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Popcorn Invasion Chapter 584
what it is, tonight i got a shortage of $40 at work. i work a lot this month and i lose a lot at the same time. -.- AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. for this month, i have accumulated a shortage about $120. which is like 1/3 of my pay- gone.


i quit.

Broken Sentences

like how i have predicted at the start of this month. i will be totally worn out. true enough, i feel really exhausted (mentally) now. it is almost the end of this month, i feel like i don't have enough rest everyday. school, work, school and work after school....this is crazy!


HOPEFULLY, next month will be different. i think having enough rest is really important for ones mind. it really refreshes your brain, so idea can flow and it affects your reaction to subjects and matters around you as well........


i don't really know what i am typing. i think you call this mental blockage?

I'M FREAKING LATE AGAIN!

....woke up late, puffy face, protruding tummy!

suicidal morning...

:(

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle,

Life is a maze
and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
I've tried
and I don't know why


-The show By Lenka

Letter of tonight, L and F

Love and Fat, they are two individual.


does anybody know of the next flea coming up? i feel like shopping again. MAD shopping... nope, i am not feeling rich, just feel like shopping to de-stress. :D

uncle, can i have apples and pear?

maybe orange and mango?

what about watermelon and papaya?

hell no, no papaya!

YES! i want duriansssss.

there is nothing on my mind.
blank.


maybe i need to go for a movie? maybe i just need more pockets of quality time with friends? i need to find a way to get rid of the little-stress-block in between my brows.


hey Joey, thanks for the motivation. i will HANG ON, i am Buenoing~

TGIF

Tonight i feel relaxed. after school i went for a telematch and my group came in first. all credits to that guy (one of the organiser) being so sporting and enthu about it. otherwise, i think we'll just stroll through the game.

i feel good not having to RUSH off anywhere after school. simply spending some time with my friends and chat. ahhhhhhhhhhhh~ this is little relaxation that i feel contented of.

i made a joke about me being 21 this year. it was then i realise 21 is not far away from me! 21- is, in fact arriving in 2 years time from now :( i feel oldddddd at the thought of it now. i should be proud being 19!!!!!!!!

when i was 16, i wish i was older.
when i was 17, i was afraid to enter 18.
when i am 18, i feel like i have to hold a certain responsibility.
then came 19..... i wish i was 16 again.

OMG, next year i will complete my 2nd set of Tens. that is like.... O-L-D.
the time seems to have fast forward. it is like a constant reminder to me that i got no time to waste.




just to share something about my current class. there this group of acoustic boys in my class that will entertain us with songs everyday. sometimes i'll just sit among them and get drown in their awesome strums. i got limited vocabulary, i cannot think of the perfect adjective to describe the feeling. it is just so-awesome. it makes me feel so small, being not able to play any instrument. yet, i like the feeling to just sit there and watch the boys flaring their talents. the word is AWESOME! if you know of a better adjective to describe the feeling of being incapable yet enjoying it at the same time, do tell me. YOU can do me a big help to expand my vocabulary. A million thank to you from the rock bottom of my heart.

Once Bitten, Twice Shy...

today is my first time i report for work, late, and being send home. the feeling is totally humiliating. it totally sucks.

my manager is being too paranoid, being in her 60s, i'll try to be more understanding. i am serious about this job, it just so happen that i got too many 'incidents' that clashes with my working days...

sucks.

the contract is 6months, i've got a feeling my days working there will end soon... after this 1st week of my sem 2, the amount of works i have to do is increasing. Portfolio is one of my major stress now. i need to come out with a proposal on what i will be focusing on, and submit to my supervisor on Mon to get his approval...

lots of planning, thinking, research to be done.

stress. stress. stress.

i just start working in my current working place not long ago. i don't want to give a feeling that i'm not serious about it. i try not to reject my manager too much if she ask me to replace anyone, because i need to show her that i am interested in working. i try not to change my working dates with her, unless under some circumstances- crop up in school or something...

the first time i told her i couldn't make it for work was because of a friend birthday. i struggled to tell her that, this is something i felt is too personal, work to me, comes first. furthermore like i said, i just start working. but she excused me...

the second time was yesterday i had to meet with my supervisor to discuss on my portfolio. i called my manager and told her i'll be late for work. in the end, she ask me not to turned up for work because it was pointless by the time i reached there.

and today, i was late. before that i had lunch with my cell group and came down from there. according to her, i'm late for an hour. she lectured me and send me home to repent if i'm serious about this job. she spoon on the past 2 issues where i couldn't make it for work. i was really disappointed...

i really don't know what to do now. i need more time for my school, but this month i am schedule to work almost 4/5 days in a week. i can't find replacement, i can't tell my manager. she will think that i-am-not-serious again! argggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i feel physically and mentally weak right now. is like taking things one step at a time, and see what will happen next. now, i am standing at the edge. i just need one more 'incident' that i can't make it for work, and down the cliff i fly.

Bad Start
i start my term 2 with my laptop down, sore throat, and feeling all moody. on top of this, this month i am being schedule to work almost everyday!

in my previous work place, i'll give my availability, but i DON'T get to work all the days i have given. likewise, i thought my current place work the same too. so i only crossed out 2 days in a week, thinking that i'll give my manager more choices. never did i thought that she will put me to work all the days that i did not crossed out. -.-

some times i wonder if i should give thanks or complain about it. well, in this case, i can only blame myself for being so careless. knowing that i am starting school, i should have inform my manager about it. aiyah...olihua..olihua...when will you stop being so careless?!

ever since mon, i have been suffering from mental blockage in class. i call this symptom, Holiday Lag. plus, i got bonus blow from my illness, that makes a combo Lag.

semester 2 is really where we start hands on, this ONLY come after 1 and a half long years! homework really starts to come in. whew, i foresee this month is going to very very very busy, stressed and loaded.

this month is going to be very challenging for me....