Butter Strawberry Honeydew

party at butter factory for the first time yesterday. i let loose and drink over the amount the i have limited myself because of DIET. oh well, i told myself since i'm already there and i need to get 'high' to enjoy so i tar cup after cup. so much of sustaining my diet plan, one night in the club i lose it all.

i had fun, butter factory is fun :)

oh the platforms that i order from Gelliz i have collected it today. i am quite disappointed with the pair Rayne that i ordered because the front is too tight that my feet is squashed inside and it hurts when i walk. :(

this is the one. i took size 39 but i think it will fit in just nice for size 38. my feet are too broad.. anybody interested in buying?????? you can drop me a msg or something.

K-POP 2NE1

i am hook on 2NE1 on youtube. their undeniable funky outfit and dance move on top of that i am more interested on how did the ones with monolid did their eye make up and make it so nice!

boy, i know i have painting my entire lid black for ages so did they! just that they do it in a better and nicer way and they wear it with so much confidence. in the past i condemn my monolid so much to the extent i cross my heart i'll get a plastic surgery in the future when i have the bucks. now thanks to them (they give me hope), i will try to learn the monolid make up and also learn to appreciate my monolid.

after so many years....i know right!

blame the industry that promote so much about double eye lid- big eye beauty can't blame me for falling into the advertising world. it had been a stereotype in the advertising world isn't it? now i guess the beauty world is searching for something new or maybe got inspired but the korean, because i see more advertisement with monolid models now a days. awesome sweet! :)

yea-yea yea-yea yea-yea 2-N-E-1~

Because

I feel like typing on the keyboard, i shall generate some nonsense here. 

i was link hopping on youtube, and found this artist

Jessie James.

her songs is nice!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A-35GWbTjus&feature=channel

click on the link to listen to her songs

oh and i think Jolin tsai latest song sound really awful.

her voice just sound irritating to me.

listen to Jessie James on youtube.

VEHHHHHH NICEEEE.

My Sister keeper

yea i know everyone have watched or read the novel 10 millions years ahead, here i am just climbing out my cave trying to catch up with the movie world. sorry, i haven't even watch AVATAR the last most epic movie not-to-be-miss. sadly, i did. the lastest movie i caught was Resident Evil. amazingly i laugh when the zombies got shot. in my mind i pity the zombies, i imagine the zombies are the 'rejects' that failed to get the lead role during casting and got the zombies role instead. but they still gladly receive the role because they still get the 1 minute of fame on the big screen before being shot down. woohoo~

tears just keep welling up my eye. not now, i mean when i was watching the movie. sigh~~~ what a story.

i was reading the book and i thought i had the movie in my hard disk. bam, so i watched it. now what? complete reading the book of course.

ahhhhh~~~ story like this create an instant emotion, impact... not really, because tomorrow i'll probably forget everything until i read the pages again and get reminded of the scenes. ahhhh~~~~ damn good, i mean the movie.



my Saturday and Sunday is now fixed, Mustafa work work work and home. every weekend travelling there i'll always feel a little out of Singapore from the time i alighted from train all the way walking towards Mustafa. i will be surrounded by a large population of not my race, features that is so sharp big eye and dark skin. Little India seem like a tourist attraction place (have it been so all the while? i didn't know) because i'll always see Caucasian among the flock. come to think of it, Little India should be one of the tourist attraction place because it is part of Singapore multi racial identity. like Chinatown.

i think i just sounded dumb. i am a Singaporean alright. it just that i never view Little India as a place of attraction to me.



new words i learn today:
Oxymoron (oxy-mo-ron)
 - expression with contradictory words: a phrase in which two words of contradictory meaning are used together for special effect, for example, “wise fool” or “legal murder”

Emancipation  (e-man-ci-pay-tion)

 1. act of freeing: the act or process of setting somebody free or of freeing somebody from restrictions
 2. being freed: the condition or fact of being set free or freed from some restriction






these words, i doubt i'll ever use it but it is good to know.

did i ever share that there this guy that i dislike from my work place? there is this Sumsung promoter whom i really get irritated when he talk. is the way he talk and the things he say, is REALLY IRRITATING. hmmm, i think this is a bias opinion of him from me. in the past his counter was so far from mine ( i really thank God for that) that he can't possibly keep walking over to talk crap to me cos then it will be obvious that he is not working. but now the bloody Mustafa made changes to the arrangement of the counters and move his station right beside mine. i sulk the whole day at work. i refuse to talk or look in his way and avoid all means to start a conversation with him.

is obvious that i don't like him. he ask me "eh why you so quiet today?" i just go "em." in my heart, is because your counter is right beside me now and i feel choke. shit. this will be the setting for the rest of my days in Mustafa. i hate it.

yesterday i already know that the Sumsung counter have move right beside mine cos the China phone promoter sms me. so today i went prepared with a book and another phone (for surfing net) to keep myself occupied. my plan went on well. when i get bored reading, i surf the net with the phone. when i get bored playing with the phone i bury myself in the novel and when i get bored with both, i serve the come-look-don't buy-ask alot of questions customers.

i am not motivated to push sales now because i don't get commission, so what's the point? there is rumor that our pay will change. it says next month onward there will be a certain target for everyone to hit daily. if we hit the daily target we get paid at $8.50 per hour if not, we are only getting paid at $6.50 per hour. ridiculous much, if this rumor is true- i'll quit. i'll jump to Sony erricssion or Motorola or HTC or Blackberry. Lg is so 'niao pok.'

blogging from mustafa

blogging from phone is not easy, but i had so much time on hand. No costumer for me to serve. No problem.

If only there is cute guys here for me to drool over. Time will pass much sweeter, but no. There is cartons of mustache guys or trays of foreign chin chin na if you get what i mean. Handful of other asia spices What do you expect to find in mustafa?

Expect the expected.

Only occassional you'll find a cute blue eye that seems to lost his way in mustafa.

last night was EXTREME

the new word now is EXTREME.

i used to like the idea having more then one agenda in a day. i like the idea that my day is packed with different places i have to run to. for example- AMK pick up some goods in the morning, afternoon meet sister for lunch then night i'll meet another group of friends. something like this, running about from one place to another in a day.

now i don't like it anymore. i'll factor in the long travelling time from A-B, i hate the long train or bus ride. well, maybe if i have a car, i of course won't mind running about. hustle bustle busy- lazy.

partying was great, the boys were really silly. well i guess silly boys make everything fun & funny. there was this guy (not my friend) a joker, the way he dance is really EXTREME! he do power slide on the dance floor, dance like as if  in a mosh pit. he grind boys and some guys are entertaining enough to play along with him. thanks to him, we all had a real EXTREME laugh ;)

Let down

have you ever went for an job interview, the interviewee spoke with so much hope (more like false hope) that they will contact you again but they never did?

just randomly saw this excerpt:

someone who is physically disabled finally met up with his pen pal

on the day they met, the conversation seems normal.

ever since, the pen pal never wrote to him anymore.

i am just wondering...

WHY THEY SO ASSHOLE ONE!!!!

from this line onward will be my daily ra-ta-ta.

i am thinking of my next design idea...

i had Mr Ronald Mcdonald, Mr KFC and Mr Mustafa

but i don't know if i should make them into 3 villain or hero

what do you think?

the weather these days especially after the rain is mad cold.

my nose have been producing enough icky to make a bottle of glue.

cover up yourself with blanket and keep yourself warm people.

not many time in Singapore you get to walk around in blankets.

i love it when cereals on discount in NTUC.

this time round is POST TRAIL MIX CRUNCH

buy 1 and get 1 free offer :D

my loving mum bought 8 packs

do the math:

8 x 2 = 16 packs

yes, BREAKFAST planned.

breakfast have become the most important meal for me in the day,

not because after my mum bought this 16 pack

but because this will be my most heavy meal in the day,

my lunch will be light, and dinner will be NIL-

and the morning food is what i love to eat best.

60kg is no joke now.

i realise diet is not the way to slim down.

diet and exercise does.

the research told me i need 300mins of workout in a week to loss the weight

i figured that on both the weekend i'll working 

i won't be able to have time to exercise.

i'm still left for monday - fri

do the math

300 / 5 = 60min of workout per day

exercise like running, swimming, rope skipping, and even doing star jump

i'll see how long i can sustain this...

Test post

i'm blogging from phone. Testing

Perfectionist

talking to a Perfectionist always make me feel guilty, intimidated, low, self conscious to sum up, they make me feel like i've been wasting my 19years away.

i was never whole heartedly devoted in doing something or making any matter in my life- Perfect. i always swim around the border line, not the worse and the not the best. i always fall under the average group.

at this age, i am just beginning to ponder more about what is going to be ahead of me. scary.

'yea, nobody knows the answer except God'

graduation is not far away anymore. i am one step behind to the working world, one step towards my possible career. this matter of fact scare me a lot inside. i am uncertain where i can head to... i stare at my pathetic few pieces of art works in front of me... not up to standard.

i hate talking to a Beautician because they make me feel really inferior and also because i know how many grains and peas are congesting my pores- that's why i'm manufacture popcorns. tsk. in fact i don't want this vegetarian prata complexion EITHER!

i hate talking to a body perfectionist, no i don't even want to talk to them i don't want to stand near them at all!. this is obvious- because i'll feel like a lump of fats beside them. whenever i wear shorts, i just wish i hadn't because all i have to flash is my cellulites. then what the hell was i thinking then when i choose that outfit for the day?


i try to make changes right now to the way i am leading my laid back life. is like i either be the best or nothing. i don't want to be just Olivia, i want to be OLIVIA. 


you know what i mean. 
yes you do. 
yes i do.

September Comex Show

ended yesterday. damn tired.

you bet, stand the whole day from 10am-9.30pm with 2 breaks or taking a skive inside the toilet cubicle resting my ass and legs. never stand for such a long hours during work and 4 days straight. my voice is hoarse now because i need to battle my volume with the speakers' in order for my customers to hear me. if only i have a friend working with me, the minutes won't feel like hours. glad that i saw some familiar faces there and made some new friends that i often run to for chit chats.

during the breaks is the only time promoters of different brands sit around, chill-lax & chit chats but i found myself beyond tired that i can't make any coherent conversation. my tongue got twisted, the words overlapped each other can't utter a proper sentences either. bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. yea pretty much like a retard trying to speak. every night when i was making my way home my leg feel as if there is 10kg metal chain attached to it.

well there is something to be HAPPY and SURPRISE about though. I WAS NOT A SINGLE DAY LATE, and even better I WAS EARLY FOR ALL 4 DAYS!!!!!!! c'mon i think i need a standing ovation for this! i need to report there 10am everyday and i woke up at 7am each morning. :) how did i do it? the only answer is- GOD'S MIRACLE.

i have enough time to eat breakfast, take my own sweet time to get prepare and stroll to the bus stop. i need to emphasis on the word stroll because normally i'll be rushing to the bus stop. Hallelujah for this!!! it is a miracle~! really Thank God that it have ended.

Colgate

back from Tanjong pagar from giving out free Colgate toothpaste and Colgate Plax samples. both yesterday and today the sun was so hot roasting all the popcorns on my face.

when Singaporean see a surveyor they 'siam' like ah long going after them asking them for money. but when Singaporean see promoters like us giving out free sample, they swamp around you like bees automatically. i think the most ridiculous question they can ask is "can i take one more for my husband?" or some "can i take some for my colleague?"

what if you tell me you want to take for your brothers, sister, grandmother grandfather am i suppose to give you? NOOOO! of course not, free sample is only permitted to one per person dude! damn thick skinned, damn kiasuuuuuuu. true blue Singaporean. some are the best, they act like they didn't take and purposely walked pass us and take again. -.- we give of course, not that we wanted to be bias but we can't remember the faces that we give too! there is of course the super pro ones, they keep coming back after we have issue him 4 or 6 till all of us black listed that guy. 

tomorrow( thursday) till sunday i'll be working in the Comex show. level 2, under Singtel find me at LG counter i'll there :)

my sister just send me neoprint that we took back when i was in my lower secondary? omg mannnnnnnnnnnn i seriously didn't think, feel, know i was that slim last time. my face was much sharper as compared to now. :( wah lao, i am freaking a fat ass. i've gian 15kg since sec1!!!!! :( :( 

i was looking through all the neoprints i took before and....... so digusting! my hairstyle my poses in the neoprints is such a JOKE! like all act pretty, act cute. ALL DAMN FAIL DAMN DISGUSTING!!!! i am not gonna post it up, it is so embarrassing. 

i don't think i have grown out of the shell much. we were all once a geeky looking student and now i think i'm turning from a geek to ugly betty.

i met a primary school friend whom i haven't seen for very long yesterday, she told i look bigger in size now. when she said i look so different now i guess she meant i look so fat now. you will say "no, maybe is the your hair colour that make you look different now." LIAR, this is all lies that you want to comfort me from the fact that i am fatter now. 

is the same lie when i tell someone about my shocking weight (like bloody 60kg) they will always say "no la, you where got so fat? i think is because your bones are heavier" this is another lie. Fat means fat, where do you think all the extra weight come from? they couldn't be just from the bone itself when evidently all the flabby parts are all falling out everywhere. 

sighhhhhhhhh.

i want that magic pills that my sister friend took, she slim down from my 60 - 50kg! 

i don't believe that the Plus size model industry will last, because this world is too convince that being skinny is pretty and we all aim to be size 0. Fashion are 'trying' to change the world perception that being a Plus Size is actually a beauty yet there is still so many designers out there designing clothes of UK size 6 or best, size 0.

a plus size model strutting down the runway.

how do you feel about it?

what about this? i think my body totally look like this one above.

fat thigh, fat arms,  fat tummy ( but my tummy is more layered then hers).

so she got prettier fats then me.

how about this?

this is actually a very well composite photograph.

does she turn you on in the picture?

now i am beginning to wonder, how then are you qualify to be a Plus Size model? do you realise all the models have a beautiful face just that the body is plus size. http://www.plusmodels.com/gs2.shtml Click on the link you are interested to read about the requirement being a plus size model.

if you read the link, i wonder what do they mean by tone? like you are fat and tone at the same time? like HOW?