was really sad because i accidentally deleted ALL the data in my computer. according to my computer, it say "Permanently delete" none of the deleted file went to the Recycle Bin so i can't just 'restore' them back. to make things worse, i put all my hope on the IT people in my school. even they told me they can't do anything about it.

at that point of time when the IT guy tell me he can't do anything about my lost data, i can't help but to teared in front of him! it was so embarrassing to think back now. there wasn't just one guy there, there is like 3 IT guy, and some students. it was really drama, but i can't hold my emotions then. ALL my previous works i did in school, some potential works that could go into my portfolio just... "POOF" how can i not be sad?

i went back to class and only my faci was in the room, it was break time then, so the classroom is empty. i can still remember his shocked face when i walk into class.

maybe it just a women thing, the more you comfort or ask "what happen"/ showing concern, the more it makes you feel like CRYING! my faci (guy) ask the very tangible golden qns and yea, you should know what happen. full blown tearing, gag on my words, sniffling and all... -.-

there is a piece of good news to this what-seems-like-tragic. Jing's friend who is good in IT help me get back most of my lost data! how happy it that?! :D my initial intention is to complain about those corrupted- retrieved files. but you know what, i think i should be thankful and stop being such a whinny Singaporean.

AND ALWAYS BACKUP YOUR WORK!!!!

AF-AY-TI dinner.

is 2 prata, one cheese and one ko-song (plain) and salties mutton curry. my sister told me something interesting, she told me one reason that i am still so fat is because my Head is hungry rather then my Stomach is hungry. Get it? i eat out of temptation and not out of real hunger. so i have a tendency to binge.

"8 MORE DAYS TO CHRISTMAS!"

what is the colour for this year Christmas? i was thinking purple, red and glittery blue? what about you? *long sight* Christmas Christmas Christmas...pretty dresses...mad flea shopping... i am outta job man. can't flea (no money) like i want too. see, this is the only negative part about not working. apart from this, i got plenty of Time back in return. yay yay, and boo boo.

shopping is addictive, is it like a possession! sounds extreme, but it is! i like to shop in flea, firstly you can bargain, secondly you will never know what you will find. for me, when i flea i don't have any style of anything on my mind, i solely depend on my eye. whatever catches it, I'll bargain and buy it!

yesterday kraabbing 2.5 star, though i got a sore foot cause by my heels, but i got a temporary toner thigh, so kinda worth it. i know this is a self deception, c'mon this dream will only last for a day or 2 before my thigh will bounce back into (flabby ) shape. my dream will end soon, don't worry! :)

Current update

i am pretty idle right now. i am spending as if i still can support them financially, when i'm not. life without a job is laid back with one focus in mind, school. which is good in a way, however i still feel tired after school, but differently. i feel tried now, most probably i am still trying to recover from last Friday.

today i went for a Universal Studio job interview with my friends. it turn out to be a false hope, can't blame my friend though. her aunt is working there and she was told there was a high chance we could secure a position in the Entertainment department. unfortunately the people there told us a different story when we went down for interview.

"the Entertainment department is looking for full timer currently, because we are looking for someone who can commit more time." ok, i can understand on this part. they just started, and they need stable man power to kick start the business, and not part timer who comes in every 3-4 times a week.

the alternative that they offered us is, Public Ambassador. sound like some awesome post right? in the actual fact, what an Public Ambassador do is exactly like what a cleaner does. you pick up thrash and ensure the cleanliness in the park, and assisting the customer in any quries. Cleaners, basically. that-is-it. THIS, is rubbish. you know what is their reason for putting us (poly students) in this department?

"....we want to change the perspective of the typical cleaners in Singapore, not just the old aunties or uncles. SO, we need youth like you, with open heart to learn and take up new position.....i understand poly student have a tight school schedule, i don't think your can commit during weekdays. so this department suits your better, it requires lesser commitment........."

-i fall asleep while blogging half way, and i just woke up. i don't like continuing what i have stop, so i shall stop where ever i have stop. BYE. :)

"Sometime you just want to be alone to hear yourself better, and not let the world tells you who to be."

Bye Bye

yesterday i reported to work, all prepared for the worst. i put on my waterproof eye (so i won't cry), my open doors ear (so the words can enter from one and exit from the other), a stone heart (it helps to fend off all emotions). lastly i put on a cool looking 'mask' (with no expression).

i was ready to go.

and the answer is, i am no longer part of the Night Safari. i feel that my manager is someone with high expectations. a sotong like me is picking things up slower then the rest, and making more mistake then any new comer can ever afford. sooooo, "BYE BYE~"

she got a point about me not fitting into the position as a cashier. i just started working for them and i already have a accumulated shortage of $150 within a month. that is like 3/4 of my pay. last month i earned only around 200? yea, do the simple math yourself. my earning is so pathetic isn't it!

she pointed out that i look tired all the time. i am tired. i believe i am not the only one. just that i show it more obviously on my face. sorry, i am not good at disguising them. "your hair is so messy" she will always say. do you know one of MY quote is, "It is okay for my hair to be too messy, but it is NOT okay for it to be too neat."

i think one of my greatest struggle is to keep one job and like what i am doing. otherwise i feel like i'm labouring for the money. i want to earn the money and enjoy the process. i don't want to feel like a slave for it.

my holiday is coming. flea market is packing up December! this makes me excited. THEN again. i am out of job. choice 1, either i make full use of this holiday to come out with some great works that can go into my portfolio, or 2, i labour for money.

"a great part of me wants to rest and spend more time with my Portfolio development. yet, there is this little side of me that feel insecure without an extra income."

Time. very bad management of time. this time, i think i need to take a break, and think really carefully what is more important in my life right now. alot of thoughts to sort out....

Job description :

Wake Olihua up on the dot at 6.30am. rush her through her slow-mo morning. At 7.45am sharp, scream her out of the house.

Rock it like a Rock star!

i got the most rocking hairstyle in my entire life. the only spoil spot now, is the popcornsssss. -.-
trust me, is Oli Rocking Ocking Good :D i LOVE IT TOO MUCH THAT I CAN'T STOP TOUCHING IT :D TEE HEE~

i'll post up a nice post product photo of my Rocking Hair after i cyber zap my popcorns away. i don't want to spoil the picture. unfortunately i can only perfect The Picture, but not the Reality.

that's all folks!

Breathe Slow- Alesha Dixon

this song brings a nostalgic feeling in me. there was one period where i go all ga ga over this song. that time i was constantly thinking of someone whenever i played this song. well..... it is really silly to think about it right now, IT'S BULLSHIT!!!!!

"some words i said, i wish that i can take them back.

it is so embarassing.

words spoken cannot be swollow back.

it have already mark an impression on others of who you are."

-shingz

"Shingz" is totally the next most frequent word i am going to used. SHINGZ ;)

Shingz Combo

I totally forgot that I got work yesterday. I was happily shopping in the Flea market, when my manager called me. Times like this totally shingz to the edge of the cliff. It wasn’t intentional, there are just too many coincidental accident.

The working world- merciless and unforgiving.

Sometimes I wonder if my life would be way breezier without a job. sometimes your day is so bad that you got screwed in school and after school, you have to face another nasty face at work. Then the whole day you ended feeling beaten and dragged.

It is hard to achieve the best in the both world. you either do well for both or none.

just received a msg from Jas, she told me that i don't have to report for work tomorrow because my manger is still upset over the 2 issues. wooohooo Olihua, prepare your heart for the worst....

there is just to many coincidental... that makes a triple Shingz Combo.




this is the link for JH's birthday photos :D

ShingZ

i overslept this morning and missed my Cash Handling course conducted by my workplace. my manger was mad over the phone. in the back of her mind she is probably thinking i went clubbing last night therefore i couldn't wake up this morning and said i will get it from her. Shingz. get what? banana split with chocolate topped with whipped cream and cherry? or a loads full of shits? Shingz~

Paranoiac Shingz.
that was the first Shingz that happen to me the first thing i opened my eyes this morning.

mad with her paranoiac Shingz, i storm off to the living room to find something to munch my anger away. that was when i met my second Shingz, my mum. she overheard the conversation and she started telling me off about not setting my phone alarm clock. SHINGZ. i have set my alarm clock alright! i don't know why it didn't went off! my phone is an insane, how i know why the alarm did not goes off?! SHINGZ~!

don't point your finger so fast, i feel accused!

15mins and I Stop

a sudden burst of adrenaline to run, but it only last for a short 15mins. tsk, why is healthy habits so hard to build up? like having a regular workout, waking up on time, being punctual, and sticking to my diet plans? you might see me eating fruits in school everyday, but the actual fact, i am trying to balance out my unhealthy eating habits at home. i take snacks as dinner!!! AH-HA, now you know why..... ;)

Reply to Licia,

that day when i skipped class was not just drawing. it was more then that. we were suppose to come up with a actual 3D stage with all the actual placement of props lighting and all, and you know Sam. she is very particular and have high standard for the outcome. we skipped because we spend a lot of time just to come up with ONLY the model proscenium stage. we left 30 mins more to 2pm......so we ZHAO~ hahah. eh, when are you free? Nature photography!

Fatty Chic

love the weather tonight, cold and chill~ i like the feeling of walking against the wind. SHIOK AH.
eh, do you know something? i cannot stop eating once i get home! eh, very bad you know. eh, so late already i snack alot hor, and eat nothing but carbs. eh, i think i want to die with the name as a Fatty chic man.

no no, if i continue to eat in impluse, i will be a Fatty CHICKENN, and sell to the slaughter house and get slaughtered. oh wow~ so Fattylicious. good for curry chicken, some part can sell to KFC for deep fried. some part of me can sell to the hawker and be part of the delicious Hainanese Chicken rice, or i can be a decorative and yummy chicken floss on the buns in Bread talk. so versatile! like not bad right?!

the juiciest part will be the tummy and thigh. the head cannot be eaten, chop it off to feed the dogs. the chicken breast, ermmmm.... not advisable to go with food. so you can cut it off and feed the sharks. the hand can be used as chicken stalks as soup flavouring. i got big feet, those who love stew chicken feet, you are in lucky! it is not just big and also smelly. but is as tasty as smelly toufu, so you betcha love it to the maxi!

oh yea, dear SHEENA thank you for your concern. i am still Fat Chicky alive.

Hello

i am in the library at 3.20pm. it is a crime for me to be lurking in the school library on Tues on this time. you know why? because, this is the time that i am suppose to be in the class...

you are right! i skipped class, kinda like a partial. today is my elective, Production design. the first day of the class, i knew that i have choose the wrong module. IT IS DAMN BORRRRING.!!!!
Production design is all about the study of the theater production design. we study the importance of the props, the costume, the different kind of scenes in the story and everything you gotta know about production design.

one example of this kinda of theater performance is Phantom Of Opera. heard of it? if not, another one will be the Cats, or the Dim sum Dollies. this are some of the examples of theater arts. yea, so we study them.

i been doing badly for this elective.... :( but i can't drop this elective, because no matter what i still have to complete 3 elective by the time i graduate. i don't want to waste time trying to complete my elective next year.

next year will be my final year, i want more time on my FYP!

Man with Tail

it looks more like a dick have grown the wrong side..... or like a umbellical cord.... or...a piece of shit? it looks like everything else but a tail? hahahhaha. interesting...

BOMBARD

i realise those friends around me who work, we all share one thing in common. which is, whenever when we don't need to work, we just want to linger at home and have some PRIVATE TIME on our own. simply because we have been serving people all day and feel so drain. like you have been giving and not receiving anything back for yourself. like some kind of retreat or something.

i am going to rant a lot, feeling a little bombarded right now-

just home from cell, and i can't rest my mind from school work, my Portfolio and some other commitment that i have outside school. this new month of November i am only schedule to work 8 days in this entire month. i am rather thankful that i see more empty slots this month for me to sort things out.

life is a continuation, is not like when a new month came and your body shut down for a day and get all recharged and feeling new. I'm kinda having a hangover from the overwhelming October still. my body is still lack of rest. i wish i can go for a holiday soon, to rest my body, mind and soul from all this work load. i need a break from this busy chain.

i can't find the energy to start on my portfolio yet. shit, kc just reminded me about attachment. this is another big headache. my suck up school don't arrange attachment for us, we have to look for our own. arghhh....! SIAN AH. i am coming in late for school practically everyday, I'm like repeating my attitude in sem 1.... this way, i'll never find myself an attachment. OH NO!!!!!

crisis! crisis......!

Vain

1. excessively proud: excessively proud, especially of your appearance
2. unsuccessful: failing to have or unlikely to have the intended or desired result a vain attempt at persuading them
3. empty of substance: devoid of substance or meaning

i don't know, some people is not up for me to judge. they are looking for love, what seems to me is seeking for security or some kind of self assurance? they move on from one love to another so easily, and each time they call it love. yes, i think love at the first sight is love. then again, how long can you love him for his appearance by just knowing him barely 14 days? oh well, this is love isn't it?

love is a mystery, so cheesy, easy, weesy.

Quique The Head