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Popcorn Invasion Chapter 584
what it is, tonight i got a shortage of $40 at work. i work a lot this month and i lose a lot at the same time. -.- AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. for this month, i have accumulated a shortage about $120. which is like 1/3 of my pay- gone.


i quit.

Broken Sentences

like how i have predicted at the start of this month. i will be totally worn out. true enough, i feel really exhausted (mentally) now. it is almost the end of this month, i feel like i don't have enough rest everyday. school, work, school and work after school....this is crazy!


HOPEFULLY, next month will be different. i think having enough rest is really important for ones mind. it really refreshes your brain, so idea can flow and it affects your reaction to subjects and matters around you as well........


i don't really know what i am typing. i think you call this mental blockage?

I'M FREAKING LATE AGAIN!

....woke up late, puffy face, protruding tummy!

suicidal morning...

:(

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle,

Life is a maze
and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
I've tried
and I don't know why


-The show By Lenka

Letter of tonight, L and F

Love and Fat, they are two individual.


does anybody know of the next flea coming up? i feel like shopping again. MAD shopping... nope, i am not feeling rich, just feel like shopping to de-stress. :D

uncle, can i have apples and pear?

maybe orange and mango?

what about watermelon and papaya?

hell no, no papaya!

YES! i want duriansssss.

there is nothing on my mind.
blank.


maybe i need to go for a movie? maybe i just need more pockets of quality time with friends? i need to find a way to get rid of the little-stress-block in between my brows.


hey Joey, thanks for the motivation. i will HANG ON, i am Buenoing~

TGIF

Tonight i feel relaxed. after school i went for a telematch and my group came in first. all credits to that guy (one of the organiser) being so sporting and enthu about it. otherwise, i think we'll just stroll through the game.

i feel good not having to RUSH off anywhere after school. simply spending some time with my friends and chat. ahhhhhhhhhhhh~ this is little relaxation that i feel contented of.

i made a joke about me being 21 this year. it was then i realise 21 is not far away from me! 21- is, in fact arriving in 2 years time from now :( i feel oldddddd at the thought of it now. i should be proud being 19!!!!!!!!

when i was 16, i wish i was older.
when i was 17, i was afraid to enter 18.
when i am 18, i feel like i have to hold a certain responsibility.
then came 19..... i wish i was 16 again.

OMG, next year i will complete my 2nd set of Tens. that is like.... O-L-D.
the time seems to have fast forward. it is like a constant reminder to me that i got no time to waste.




just to share something about my current class. there this group of acoustic boys in my class that will entertain us with songs everyday. sometimes i'll just sit among them and get drown in their awesome strums. i got limited vocabulary, i cannot think of the perfect adjective to describe the feeling. it is just so-awesome. it makes me feel so small, being not able to play any instrument. yet, i like the feeling to just sit there and watch the boys flaring their talents. the word is AWESOME! if you know of a better adjective to describe the feeling of being incapable yet enjoying it at the same time, do tell me. YOU can do me a big help to expand my vocabulary. A million thank to you from the rock bottom of my heart.

Once Bitten, Twice Shy...

today is my first time i report for work, late, and being send home. the feeling is totally humiliating. it totally sucks.

my manager is being too paranoid, being in her 60s, i'll try to be more understanding. i am serious about this job, it just so happen that i got too many 'incidents' that clashes with my working days...

sucks.

the contract is 6months, i've got a feeling my days working there will end soon... after this 1st week of my sem 2, the amount of works i have to do is increasing. Portfolio is one of my major stress now. i need to come out with a proposal on what i will be focusing on, and submit to my supervisor on Mon to get his approval...

lots of planning, thinking, research to be done.

stress. stress. stress.

i just start working in my current working place not long ago. i don't want to give a feeling that i'm not serious about it. i try not to reject my manager too much if she ask me to replace anyone, because i need to show her that i am interested in working. i try not to change my working dates with her, unless under some circumstances- crop up in school or something...

the first time i told her i couldn't make it for work was because of a friend birthday. i struggled to tell her that, this is something i felt is too personal, work to me, comes first. furthermore like i said, i just start working. but she excused me...

the second time was yesterday i had to meet with my supervisor to discuss on my portfolio. i called my manager and told her i'll be late for work. in the end, she ask me not to turned up for work because it was pointless by the time i reached there.

and today, i was late. before that i had lunch with my cell group and came down from there. according to her, i'm late for an hour. she lectured me and send me home to repent if i'm serious about this job. she spoon on the past 2 issues where i couldn't make it for work. i was really disappointed...

i really don't know what to do now. i need more time for my school, but this month i am schedule to work almost 4/5 days in a week. i can't find replacement, i can't tell my manager. she will think that i-am-not-serious again! argggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i feel physically and mentally weak right now. is like taking things one step at a time, and see what will happen next. now, i am standing at the edge. i just need one more 'incident' that i can't make it for work, and down the cliff i fly.

Bad Start
i start my term 2 with my laptop down, sore throat, and feeling all moody. on top of this, this month i am being schedule to work almost everyday!

in my previous work place, i'll give my availability, but i DON'T get to work all the days i have given. likewise, i thought my current place work the same too. so i only crossed out 2 days in a week, thinking that i'll give my manager more choices. never did i thought that she will put me to work all the days that i did not crossed out. -.-

some times i wonder if i should give thanks or complain about it. well, in this case, i can only blame myself for being so careless. knowing that i am starting school, i should have inform my manager about it. aiyah...olihua..olihua...when will you stop being so careless?!

ever since mon, i have been suffering from mental blockage in class. i call this symptom, Holiday Lag. plus, i got bonus blow from my illness, that makes a combo Lag.

semester 2 is really where we start hands on, this ONLY come after 1 and a half long years! homework really starts to come in. whew, i foresee this month is going to very very very busy, stressed and loaded.

this month is going to be very challenging for me....

A response to my friends ...

after reading Sheena's blog,
I feel envious.
Sheena, you sound like you eat a lot of good food!
Nike say "Just do it"
and Sheena's interpretation is
"Just EAT it"
Sheena, i am envy of you because fat is never anywhere near you.
you don't even need a second thought before eating...
:(

dear Ruoping, after reading your blog....
you shared something so personal, for example your struggles.
i really feel for you, especially the one you blog about you caught in the middle to give up netball or not. "i forgot being a netballer is my dream..." i feel for you....
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i'm listening to Energy by Keri hilson on Lyricsfly.com. my brain wasn't focusing on the lyrics, instead the word Energy seems to speak to me more. in this period, where i got plenty of time on my own. so much so that i do a lot of reflections.

i realised that i have been running around the clock, 24 hour against the time. this is how it is like having to study and work at the same time!

Energy,
is what i lack,
when i pushed myself too hard,
and suffered a energy breakdown.

Holiday is a Energy recharged for me
i get to have my own time,
to catch up and relax with my friends.
to take a step back and awe

"Awe
mixture of wonder and dread: a feeling of amazement and respect mixed with fear that is often coupled with a feeling of personal insignificance or powerlessnes"

this practically summarise how i feel the entire time during this holiday...

Viciously Biting My Apple...

3 Hippos, 2 ducks and 1 Chicken

pass, the bus

i waddled home today

pass, the main street

i cut through the blocks.

came upon an interesting graffiti on a Kindergarten school wall,

walked pass groups of Malay dressed in their colour outfit,

walked pass the soccer field.

finally, i waddled home.

i got 2 SiSter.
one is Sister, another is siSter.
this sIster, is me.


sIster was playing with my siSter today.
we had a friendly cat fight.
sIster asked my siSter to accompany me out to visit a friend of Hougang, Ang Mo Kio.


my lazy [square.box] [triangle.chocolate] [circular.mooncake] siSter refused.
so we had a sISter friendly cat fight.


is ok, nobody is hurt.
siSter laugh.
sIster laugh.
little Chevelle at the side also laugh.


good.
happy ending.




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i got 2 SiSter.
one is Sister, another is siSter.
this sIster, is me.


sIster was playing with my siSter today.
we had a friendly cat fight.
sIster asked my siSter to accompany me out to visit a friend of Hougang, Ang Mo Kio.


my lazy [square.box] [triangle.chocolate] [circular.mooncake] siSter refused.
so we had a sISter friendly cat fight.


is ok, nobody is hurt.
siSter laugh.
sIster laugh.
little Chevelle at the side laugh too.


Good.
Happy Ending.

I GIVE UP

....on photoshop tonight. ever since after i came back from working in comex, my eyes seems to get too stress out in front of the computer screen so easily. i was doing research on using photoshop to create an Ice effect. i was researching and trying out, when my eye starts to protest. this sucks. computer and me is like a buddy now... and my near future....

i cannot take already...have to rest my eye now.....

"something smell really foul now....

i mean really...."

-the above statement have got nothing in relation with the following post.

hey, today have been a well spend day with Jasmine.

I'm glad we went out together today. :)

I've finally settled the past and move on.

no longer I'll be haunted by the piles of uniform in my closet.

i was struggling this morning

at the thoughts of going back to that taboo number place again.

whew~

aftermath, all my worries, is redundant.

may it be a truly sincere greeting:

"hey so nice to see you!"

or just a superficial one....

i think

i am glad...

soooooo, one heavy load lifted off, i am glad, more then glad, very glad :D i will miss working there, that place have open up my world by 6m in diameter. by far, i have say the people there is the nicest people i have work with. yay, really, thank you _ _ _.

Jas and i had about a 50% tour around the national museum. there is so many things to see, so many artifacts. SO MANY, that we can't cover it within an hour. THAT, we will cover the rest in another day. the night is so foggy tonight. i wonder if our neighbourhood country's woods is on fire again?

we had Monster Ice for dinner, come to think of it now. the bowl of ice is pretty not worth the money. it is not really nice, it taste like ice with fruits. they uses real fruit, ya...that is it, and that small bowl cost 6.50! what the hell, what am i thinking?

i feel like eating strawberry prata tomorrow, i feel like having a dinner at chomp chomp tomorrow.....

REST

4 crazily intensive day working as the cashier in Comex show have finally ended. therefore, i name this post, rest.

aunties were the most irritating costumers. they were the bunch that asked a lot of questions, and not just that, after you have answered them, they will ask you why. every aunty i served will at least take 10-15mins. the nastier ones will make a big fuse when they don't get the things they want. they want all the free stuff in the house. they will talk to you in the most impolite manner and they demand for their things. bossy, arrogance, unreasonable, they bargain like as if they do in market. the thing they do best is "WHERE IS YOUR MANAGER? I WANT TO COMPLAIN!!"

go ahead, i am more then happy to direct them to him :)


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i was at my grandmother house just now and was being entertained by my 4yr old cousin. he played a Ultraman CD and he start imitating the moves of the Ultraman. the most amusing thing is, there is a part where there is a Ultraman dance! it was totally retarded! all the Ultraman stand in a formation of a bowling pin position and start doing the Ultraman stances.

i thought it was very amusing for me. i wonder what is it about this characters that fascinate so many young kids. how did i fall in love with Power Ranger and Ultraman when i was young? i still remember i was a big fan of the Yellow Ranger. now to me they look so hilarious in the body fitting outfit fighting live size rubber monster.

oh whatever. all thanks to them, they make up my childhood :)

6 Sep 2009 I Completed the first 5k run in my life.

- the yellow ribbon run

this is really a Thanksgiving. the best part was, the rain came after we ended the race.

i thought i would give up half way and start walking. never did i expect that i would finish the race, and not feeling too exhausted at the end. i sign up the race with my club members of Skyway, and make this a club run. we split into 3 section among ourselveshe fast runner, the mid runner, the slowest.

i, definitely don't fall in the fast runner section, me of little faith of myself, i choose the slowest runners group. i think in this group i act as a motivator to my other friends, constantly cheered them on not to give up and spur them to run. this, i was constantly reminded of wenjing, who encouraged me not to give up during training. ;) Wenjing, you got the credits too! :D

that race was not only the climax on Sunday, the aftermath travelling to church was the part 2 of the climax. we couldn't hop on to any bus to church, because it was too packed. so as the consecutive buses that came.

we hiked alongside the highway, walk on top of a 35 degree steep slopes and chit chatted in the rain. it was only until one bus stop away from church then we manage to get on a bus.

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yesterday was my official day to have my own counter in my new work place as a official cashier. my first day and i have a shortage of $36............ :(

today is like a food revenge day. i literally gorged at my food today.
for tonight's dinner in celebration of my dad's birthday, we had a spread in my house.
i pig at every dish in front of me. my stomach almost burst from overloading, but my mouth refuse to cooperate. so i continue to gorge more food down the throat.

after the awesome spread, my mum baked cookies, and a failed attempt of a mango cheese cake. i was really full, still, i ate 3-4 of the big cookies. took 1 big slice of the failed attempt cheese cake. beside that, there were still some cookies mixture left. my mum fuses the rest of the mixture with mango puree and make them into mango muffin. i had 6-9 of the little ones.

-.-

what is wrong with me tonight?!

this coming sun, i got a Yellow ribbon run. this week, i did not even train a single day for it. today is already Friday!!!!!

oh man oh man. i feel a little faint right now, at the thought of the run this Sunday. sigh~

I'm still awake and waiting for my dad to come home and blow out the candles. he went off after dinner, he said he'll be back at around 1plus. now is already 2.37am to be exact. the sky is red (it is going to rain), tonight is going to be a cool cool night~

something quite disheartening when i saw my dad earlier on. both of his feet is swollen like 2 big ham. we try to persuade him to see a doctor, but he refuse. what a stubborn man. he is already so old! those swell looks infectious, he better consult the doctor soon, before who knows what will happen..... sigh.....

ever since holiday start, i spend more time at home, and catch up the life at home. like seeing the chores my mum dos everyday. the nonsensical cries she have to dealt with my niece everyday. the little growing up moments of Chevelle.

is amazing how much i have missed out in my niece growing up days. we stay in the same house, but i hardly interact with her. i either came home late, where she is already sleeping, or I'll spend most of my time with my laptop more then her. what a aunt huh! :(

now Chevelle can dance, make funny faces, and take command! like she know how to "HI-5", wave her hand to bid good bye and blow kisses. she understand what is 'come', "take your water bottle" and things like this. I'm amaze at how much she understand our language now, though i still couldn't figure out what is "gugu gah gah ah!" her little baby talk.

i was playing with her one day, and i asked her to smile.

this is what she give me.

she tossed her head back and gave me a big smile.

Drama MAMA

the missing taboo numbers.