Bye Bye

yesterday i reported to work, all prepared for the worst. i put on my waterproof eye (so i won't cry), my open doors ear (so the words can enter from one and exit from the other), a stone heart (it helps to fend off all emotions). lastly i put on a cool looking 'mask' (with no expression).

i was ready to go.

and the answer is, i am no longer part of the Night Safari. i feel that my manager is someone with high expectations. a sotong like me is picking things up slower then the rest, and making more mistake then any new comer can ever afford. sooooo, "BYE BYE~"

she got a point about me not fitting into the position as a cashier. i just started working for them and i already have a accumulated shortage of $150 within a month. that is like 3/4 of my pay. last month i earned only around 200? yea, do the simple math yourself. my earning is so pathetic isn't it!

she pointed out that i look tired all the time. i am tired. i believe i am not the only one. just that i show it more obviously on my face. sorry, i am not good at disguising them. "your hair is so messy" she will always say. do you know one of MY quote is, "It is okay for my hair to be too messy, but it is NOT okay for it to be too neat."

i think one of my greatest struggle is to keep one job and like what i am doing. otherwise i feel like i'm labouring for the money. i want to earn the money and enjoy the process. i don't want to feel like a slave for it.

my holiday is coming. flea market is packing up December! this makes me excited. THEN again. i am out of job. choice 1, either i make full use of this holiday to come out with some great works that can go into my portfolio, or 2, i labour for money.

"a great part of me wants to rest and spend more time with my Portfolio development. yet, there is this little side of me that feel insecure without an extra income."

Time. very bad management of time. this time, i think i need to take a break, and think really carefully what is more important in my life right now. alot of thoughts to sort out....

Job description :

Wake Olihua up on the dot at 6.30am. rush her through her slow-mo morning. At 7.45am sharp, scream her out of the house.

Rock it like a Rock star!

i got the most rocking hairstyle in my entire life. the only spoil spot now, is the popcornsssss. -.-
trust me, is Oli Rocking Ocking Good :D i LOVE IT TOO MUCH THAT I CAN'T STOP TOUCHING IT :D TEE HEE~

i'll post up a nice post product photo of my Rocking Hair after i cyber zap my popcorns away. i don't want to spoil the picture. unfortunately i can only perfect The Picture, but not the Reality.

that's all folks!

Breathe Slow- Alesha Dixon

this song brings a nostalgic feeling in me. there was one period where i go all ga ga over this song. that time i was constantly thinking of someone whenever i played this song. well..... it is really silly to think about it right now, IT'S BULLSHIT!!!!!

"some words i said, i wish that i can take them back.

it is so embarassing.

words spoken cannot be swollow back.

it have already mark an impression on others of who you are."

-shingz

"Shingz" is totally the next most frequent word i am going to used. SHINGZ ;)

Shingz Combo

I totally forgot that I got work yesterday. I was happily shopping in the Flea market, when my manager called me. Times like this totally shingz to the edge of the cliff. It wasn’t intentional, there are just too many coincidental accident.

The working world- merciless and unforgiving.

Sometimes I wonder if my life would be way breezier without a job. sometimes your day is so bad that you got screwed in school and after school, you have to face another nasty face at work. Then the whole day you ended feeling beaten and dragged.

It is hard to achieve the best in the both world. you either do well for both or none.

just received a msg from Jas, she told me that i don't have to report for work tomorrow because my manger is still upset over the 2 issues. wooohooo Olihua, prepare your heart for the worst....

there is just to many coincidental... that makes a triple Shingz Combo.




this is the link for JH's birthday photos :D

ShingZ

i overslept this morning and missed my Cash Handling course conducted by my workplace. my manger was mad over the phone. in the back of her mind she is probably thinking i went clubbing last night therefore i couldn't wake up this morning and said i will get it from her. Shingz. get what? banana split with chocolate topped with whipped cream and cherry? or a loads full of shits? Shingz~

Paranoiac Shingz.
that was the first Shingz that happen to me the first thing i opened my eyes this morning.

mad with her paranoiac Shingz, i storm off to the living room to find something to munch my anger away. that was when i met my second Shingz, my mum. she overheard the conversation and she started telling me off about not setting my phone alarm clock. SHINGZ. i have set my alarm clock alright! i don't know why it didn't went off! my phone is an insane, how i know why the alarm did not goes off?! SHINGZ~!

don't point your finger so fast, i feel accused!

15mins and I Stop

a sudden burst of adrenaline to run, but it only last for a short 15mins. tsk, why is healthy habits so hard to build up? like having a regular workout, waking up on time, being punctual, and sticking to my diet plans? you might see me eating fruits in school everyday, but the actual fact, i am trying to balance out my unhealthy eating habits at home. i take snacks as dinner!!! AH-HA, now you know why..... ;)

Reply to Licia,

that day when i skipped class was not just drawing. it was more then that. we were suppose to come up with a actual 3D stage with all the actual placement of props lighting and all, and you know Sam. she is very particular and have high standard for the outcome. we skipped because we spend a lot of time just to come up with ONLY the model proscenium stage. we left 30 mins more to 2pm......so we ZHAO~ hahah. eh, when are you free? Nature photography!

Fatty Chic

love the weather tonight, cold and chill~ i like the feeling of walking against the wind. SHIOK AH.
eh, do you know something? i cannot stop eating once i get home! eh, very bad you know. eh, so late already i snack alot hor, and eat nothing but carbs. eh, i think i want to die with the name as a Fatty chic man.

no no, if i continue to eat in impluse, i will be a Fatty CHICKENN, and sell to the slaughter house and get slaughtered. oh wow~ so Fattylicious. good for curry chicken, some part can sell to KFC for deep fried. some part of me can sell to the hawker and be part of the delicious Hainanese Chicken rice, or i can be a decorative and yummy chicken floss on the buns in Bread talk. so versatile! like not bad right?!

the juiciest part will be the tummy and thigh. the head cannot be eaten, chop it off to feed the dogs. the chicken breast, ermmmm.... not advisable to go with food. so you can cut it off and feed the sharks. the hand can be used as chicken stalks as soup flavouring. i got big feet, those who love stew chicken feet, you are in lucky! it is not just big and also smelly. but is as tasty as smelly toufu, so you betcha love it to the maxi!

oh yea, dear SHEENA thank you for your concern. i am still Fat Chicky alive.

Hello

i am in the library at 3.20pm. it is a crime for me to be lurking in the school library on Tues on this time. you know why? because, this is the time that i am suppose to be in the class...

you are right! i skipped class, kinda like a partial. today is my elective, Production design. the first day of the class, i knew that i have choose the wrong module. IT IS DAMN BORRRRING.!!!!
Production design is all about the study of the theater production design. we study the importance of the props, the costume, the different kind of scenes in the story and everything you gotta know about production design.

one example of this kinda of theater performance is Phantom Of Opera. heard of it? if not, another one will be the Cats, or the Dim sum Dollies. this are some of the examples of theater arts. yea, so we study them.

i been doing badly for this elective.... :( but i can't drop this elective, because no matter what i still have to complete 3 elective by the time i graduate. i don't want to waste time trying to complete my elective next year.

next year will be my final year, i want more time on my FYP!

Man with Tail

it looks more like a dick have grown the wrong side..... or like a umbellical cord.... or...a piece of shit? it looks like everything else but a tail? hahahhaha. interesting...

BOMBARD

i realise those friends around me who work, we all share one thing in common. which is, whenever when we don't need to work, we just want to linger at home and have some PRIVATE TIME on our own. simply because we have been serving people all day and feel so drain. like you have been giving and not receiving anything back for yourself. like some kind of retreat or something.

i am going to rant a lot, feeling a little bombarded right now-

just home from cell, and i can't rest my mind from school work, my Portfolio and some other commitment that i have outside school. this new month of November i am only schedule to work 8 days in this entire month. i am rather thankful that i see more empty slots this month for me to sort things out.

life is a continuation, is not like when a new month came and your body shut down for a day and get all recharged and feeling new. I'm kinda having a hangover from the overwhelming October still. my body is still lack of rest. i wish i can go for a holiday soon, to rest my body, mind and soul from all this work load. i need a break from this busy chain.

i can't find the energy to start on my portfolio yet. shit, kc just reminded me about attachment. this is another big headache. my suck up school don't arrange attachment for us, we have to look for our own. arghhh....! SIAN AH. i am coming in late for school practically everyday, I'm like repeating my attitude in sem 1.... this way, i'll never find myself an attachment. OH NO!!!!!

crisis! crisis......!

Vain

1. excessively proud: excessively proud, especially of your appearance
2. unsuccessful: failing to have or unlikely to have the intended or desired result a vain attempt at persuading them
3. empty of substance: devoid of substance or meaning

i don't know, some people is not up for me to judge. they are looking for love, what seems to me is seeking for security or some kind of self assurance? they move on from one love to another so easily, and each time they call it love. yes, i think love at the first sight is love. then again, how long can you love him for his appearance by just knowing him barely 14 days? oh well, this is love isn't it?

love is a mystery, so cheesy, easy, weesy.

Quique The Head

Durain is "smelly" enough, imagine durian vomit.

the entire day of today, i've been running back and forth the toilet. according to the doctor, i've consume some dirty food that causes this upset in the stomach. back ache, queasy feeling inside my stomach, fatigue face from vomiting, cold, best of all- i can't control the urge to shit. everything was involuntary. :(

i am feeling much better now. the diarrhea have gone, so as the sensation to barf. my lower back is still aching, feeling both mentally and physically feeble still.

yesterday was my my elder sister and mum who got this disease. little Chevelle is having diarrhea for quite some time. seems like this disease is contagious. this whole drama starts early this morning when i was about to prepare for church. that was when i felt this strong sensation to barf- durain vomit. the smell really sucks.

time now is 9.16pm and i hadn't consume any solid food except for the medication. i didn't dare to eat, i'm afraid to agitate my my stomach and i'll start vomiting again. i am hungry...i can feel my stomach growling...