I'm stalking Lady Gaga on Youtube

i am watching this video of Lady gaga performing poker face in acoustic version, suddenly it just came to me she love her ass a lot, or very proud of it. watching her perform is so pyschotic. all the insane she can put up, i wonder what's going on in her mind. i wonder what is running through her mind when she stand on the stage and perform? is that her real self? or is it her inner like mad person that she can't express it out in her normal self, only on stage she can let her inner mad soul run? her fashion is over the top, or you call it cutting edge. but i call it Over the edge and fell off the cliff. it is so extreme! if she would ever start her own fashion show, i think i'll probably walk out feeling i've just watch a cosplay. everything is so "BOOMZ" "BAMZ" WHAMPZ!" i realise in most of her vid, she is superbly into the swimwear fashion. the V that cut your butt in the way that reveal your cheek butt? she totally hype that.

this is one fashion that all the hype boutiques are adpoting too. it depends how the V cut, it is actually quite sexy too, like how Dawn yang wear it with a pair of jean. me for sure can never adopt this fashion, the high V will reveal my muffin top! awwww, but i like it. :( too bad, i am fat.

back to Lady Gaga. i know i am slow, but i realise Lady Gaga don't just have a pretty face, but a great vocal too. for moment, i thought Lady Gaga looks bimbotic-not. she is talented and definitely artsy crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!

if only i could have a collaboration with one of these great graffiti artist...

http://buzzinn.net/the-art-of-graffiti/

i think i will even laugh in my dream when i sleep... :)

Heart Not in Peace

i cannot find my camera charger, i get very vexed and impatient. it annoys me a lot, those little mess in house looks 5 times messier. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! is times like this i feel like throwing away stuff, i pick on everything around me. i just know that my charger is some where around in my house, BUT WHERE?! there is so many bloody stuff, thrash, use-less stuff!!!!!

tsk. i am a messy person myself i gotta admit. i don't put the things back to place after used. my stuff is everywhere. i am suppose to start on my holiday homework, i wanted to took some picture of my drawing so i can upload into the computer to get it digitise, that was when i realise the camera battery is low...

where are you Charger!!!!!!!!!!!!?
ARGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

Trying out the Gritty Effect

Before

After

http://photoshopfrenzy.com/?p=94

Gone

just last week i was really sad because i accidentally deleted ALL the data in my computer. according to my computer, it say "Permanently delete" none of the deleted file went to the Recycle Bin so i can't just 'restore' them back. to make things worse, i put all my hope on the IT people in my school. even they told me they can't do anything about it.

at that point of time when the IT guy tell me he can't do anything about my lost data, i can't help but to teared in front of him! it was so embarrassing to think back now. there wasn't just one guy there, there is like 3 IT guy, and some students. it was really drama, but i can't hold my emotions then. ALL my previous works i did in school, some potential works that could go into my portfolio just... "POOF" how can i not be sad?

i went back to class and only my faci was in the room, it was break time then, so the classroom is empty. i can still remember his shocked face when i walk into class.

maybe it just a women thing, the more you comfort or ask "what happen"/ showing concern, the more it makes you feel like CRYING! my faci (guy) ask the very tangible golden qns and yea, you should know what happen. full blown tearing, gag on my words, sniffling and all... -.-

there is a piece of good news to this what-seems-like-tragic. Jing's friend who is good in IT help me get back most of my lost data! how happy it that?! :D my initial intention is to complain about those corrupted- retrieved files. but you know what, i think i should be thankful and stop being such a whinny Singaporean.

AND ALWAYS BACKUP YOUR WORK!!!!

AF-AY-TI dinner.

is 2 prata, one cheese and one ko-song (plain) and salties mutton curry. my sister told me something interesting, she told me one reason that i am still so fat is because my Head is hungry rather then my Stomach is hungry. Get it? i eat out of temptation and not out of real hunger. so i have a tendency to binge.

"8 MORE DAYS TO CHRISTMAS!"

what is the colour for this year Christmas? i was thinking purple, red and glittery blue? what about you? *long sight* Christmas Christmas Christmas...pretty dresses...mad flea shopping... i am outta job man. can't flea (no money) like i want too. see, this is the only negative part about not working. apart from this, i got plenty of Time back in return. yay yay, and boo boo.

shopping is addictive, is it like a possession! sounds extreme, but it is! i like to shop in flea, firstly you can bargain, secondly you will never know what you will find. for me, when i flea i don't have any style of anything on my mind, i solely depend on my eye. whatever catches it, I'll bargain and buy it!

yesterday kraabbing 2.5 star, though i got a sore foot cause by my heels, but i got a temporary toner thigh, so kinda worth it. i know this is a self deception, c'mon this dream will only last for a day or 2 before my thigh will bounce back into (flabby ) shape. my dream will end soon, don't worry! :)

Current update

i am pretty idle right now. i am spending as if i still can support them financially, when i'm not. life without a job is laid back with one focus in mind, school. which is good in a way, however i still feel tired after school, but differently. i feel tried now, most probably i am still trying to recover from last Friday.

today i went for a Universal Studio job interview with my friends. it turn out to be a false hope, can't blame my friend though. her aunt is working there and she was told there was a high chance we could secure a position in the Entertainment department. unfortunately the people there told us a different story when we went down for interview.

"the Entertainment department is looking for full timer currently, because we are looking for someone who can commit more time." ok, i can understand on this part. they just started, and they need stable man power to kick start the business, and not part timer who comes in every 3-4 times a week.

the alternative that they offered us is, Public Ambassador. sound like some awesome post right? in the actual fact, what an Public Ambassador do is exactly like what a cleaner does. you pick up thrash and ensure the cleanliness in the park, and assisting the customer in any quries. Cleaners, basically. that-is-it. THIS, is rubbish. you know what is their reason for putting us (poly students) in this department?

"....we want to change the perspective of the typical cleaners in Singapore, not just the old aunties or uncles. SO, we need youth like you, with open heart to learn and take up new position.....i understand poly student have a tight school schedule, i don't think your can commit during weekdays. so this department suits your better, it requires lesser commitment........."

-i fall asleep while blogging half way, and i just woke up. i don't like continuing what i have stop, so i shall stop where ever i have stop. BYE. :)

"Sometime you just want to be alone to hear yourself better, and not let the world tells you who to be."

Bye Bye

yesterday i reported to work, all prepared for the worst. i put on my waterproof eye (so i won't cry), my open doors ear (so the words can enter from one and exit from the other), a stone heart (it helps to fend off all emotions). lastly i put on a cool looking 'mask' (with no expression).

i was ready to go.

and the answer is, i am no longer part of the Night Safari. i feel that my manager is someone with high expectations. a sotong like me is picking things up slower then the rest, and making more mistake then any new comer can ever afford. sooooo, "BYE BYE~"

she got a point about me not fitting into the position as a cashier. i just started working for them and i already have a accumulated shortage of $150 within a month. that is like 3/4 of my pay. last month i earned only around 200? yea, do the simple math yourself. my earning is so pathetic isn't it!

she pointed out that i look tired all the time. i am tired. i believe i am not the only one. just that i show it more obviously on my face. sorry, i am not good at disguising them. "your hair is so messy" she will always say. do you know one of MY quote is, "It is okay for my hair to be too messy, but it is NOT okay for it to be too neat."

i think one of my greatest struggle is to keep one job and like what i am doing. otherwise i feel like i'm labouring for the money. i want to earn the money and enjoy the process. i don't want to feel like a slave for it.

my holiday is coming. flea market is packing up December! this makes me excited. THEN again. i am out of job. choice 1, either i make full use of this holiday to come out with some great works that can go into my portfolio, or 2, i labour for money.

"a great part of me wants to rest and spend more time with my Portfolio development. yet, there is this little side of me that feel insecure without an extra income."

Time. very bad management of time. this time, i think i need to take a break, and think really carefully what is more important in my life right now. alot of thoughts to sort out....

Job description :

Wake Olihua up on the dot at 6.30am. rush her through her slow-mo morning. At 7.45am sharp, scream her out of the house.

Rock it like a Rock star!

i got the most rocking hairstyle in my entire life. the only spoil spot now, is the popcornsssss. -.-
trust me, is Oli Rocking Ocking Good :D i LOVE IT TOO MUCH THAT I CAN'T STOP TOUCHING IT :D TEE HEE~

i'll post up a nice post product photo of my Rocking Hair after i cyber zap my popcorns away. i don't want to spoil the picture. unfortunately i can only perfect The Picture, but not the Reality.

that's all folks!

Breathe Slow- Alesha Dixon

this song brings a nostalgic feeling in me. there was one period where i go all ga ga over this song. that time i was constantly thinking of someone whenever i played this song. well..... it is really silly to think about it right now, IT'S BULLSHIT!!!!!

"some words i said, i wish that i can take them back.

it is so embarassing.

words spoken cannot be swollow back.

it have already mark an impression on others of who you are."

-shingz

"Shingz" is totally the next most frequent word i am going to used. SHINGZ ;)

Shingz Combo

I totally forgot that I got work yesterday. I was happily shopping in the Flea market, when my manager called me. Times like this totally shingz to the edge of the cliff. It wasn’t intentional, there are just too many coincidental accident.

The working world- merciless and unforgiving.

Sometimes I wonder if my life would be way breezier without a job. sometimes your day is so bad that you got screwed in school and after school, you have to face another nasty face at work. Then the whole day you ended feeling beaten and dragged.

It is hard to achieve the best in the both world. you either do well for both or none.

just received a msg from Jas, she told me that i don't have to report for work tomorrow because my manger is still upset over the 2 issues. wooohooo Olihua, prepare your heart for the worst....

there is just to many coincidental... that makes a triple Shingz Combo.




this is the link for JH's birthday photos :D

ShingZ

i overslept this morning and missed my Cash Handling course conducted by my workplace. my manger was mad over the phone. in the back of her mind she is probably thinking i went clubbing last night therefore i couldn't wake up this morning and said i will get it from her. Shingz. get what? banana split with chocolate topped with whipped cream and cherry? or a loads full of shits? Shingz~

Paranoiac Shingz.
that was the first Shingz that happen to me the first thing i opened my eyes this morning.

mad with her paranoiac Shingz, i storm off to the living room to find something to munch my anger away. that was when i met my second Shingz, my mum. she overheard the conversation and she started telling me off about not setting my phone alarm clock. SHINGZ. i have set my alarm clock alright! i don't know why it didn't went off! my phone is an insane, how i know why the alarm did not goes off?! SHINGZ~!

don't point your finger so fast, i feel accused!

15mins and I Stop

a sudden burst of adrenaline to run, but it only last for a short 15mins. tsk, why is healthy habits so hard to build up? like having a regular workout, waking up on time, being punctual, and sticking to my diet plans? you might see me eating fruits in school everyday, but the actual fact, i am trying to balance out my unhealthy eating habits at home. i take snacks as dinner!!! AH-HA, now you know why..... ;)

Reply to Licia,

that day when i skipped class was not just drawing. it was more then that. we were suppose to come up with a actual 3D stage with all the actual placement of props lighting and all, and you know Sam. she is very particular and have high standard for the outcome. we skipped because we spend a lot of time just to come up with ONLY the model proscenium stage. we left 30 mins more to 2pm......so we ZHAO~ hahah. eh, when are you free? Nature photography!

Fatty Chic

love the weather tonight, cold and chill~ i like the feeling of walking against the wind. SHIOK AH.
eh, do you know something? i cannot stop eating once i get home! eh, very bad you know. eh, so late already i snack alot hor, and eat nothing but carbs. eh, i think i want to die with the name as a Fatty chic man.

no no, if i continue to eat in impluse, i will be a Fatty CHICKENN, and sell to the slaughter house and get slaughtered. oh wow~ so Fattylicious. good for curry chicken, some part can sell to KFC for deep fried. some part of me can sell to the hawker and be part of the delicious Hainanese Chicken rice, or i can be a decorative and yummy chicken floss on the buns in Bread talk. so versatile! like not bad right?!

the juiciest part will be the tummy and thigh. the head cannot be eaten, chop it off to feed the dogs. the chicken breast, ermmmm.... not advisable to go with food. so you can cut it off and feed the sharks. the hand can be used as chicken stalks as soup flavouring. i got big feet, those who love stew chicken feet, you are in lucky! it is not just big and also smelly. but is as tasty as smelly toufu, so you betcha love it to the maxi!

oh yea, dear SHEENA thank you for your concern. i am still Fat Chicky alive.

Hello

i am in the library at 3.20pm. it is a crime for me to be lurking in the school library on Tues on this time. you know why? because, this is the time that i am suppose to be in the class...

you are right! i skipped class, kinda like a partial. today is my elective, Production design. the first day of the class, i knew that i have choose the wrong module. IT IS DAMN BORRRRING.!!!!
Production design is all about the study of the theater production design. we study the importance of the props, the costume, the different kind of scenes in the story and everything you gotta know about production design.

one example of this kinda of theater performance is Phantom Of Opera. heard of it? if not, another one will be the Cats, or the Dim sum Dollies. this are some of the examples of theater arts. yea, so we study them.

i been doing badly for this elective.... :( but i can't drop this elective, because no matter what i still have to complete 3 elective by the time i graduate. i don't want to waste time trying to complete my elective next year.

next year will be my final year, i want more time on my FYP!

Man with Tail

it looks more like a dick have grown the wrong side..... or like a umbellical cord.... or...a piece of shit? it looks like everything else but a tail? hahahhaha. interesting...

BOMBARD

i realise those friends around me who work, we all share one thing in common. which is, whenever when we don't need to work, we just want to linger at home and have some PRIVATE TIME on our own. simply because we have been serving people all day and feel so drain. like you have been giving and not receiving anything back for yourself. like some kind of retreat or something.

i am going to rant a lot, feeling a little bombarded right now-

just home from cell, and i can't rest my mind from school work, my Portfolio and some other commitment that i have outside school. this new month of November i am only schedule to work 8 days in this entire month. i am rather thankful that i see more empty slots this month for me to sort things out.

life is a continuation, is not like when a new month came and your body shut down for a day and get all recharged and feeling new. I'm kinda having a hangover from the overwhelming October still. my body is still lack of rest. i wish i can go for a holiday soon, to rest my body, mind and soul from all this work load. i need a break from this busy chain.

i can't find the energy to start on my portfolio yet. shit, kc just reminded me about attachment. this is another big headache. my suck up school don't arrange attachment for us, we have to look for our own. arghhh....! SIAN AH. i am coming in late for school practically everyday, I'm like repeating my attitude in sem 1.... this way, i'll never find myself an attachment. OH NO!!!!!

crisis! crisis......!

Vain

1. excessively proud: excessively proud, especially of your appearance
2. unsuccessful: failing to have or unlikely to have the intended or desired result a vain attempt at persuading them
3. empty of substance: devoid of substance or meaning

i don't know, some people is not up for me to judge. they are looking for love, what seems to me is seeking for security or some kind of self assurance? they move on from one love to another so easily, and each time they call it love. yes, i think love at the first sight is love. then again, how long can you love him for his appearance by just knowing him barely 14 days? oh well, this is love isn't it?

love is a mystery, so cheesy, easy, weesy.

Quique The Head

Durain is "smelly" enough, imagine durian vomit.

the entire day of today, i've been running back and forth the toilet. according to the doctor, i've consume some dirty food that causes this upset in the stomach. back ache, queasy feeling inside my stomach, fatigue face from vomiting, cold, best of all- i can't control the urge to shit. everything was involuntary. :(

i am feeling much better now. the diarrhea have gone, so as the sensation to barf. my lower back is still aching, feeling both mentally and physically feeble still.

yesterday was my my elder sister and mum who got this disease. little Chevelle is having diarrhea for quite some time. seems like this disease is contagious. this whole drama starts early this morning when i was about to prepare for church. that was when i felt this strong sensation to barf- durain vomit. the smell really sucks.

time now is 9.16pm and i hadn't consume any solid food except for the medication. i didn't dare to eat, i'm afraid to agitate my my stomach and i'll start vomiting again. i am hungry...i can feel my stomach growling...

Find your Halloween hairstyle this month at http://dontjudgemyhair.com now! i know this link come in a bit late, well, there is still time before Halloween end this month!!!!! quick, find it now or never!!!!!!

Popcorn Invasion Chapter 584
what it is, tonight i got a shortage of $40 at work. i work a lot this month and i lose a lot at the same time. -.- AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. for this month, i have accumulated a shortage about $120. which is like 1/3 of my pay- gone.


i quit.

Broken Sentences

like how i have predicted at the start of this month. i will be totally worn out. true enough, i feel really exhausted (mentally) now. it is almost the end of this month, i feel like i don't have enough rest everyday. school, work, school and work after school....this is crazy!


HOPEFULLY, next month will be different. i think having enough rest is really important for ones mind. it really refreshes your brain, so idea can flow and it affects your reaction to subjects and matters around you as well........


i don't really know what i am typing. i think you call this mental blockage?

I'M FREAKING LATE AGAIN!

....woke up late, puffy face, protruding tummy!

suicidal morning...

:(

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle,

Life is a maze
and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
I've tried
and I don't know why


-The show By Lenka

Letter of tonight, L and F

Love and Fat, they are two individual.


does anybody know of the next flea coming up? i feel like shopping again. MAD shopping... nope, i am not feeling rich, just feel like shopping to de-stress. :D

uncle, can i have apples and pear?

maybe orange and mango?

what about watermelon and papaya?

hell no, no papaya!

YES! i want duriansssss.

there is nothing on my mind.
blank.


maybe i need to go for a movie? maybe i just need more pockets of quality time with friends? i need to find a way to get rid of the little-stress-block in between my brows.


hey Joey, thanks for the motivation. i will HANG ON, i am Buenoing~

TGIF

Tonight i feel relaxed. after school i went for a telematch and my group came in first. all credits to that guy (one of the organiser) being so sporting and enthu about it. otherwise, i think we'll just stroll through the game.

i feel good not having to RUSH off anywhere after school. simply spending some time with my friends and chat. ahhhhhhhhhhhh~ this is little relaxation that i feel contented of.

i made a joke about me being 21 this year. it was then i realise 21 is not far away from me! 21- is, in fact arriving in 2 years time from now :( i feel oldddddd at the thought of it now. i should be proud being 19!!!!!!!!

when i was 16, i wish i was older.
when i was 17, i was afraid to enter 18.
when i am 18, i feel like i have to hold a certain responsibility.
then came 19..... i wish i was 16 again.

OMG, next year i will complete my 2nd set of Tens. that is like.... O-L-D.
the time seems to have fast forward. it is like a constant reminder to me that i got no time to waste.




just to share something about my current class. there this group of acoustic boys in my class that will entertain us with songs everyday. sometimes i'll just sit among them and get drown in their awesome strums. i got limited vocabulary, i cannot think of the perfect adjective to describe the feeling. it is just so-awesome. it makes me feel so small, being not able to play any instrument. yet, i like the feeling to just sit there and watch the boys flaring their talents. the word is AWESOME! if you know of a better adjective to describe the feeling of being incapable yet enjoying it at the same time, do tell me. YOU can do me a big help to expand my vocabulary. A million thank to you from the rock bottom of my heart.

Once Bitten, Twice Shy...

today is my first time i report for work, late, and being send home. the feeling is totally humiliating. it totally sucks.

my manager is being too paranoid, being in her 60s, i'll try to be more understanding. i am serious about this job, it just so happen that i got too many 'incidents' that clashes with my working days...

sucks.

the contract is 6months, i've got a feeling my days working there will end soon... after this 1st week of my sem 2, the amount of works i have to do is increasing. Portfolio is one of my major stress now. i need to come out with a proposal on what i will be focusing on, and submit to my supervisor on Mon to get his approval...

lots of planning, thinking, research to be done.

stress. stress. stress.

i just start working in my current working place not long ago. i don't want to give a feeling that i'm not serious about it. i try not to reject my manager too much if she ask me to replace anyone, because i need to show her that i am interested in working. i try not to change my working dates with her, unless under some circumstances- crop up in school or something...

the first time i told her i couldn't make it for work was because of a friend birthday. i struggled to tell her that, this is something i felt is too personal, work to me, comes first. furthermore like i said, i just start working. but she excused me...

the second time was yesterday i had to meet with my supervisor to discuss on my portfolio. i called my manager and told her i'll be late for work. in the end, she ask me not to turned up for work because it was pointless by the time i reached there.

and today, i was late. before that i had lunch with my cell group and came down from there. according to her, i'm late for an hour. she lectured me and send me home to repent if i'm serious about this job. she spoon on the past 2 issues where i couldn't make it for work. i was really disappointed...

i really don't know what to do now. i need more time for my school, but this month i am schedule to work almost 4/5 days in a week. i can't find replacement, i can't tell my manager. she will think that i-am-not-serious again! argggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i feel physically and mentally weak right now. is like taking things one step at a time, and see what will happen next. now, i am standing at the edge. i just need one more 'incident' that i can't make it for work, and down the cliff i fly.

Bad Start
i start my term 2 with my laptop down, sore throat, and feeling all moody. on top of this, this month i am being schedule to work almost everyday!

in my previous work place, i'll give my availability, but i DON'T get to work all the days i have given. likewise, i thought my current place work the same too. so i only crossed out 2 days in a week, thinking that i'll give my manager more choices. never did i thought that she will put me to work all the days that i did not crossed out. -.-

some times i wonder if i should give thanks or complain about it. well, in this case, i can only blame myself for being so careless. knowing that i am starting school, i should have inform my manager about it. aiyah...olihua..olihua...when will you stop being so careless?!

ever since mon, i have been suffering from mental blockage in class. i call this symptom, Holiday Lag. plus, i got bonus blow from my illness, that makes a combo Lag.

semester 2 is really where we start hands on, this ONLY come after 1 and a half long years! homework really starts to come in. whew, i foresee this month is going to very very very busy, stressed and loaded.

this month is going to be very challenging for me....

A response to my friends ...

after reading Sheena's blog,
I feel envious.
Sheena, you sound like you eat a lot of good food!
Nike say "Just do it"
and Sheena's interpretation is
"Just EAT it"
Sheena, i am envy of you because fat is never anywhere near you.
you don't even need a second thought before eating...
:(

dear Ruoping, after reading your blog....
you shared something so personal, for example your struggles.
i really feel for you, especially the one you blog about you caught in the middle to give up netball or not. "i forgot being a netballer is my dream..." i feel for you....
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i'm listening to Energy by Keri hilson on Lyricsfly.com. my brain wasn't focusing on the lyrics, instead the word Energy seems to speak to me more. in this period, where i got plenty of time on my own. so much so that i do a lot of reflections.

i realised that i have been running around the clock, 24 hour against the time. this is how it is like having to study and work at the same time!

Energy,
is what i lack,
when i pushed myself too hard,
and suffered a energy breakdown.

Holiday is a Energy recharged for me
i get to have my own time,
to catch up and relax with my friends.
to take a step back and awe

"Awe
mixture of wonder and dread: a feeling of amazement and respect mixed with fear that is often coupled with a feeling of personal insignificance or powerlessnes"

this practically summarise how i feel the entire time during this holiday...

Viciously Biting My Apple...

3 Hippos, 2 ducks and 1 Chicken

pass, the bus

i waddled home today

pass, the main street

i cut through the blocks.

came upon an interesting graffiti on a Kindergarten school wall,

walked pass groups of Malay dressed in their colour outfit,

walked pass the soccer field.

finally, i waddled home.

i got 2 SiSter.
one is Sister, another is siSter.
this sIster, is me.


sIster was playing with my siSter today.
we had a friendly cat fight.
sIster asked my siSter to accompany me out to visit a friend of Hougang, Ang Mo Kio.


my lazy [square.box] [triangle.chocolate] [circular.mooncake] siSter refused.
so we had a sISter friendly cat fight.


is ok, nobody is hurt.
siSter laugh.
sIster laugh.
little Chevelle at the side also laugh.


good.
happy ending.




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i got 2 SiSter.
one is Sister, another is siSter.
this sIster, is me.


sIster was playing with my siSter today.
we had a friendly cat fight.
sIster asked my siSter to accompany me out to visit a friend of Hougang, Ang Mo Kio.


my lazy [square.box] [triangle.chocolate] [circular.mooncake] siSter refused.
so we had a sISter friendly cat fight.


is ok, nobody is hurt.
siSter laugh.
sIster laugh.
little Chevelle at the side laugh too.


Good.
Happy Ending.

I GIVE UP

....on photoshop tonight. ever since after i came back from working in comex, my eyes seems to get too stress out in front of the computer screen so easily. i was doing research on using photoshop to create an Ice effect. i was researching and trying out, when my eye starts to protest. this sucks. computer and me is like a buddy now... and my near future....

i cannot take already...have to rest my eye now.....

"something smell really foul now....

i mean really...."

-the above statement have got nothing in relation with the following post.

hey, today have been a well spend day with Jasmine.

I'm glad we went out together today. :)

I've finally settled the past and move on.

no longer I'll be haunted by the piles of uniform in my closet.

i was struggling this morning

at the thoughts of going back to that taboo number place again.

whew~

aftermath, all my worries, is redundant.

may it be a truly sincere greeting:

"hey so nice to see you!"

or just a superficial one....

i think

i am glad...

soooooo, one heavy load lifted off, i am glad, more then glad, very glad :D i will miss working there, that place have open up my world by 6m in diameter. by far, i have say the people there is the nicest people i have work with. yay, really, thank you _ _ _.

Jas and i had about a 50% tour around the national museum. there is so many things to see, so many artifacts. SO MANY, that we can't cover it within an hour. THAT, we will cover the rest in another day. the night is so foggy tonight. i wonder if our neighbourhood country's woods is on fire again?

we had Monster Ice for dinner, come to think of it now. the bowl of ice is pretty not worth the money. it is not really nice, it taste like ice with fruits. they uses real fruit, ya...that is it, and that small bowl cost 6.50! what the hell, what am i thinking?

i feel like eating strawberry prata tomorrow, i feel like having a dinner at chomp chomp tomorrow.....

REST

4 crazily intensive day working as the cashier in Comex show have finally ended. therefore, i name this post, rest.

aunties were the most irritating costumers. they were the bunch that asked a lot of questions, and not just that, after you have answered them, they will ask you why. every aunty i served will at least take 10-15mins. the nastier ones will make a big fuse when they don't get the things they want. they want all the free stuff in the house. they will talk to you in the most impolite manner and they demand for their things. bossy, arrogance, unreasonable, they bargain like as if they do in market. the thing they do best is "WHERE IS YOUR MANAGER? I WANT TO COMPLAIN!!"

go ahead, i am more then happy to direct them to him :)


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i was at my grandmother house just now and was being entertained by my 4yr old cousin. he played a Ultraman CD and he start imitating the moves of the Ultraman. the most amusing thing is, there is a part where there is a Ultraman dance! it was totally retarded! all the Ultraman stand in a formation of a bowling pin position and start doing the Ultraman stances.

i thought it was very amusing for me. i wonder what is it about this characters that fascinate so many young kids. how did i fall in love with Power Ranger and Ultraman when i was young? i still remember i was a big fan of the Yellow Ranger. now to me they look so hilarious in the body fitting outfit fighting live size rubber monster.

oh whatever. all thanks to them, they make up my childhood :)

6 Sep 2009 I Completed the first 5k run in my life.

- the yellow ribbon run

this is really a Thanksgiving. the best part was, the rain came after we ended the race.

i thought i would give up half way and start walking. never did i expect that i would finish the race, and not feeling too exhausted at the end. i sign up the race with my club members of Skyway, and make this a club run. we split into 3 section among ourselveshe fast runner, the mid runner, the slowest.

i, definitely don't fall in the fast runner section, me of little faith of myself, i choose the slowest runners group. i think in this group i act as a motivator to my other friends, constantly cheered them on not to give up and spur them to run. this, i was constantly reminded of wenjing, who encouraged me not to give up during training. ;) Wenjing, you got the credits too! :D

that race was not only the climax on Sunday, the aftermath travelling to church was the part 2 of the climax. we couldn't hop on to any bus to church, because it was too packed. so as the consecutive buses that came.

we hiked alongside the highway, walk on top of a 35 degree steep slopes and chit chatted in the rain. it was only until one bus stop away from church then we manage to get on a bus.

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yesterday was my official day to have my own counter in my new work place as a official cashier. my first day and i have a shortage of $36............ :(

today is like a food revenge day. i literally gorged at my food today.
for tonight's dinner in celebration of my dad's birthday, we had a spread in my house.
i pig at every dish in front of me. my stomach almost burst from overloading, but my mouth refuse to cooperate. so i continue to gorge more food down the throat.

after the awesome spread, my mum baked cookies, and a failed attempt of a mango cheese cake. i was really full, still, i ate 3-4 of the big cookies. took 1 big slice of the failed attempt cheese cake. beside that, there were still some cookies mixture left. my mum fuses the rest of the mixture with mango puree and make them into mango muffin. i had 6-9 of the little ones.

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what is wrong with me tonight?!

this coming sun, i got a Yellow ribbon run. this week, i did not even train a single day for it. today is already Friday!!!!!

oh man oh man. i feel a little faint right now, at the thought of the run this Sunday. sigh~

I'm still awake and waiting for my dad to come home and blow out the candles. he went off after dinner, he said he'll be back at around 1plus. now is already 2.37am to be exact. the sky is red (it is going to rain), tonight is going to be a cool cool night~

something quite disheartening when i saw my dad earlier on. both of his feet is swollen like 2 big ham. we try to persuade him to see a doctor, but he refuse. what a stubborn man. he is already so old! those swell looks infectious, he better consult the doctor soon, before who knows what will happen..... sigh.....

ever since holiday start, i spend more time at home, and catch up the life at home. like seeing the chores my mum dos everyday. the nonsensical cries she have to dealt with my niece everyday. the little growing up moments of Chevelle.

is amazing how much i have missed out in my niece growing up days. we stay in the same house, but i hardly interact with her. i either came home late, where she is already sleeping, or I'll spend most of my time with my laptop more then her. what a aunt huh! :(

now Chevelle can dance, make funny faces, and take command! like she know how to "HI-5", wave her hand to bid good bye and blow kisses. she understand what is 'come', "take your water bottle" and things like this. I'm amaze at how much she understand our language now, though i still couldn't figure out what is "gugu gah gah ah!" her little baby talk.

i was playing with her one day, and i asked her to smile.

this is what she give me.

she tossed her head back and gave me a big smile.