Game addict

I was reading the November Reader Digest issue - The Lost Boy. apparently China was trying to dealt with the increasing numbers of game addicts arising among the youngster and they establish a school by the name of Qihang Salvation Training Camp, which claimed to dealt with game addicts - of course.

This is a short summary of the story:

Deng senshan, lets call it DS in short was sent to this school by his parent who felt that he had become a game addict. DS was made to run around the basketball court in the night when everyone else is sleeping. after 30 laps of running he collapsed on the floor, instead of giving him a break, the counsellor dragged him to a nearby flagpole and hit him with a wooden chair leg which broke. DS continue to run but about halfway through the court he collapsed again. this time round the counsellor took a plastic stool and swung down on the boy. DS was bleeding from this mouth, ears, eyes, and nose. he was only send to the hospital after hourS of being left in his bunk. 14 hours after arriving at the camp, he was pronounced dead.

Some other horror stories about the game addicts in China:

1. a boy butchered his father after a disagreement of internet usage
2. 2 kids passed on a railroad track after 2 days of online gaming
3. after a 36hr session of War Crafts a boy leaped off his 24th storey building, in hope to "join the heroes of the game"

The 3rd pointer is the most "digusting" one. i don't know what word to use actually to express how i feel. OMG? unbelivable? dumb? you know what? China is infamous for its IMPOSSIBLE POSSIBLE. still, stories like this make me feel disgusted on how inhuman  and brutal they can be.

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Came home today to find a envelope on my table from the Ministry of Health. Nope, the hospital couldn't have register my gender wrong and send me a letter for a check up for NS enlistment right? Nope they did not. is a letter they put it to Congratulate me turning 21 soon and ask me to pledge as a organ donors after death. however, i see it as a reminder that i am turning into a age of Responsibility, a age of taking charge, reminding me that i am graduating and out to work soon and i am only approximately 4 months away to the working world, to my ideal career, to......

Scary shit.

Thinking about the future is so scary. lets just take one step at a time, Portfolio first, FYP next and we will see what lays ahead after. lets not let the future "scare the shit outta me" yet.

It have been awhile

i am in my final phase of poly now, *SCREAM* "FINALLY!!!!"

school have gone more strict and iron out a new rule to punish the late bill payers, like *ahem* me. forever me, the most cruel punishment they can implement on us -student, is to block our freaking LEO which give us no access to our daily grades and CHECKING OF OUR NEW CLASS. this is the reason why i missed school on the first day of school and this year, another new rule implemented- we are only given 4 gracious precious days for non valid reason to skip school. once we skip more than that, Expel.

damn good, i just use up one of my precious 4 days skip- school- pass. involuntarily


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God bless us with many people around us so we won't feel lonely. i Thank God for all of the individual that have been bless in my life, friends that i have met and a friendship have forged. be it here, there, everywhere.

Mustafa to any normal Singaporean won't be a place that will cross your mind to find a 'friend'. interestingly, God choose to put me there and i made some friendship with our non native that came here to find their gold pot. adapting to their cultural habitual and a whole new working environment, i think i am doing fine so far. :)

i am thankful for the China girl that help me out a lot when i am not around, i communicate with her the most is most probably because we share the same race. i am thankful for all the other mustafa staff who helped me out a lot too. most of the senior staff there are pretty much a 'joker'. they always came round my counter and crank some jokes, sometimes i might i miss the joke but i will just laugh along. oh well, they make the time i had in mustafa pass more jovially.

friends that i made in school are the ones that make up the memories i had in RP. very important. friends are very important to me. isn't friends the greatest gift God have bless us?

Circumstances

can't help it but to feel a little poor thing for my niece as i watched her teared and keep calling " i want daddy mummy" in my mothers' arm when my sister and brother-in-law depart.

dinner time for my niece is always a torturous thing for her and the feeder (basically my mum, younger sis & i). she don't like to eat, she will whine and throw tantrum and usually she can take up to 3hours to finish her food. however when her father is around to feed her, she eat so willingly almost unbelievable.

i am not a mother yet, but i am one of the sub care taker of my niece. i can almost feel how it is like being in the motherhood, taking care and raising up a child. ptffffff. first thing, patient is really a NEED. at times their nonsense cry is so bad that make my head split. since i am only a Sub care taker i don't hold most of her responsibility. whenever she make a din and drive me headache i'll hid in my room, shut my door and blast music.

MUAHAHHAHAAHAH. can't blame me, i am selfish like that.


 i need my own 'escape'. in a generic way.



school is starting and yes, a new term. at this point i don't wish to continue onward, because school is basically....... yaaa

the end
bye.
abrupt end.

Butter Strawberry Honeydew

party at butter factory for the first time yesterday. i let loose and drink over the amount the i have limited myself because of DIET. oh well, i told myself since i'm already there and i need to get 'high' to enjoy so i tar cup after cup. so much of sustaining my diet plan, one night in the club i lose it all.

i had fun, butter factory is fun :)

oh the platforms that i order from Gelliz i have collected it today. i am quite disappointed with the pair Rayne that i ordered because the front is too tight that my feet is squashed inside and it hurts when i walk. :(

this is the one. i took size 39 but i think it will fit in just nice for size 38. my feet are too broad.. anybody interested in buying?????? you can drop me a msg or something.

K-POP 2NE1

i am hook on 2NE1 on youtube. their undeniable funky outfit and dance move on top of that i am more interested on how did the ones with monolid did their eye make up and make it so nice!

boy, i know i have painting my entire lid black for ages so did they! just that they do it in a better and nicer way and they wear it with so much confidence. in the past i condemn my monolid so much to the extent i cross my heart i'll get a plastic surgery in the future when i have the bucks. now thanks to them (they give me hope), i will try to learn the monolid make up and also learn to appreciate my monolid.

after so many years....i know right!

blame the industry that promote so much about double eye lid- big eye beauty can't blame me for falling into the advertising world. it had been a stereotype in the advertising world isn't it? now i guess the beauty world is searching for something new or maybe got inspired but the korean, because i see more advertisement with monolid models now a days. awesome sweet! :)

yea-yea yea-yea yea-yea 2-N-E-1~

Because

I feel like typing on the keyboard, i shall generate some nonsense here. 

i was link hopping on youtube, and found this artist

Jessie James.

her songs is nice!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A-35GWbTjus&feature=channel

click on the link to listen to her songs

oh and i think Jolin tsai latest song sound really awful.

her voice just sound irritating to me.

listen to Jessie James on youtube.

VEHHHHHH NICEEEE.

My Sister keeper

yea i know everyone have watched or read the novel 10 millions years ahead, here i am just climbing out my cave trying to catch up with the movie world. sorry, i haven't even watch AVATAR the last most epic movie not-to-be-miss. sadly, i did. the lastest movie i caught was Resident Evil. amazingly i laugh when the zombies got shot. in my mind i pity the zombies, i imagine the zombies are the 'rejects' that failed to get the lead role during casting and got the zombies role instead. but they still gladly receive the role because they still get the 1 minute of fame on the big screen before being shot down. woohoo~

tears just keep welling up my eye. not now, i mean when i was watching the movie. sigh~~~ what a story.

i was reading the book and i thought i had the movie in my hard disk. bam, so i watched it. now what? complete reading the book of course.

ahhhhh~~~ story like this create an instant emotion, impact... not really, because tomorrow i'll probably forget everything until i read the pages again and get reminded of the scenes. ahhhh~~~~ damn good, i mean the movie.



my Saturday and Sunday is now fixed, Mustafa work work work and home. every weekend travelling there i'll always feel a little out of Singapore from the time i alighted from train all the way walking towards Mustafa. i will be surrounded by a large population of not my race, features that is so sharp big eye and dark skin. Little India seem like a tourist attraction place (have it been so all the while? i didn't know) because i'll always see Caucasian among the flock. come to think of it, Little India should be one of the tourist attraction place because it is part of Singapore multi racial identity. like Chinatown.

i think i just sounded dumb. i am a Singaporean alright. it just that i never view Little India as a place of attraction to me.



new words i learn today:
Oxymoron (oxy-mo-ron)
 - expression with contradictory words: a phrase in which two words of contradictory meaning are used together for special effect, for example, “wise fool” or “legal murder”

Emancipation  (e-man-ci-pay-tion)

 1. act of freeing: the act or process of setting somebody free or of freeing somebody from restrictions
 2. being freed: the condition or fact of being set free or freed from some restriction






these words, i doubt i'll ever use it but it is good to know.

did i ever share that there this guy that i dislike from my work place? there is this Sumsung promoter whom i really get irritated when he talk. is the way he talk and the things he say, is REALLY IRRITATING. hmmm, i think this is a bias opinion of him from me. in the past his counter was so far from mine ( i really thank God for that) that he can't possibly keep walking over to talk crap to me cos then it will be obvious that he is not working. but now the bloody Mustafa made changes to the arrangement of the counters and move his station right beside mine. i sulk the whole day at work. i refuse to talk or look in his way and avoid all means to start a conversation with him.

is obvious that i don't like him. he ask me "eh why you so quiet today?" i just go "em." in my heart, is because your counter is right beside me now and i feel choke. shit. this will be the setting for the rest of my days in Mustafa. i hate it.

yesterday i already know that the Sumsung counter have move right beside mine cos the China phone promoter sms me. so today i went prepared with a book and another phone (for surfing net) to keep myself occupied. my plan went on well. when i get bored reading, i surf the net with the phone. when i get bored playing with the phone i bury myself in the novel and when i get bored with both, i serve the come-look-don't buy-ask alot of questions customers.

i am not motivated to push sales now because i don't get commission, so what's the point? there is rumor that our pay will change. it says next month onward there will be a certain target for everyone to hit daily. if we hit the daily target we get paid at $8.50 per hour if not, we are only getting paid at $6.50 per hour. ridiculous much, if this rumor is true- i'll quit. i'll jump to Sony erricssion or Motorola or HTC or Blackberry. Lg is so 'niao pok.'

blogging from mustafa

blogging from phone is not easy, but i had so much time on hand. No costumer for me to serve. No problem.

If only there is cute guys here for me to drool over. Time will pass much sweeter, but no. There is cartons of mustache guys or trays of foreign chin chin na if you get what i mean. Handful of other asia spices What do you expect to find in mustafa?

Expect the expected.

Only occassional you'll find a cute blue eye that seems to lost his way in mustafa.

last night was EXTREME

the new word now is EXTREME.

i used to like the idea having more then one agenda in a day. i like the idea that my day is packed with different places i have to run to. for example- AMK pick up some goods in the morning, afternoon meet sister for lunch then night i'll meet another group of friends. something like this, running about from one place to another in a day.

now i don't like it anymore. i'll factor in the long travelling time from A-B, i hate the long train or bus ride. well, maybe if i have a car, i of course won't mind running about. hustle bustle busy- lazy.

partying was great, the boys were really silly. well i guess silly boys make everything fun & funny. there was this guy (not my friend) a joker, the way he dance is really EXTREME! he do power slide on the dance floor, dance like as if  in a mosh pit. he grind boys and some guys are entertaining enough to play along with him. thanks to him, we all had a real EXTREME laugh ;)

Let down

have you ever went for an job interview, the interviewee spoke with so much hope (more like false hope) that they will contact you again but they never did?

just randomly saw this excerpt:

someone who is physically disabled finally met up with his pen pal

on the day they met, the conversation seems normal.

ever since, the pen pal never wrote to him anymore.

i am just wondering...

WHY THEY SO ASSHOLE ONE!!!!

from this line onward will be my daily ra-ta-ta.

i am thinking of my next design idea...

i had Mr Ronald Mcdonald, Mr KFC and Mr Mustafa

but i don't know if i should make them into 3 villain or hero

what do you think?

the weather these days especially after the rain is mad cold.

my nose have been producing enough icky to make a bottle of glue.

cover up yourself with blanket and keep yourself warm people.

not many time in Singapore you get to walk around in blankets.

i love it when cereals on discount in NTUC.

this time round is POST TRAIL MIX CRUNCH

buy 1 and get 1 free offer :D

my loving mum bought 8 packs

do the math:

8 x 2 = 16 packs

yes, BREAKFAST planned.

breakfast have become the most important meal for me in the day,

not because after my mum bought this 16 pack

but because this will be my most heavy meal in the day,

my lunch will be light, and dinner will be NIL-

and the morning food is what i love to eat best.

60kg is no joke now.

i realise diet is not the way to slim down.

diet and exercise does.

the research told me i need 300mins of workout in a week to loss the weight

i figured that on both the weekend i'll working 

i won't be able to have time to exercise.

i'm still left for monday - fri

do the math

300 / 5 = 60min of workout per day

exercise like running, swimming, rope skipping, and even doing star jump

i'll see how long i can sustain this...

Test post

i'm blogging from phone. Testing

Perfectionist

talking to a Perfectionist always make me feel guilty, intimidated, low, self conscious to sum up, they make me feel like i've been wasting my 19years away.

i was never whole heartedly devoted in doing something or making any matter in my life- Perfect. i always swim around the border line, not the worse and the not the best. i always fall under the average group.

at this age, i am just beginning to ponder more about what is going to be ahead of me. scary.

'yea, nobody knows the answer except God'

graduation is not far away anymore. i am one step behind to the working world, one step towards my possible career. this matter of fact scare me a lot inside. i am uncertain where i can head to... i stare at my pathetic few pieces of art works in front of me... not up to standard.

i hate talking to a Beautician because they make me feel really inferior and also because i know how many grains and peas are congesting my pores- that's why i'm manufacture popcorns. tsk. in fact i don't want this vegetarian prata complexion EITHER!

i hate talking to a body perfectionist, no i don't even want to talk to them i don't want to stand near them at all!. this is obvious- because i'll feel like a lump of fats beside them. whenever i wear shorts, i just wish i hadn't because all i have to flash is my cellulites. then what the hell was i thinking then when i choose that outfit for the day?


i try to make changes right now to the way i am leading my laid back life. is like i either be the best or nothing. i don't want to be just Olivia, i want to be OLIVIA. 


you know what i mean. 
yes you do. 
yes i do.

September Comex Show

ended yesterday. damn tired.

you bet, stand the whole day from 10am-9.30pm with 2 breaks or taking a skive inside the toilet cubicle resting my ass and legs. never stand for such a long hours during work and 4 days straight. my voice is hoarse now because i need to battle my volume with the speakers' in order for my customers to hear me. if only i have a friend working with me, the minutes won't feel like hours. glad that i saw some familiar faces there and made some new friends that i often run to for chit chats.

during the breaks is the only time promoters of different brands sit around, chill-lax & chit chats but i found myself beyond tired that i can't make any coherent conversation. my tongue got twisted, the words overlapped each other can't utter a proper sentences either. bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. yea pretty much like a retard trying to speak. every night when i was making my way home my leg feel as if there is 10kg metal chain attached to it.

well there is something to be HAPPY and SURPRISE about though. I WAS NOT A SINGLE DAY LATE, and even better I WAS EARLY FOR ALL 4 DAYS!!!!!!! c'mon i think i need a standing ovation for this! i need to report there 10am everyday and i woke up at 7am each morning. :) how did i do it? the only answer is- GOD'S MIRACLE.

i have enough time to eat breakfast, take my own sweet time to get prepare and stroll to the bus stop. i need to emphasis on the word stroll because normally i'll be rushing to the bus stop. Hallelujah for this!!! it is a miracle~! really Thank God that it have ended.

Colgate

back from Tanjong pagar from giving out free Colgate toothpaste and Colgate Plax samples. both yesterday and today the sun was so hot roasting all the popcorns on my face.

when Singaporean see a surveyor they 'siam' like ah long going after them asking them for money. but when Singaporean see promoters like us giving out free sample, they swamp around you like bees automatically. i think the most ridiculous question they can ask is "can i take one more for my husband?" or some "can i take some for my colleague?"

what if you tell me you want to take for your brothers, sister, grandmother grandfather am i suppose to give you? NOOOO! of course not, free sample is only permitted to one per person dude! damn thick skinned, damn kiasuuuuuuu. true blue Singaporean. some are the best, they act like they didn't take and purposely walked pass us and take again. -.- we give of course, not that we wanted to be bias but we can't remember the faces that we give too! there is of course the super pro ones, they keep coming back after we have issue him 4 or 6 till all of us black listed that guy. 

tomorrow( thursday) till sunday i'll be working in the Comex show. level 2, under Singtel find me at LG counter i'll there :)

my sister just send me neoprint that we took back when i was in my lower secondary? omg mannnnnnnnnnnn i seriously didn't think, feel, know i was that slim last time. my face was much sharper as compared to now. :( wah lao, i am freaking a fat ass. i've gian 15kg since sec1!!!!! :( :( 

i was looking through all the neoprints i took before and....... so digusting! my hairstyle my poses in the neoprints is such a JOKE! like all act pretty, act cute. ALL DAMN FAIL DAMN DISGUSTING!!!! i am not gonna post it up, it is so embarrassing. 

i don't think i have grown out of the shell much. we were all once a geeky looking student and now i think i'm turning from a geek to ugly betty.

i met a primary school friend whom i haven't seen for very long yesterday, she told i look bigger in size now. when she said i look so different now i guess she meant i look so fat now. you will say "no, maybe is the your hair colour that make you look different now." LIAR, this is all lies that you want to comfort me from the fact that i am fatter now. 

is the same lie when i tell someone about my shocking weight (like bloody 60kg) they will always say "no la, you where got so fat? i think is because your bones are heavier" this is another lie. Fat means fat, where do you think all the extra weight come from? they couldn't be just from the bone itself when evidently all the flabby parts are all falling out everywhere. 

sighhhhhhhhh.

i want that magic pills that my sister friend took, she slim down from my 60 - 50kg! 

i don't believe that the Plus size model industry will last, because this world is too convince that being skinny is pretty and we all aim to be size 0. Fashion are 'trying' to change the world perception that being a Plus Size is actually a beauty yet there is still so many designers out there designing clothes of UK size 6 or best, size 0.

a plus size model strutting down the runway.

how do you feel about it?

what about this? i think my body totally look like this one above.

fat thigh, fat arms,  fat tummy ( but my tummy is more layered then hers).

so she got prettier fats then me.

how about this?

this is actually a very well composite photograph.

does she turn you on in the picture?

now i am beginning to wonder, how then are you qualify to be a Plus Size model? do you realise all the models have a beautiful face just that the body is plus size. http://www.plusmodels.com/gs2.shtml Click on the link you are interested to read about the requirement being a plus size model.

if you read the link, i wonder what do they mean by tone? like you are fat and tone at the same time? like HOW? 

Aliens in the night

the above is the original picture taken. yes, it is quite blur...

i edited the photo and manipulate with the colour tone.

all the individual give off a different feeling,

can't decide which one i like best so i put them in a collage

i got inspire by one of the artist

and here is my take on it.

i play with the colours

and i think i like the last best.

which one is your favorite?

Finally my pay is here

after 2 months of long wait, my pay is ready for collection. however i am only collecting one month pay, that's how the system goes. we work for 3months and collect one month pay. sound like i am being exploit right? no la, let me explain. for example we start work on the 1st june, we'll collect our June pay 2 months later. so is like we have been working for 3 months and collect only 1month pay. (yes i am repeating myself)

AIYA! come to think of it, is damn unfair for part timers like us. we work Part time obviously because we need the money to supply us for the month right? by the rate they issue our pay check, technically we need to survive on the 1 month pay for 3 months before we get our next pay. damn what the hell la. -.-

i am really broke broke broke man.

anyhow, the pay check that i am going to collect this Monday is only a quarter pay check because i only start working at the last week of the month. which means i am only getting $136!!!! and this is suppose to last me for the next 3months!!!!!! WAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! sure die.

next month i only have 1 week of school and the rest of the weeks will be my semester break. which also means No School No Allowance.

HOW TO PULL THROUGH THE MONTHS WITH NO ALLOWANCE AND ONLY $136!!!!!!!!!!!!

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... no shopping....no flea....no NO NO NONOOO....

* cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy*

hmmmmmmmm i feel so restricted right now. like financially tight. a senior who was the first batch promoter, told me they use to wait for 6months to get their 1 month pay! this is super ridiculous!!!!

huh huhu hu huh uhuhuhuhuhuhuhu.,...., i am whinning behind the com right now....

i feel so bu shuang, i feel so helpless too.

huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuh......

The moon last night was so captivating

Oh yes, last night i was trying to do a recruiting poster for my FYP. i end up rolling on the bed and fell into a deep sleep. i can still remember the dream before i was awake. i was in a place call 'Marina Barrage' but this Marina Barrage look nothing like the one in reality, a place i made it up in my dream. in my dream i was there to meet a friend, NANA (my year 1 friend).

when we met up she pass me 2 small glass of water one each on my hands. i took a sip on one and choke on the water. the kind of choke like when you want to talk and swallow at the same time. the feeling was horrible (both in dream and reality), i was sneezing water out from my nose and coughing. the next thing i know, water came flowing out from my nose like a little stream.

then...i was AWAKE~! @ 3am++

oh yes, the moon last night was really captivating. i was lying on my bed and this ray of light came through the gap of my curtains. i thought it was a prank that somebody was playing, shining its torch light into my window. i peek through the gap of my curtain and saw the bright sparkling moon. Lady Moon's sensual mystical aura kept me captivated for a good 1hour before i fell asleep.

at one point the moon was so bright, i even put on my shade to moon-watch. but the filter on the shade makes the moon look ablaze on fire and spoil the whole beauty of it so i took it off.

today i decide and try to do a replica of the beautiful moon, 

since my phone camera fail to capture its' beauty...

TAAAA DAAAAAAAAAA

 i think i fail though. there is this orange light around it which look really beautiful but when i try to add it in Photoshop it looks really weird. what do you think? the moon was suppose to be in the center among the definite layers of clouds giving it some depth. i don't think I've portray it here. everything looks flat isn't it? -.-

ahh well, this is just for fun :) i am not this imba to create this myself, i followed a tutorial and do a little tweaking myself.

Re- edit

of my design Gif, from the previous post.


the above is how the website will look like when the cursor hover across, and click.




this is almost the same as the previous GIF, just that i add on the animation on how the navigation buttons will look like when hover and click.

Rain rain

this morning i was awaken by a phone call from Jas, that hippy hoppy girl- very kind of her to always inform me when she got any job Lobang. i had my breakfast and from the time i was awake my nose was dripping like a non- stop leaking pipe. bitch, it always happen on cold days. if the day ahead gonna be cold, my nose will send me warning- like today.

it have been 2 months now and i haven't got my 1st month pay! in this short 2 weeks, i have already spent $244 on my saving. i brought a Wacom @ $129 and today my laptop charger burn up again so i immediately went to Funan  IT mall to get it replace at the cost of $115 after bargain.

tsk tsk.... terrible~

the first time which was just a few months ago i went to Sim Lim and bought a non-authentic charger @$80 which i use it less then 6 months and it burn up. with no warranty.

lesson learn- Never buy imitation for gadget, because you will end up paying more.

my mum is awesome, she know that i love Post Cereals and she bought all 5 flavors 2 packet each stocking up the cabin. this have been my breakfast for the past.....2-3weeks? this is worth blogging about because this is one rare act from my mum. i guess once i got my pay i need to continue this revolution or i'll go back to instant packet cereals drink or oats for breakfast.

talking about breakfast makes me want to end my day now (go to sleep) so i can wake up and eat my breakfast.

cos i am hungry now.

finally done with my web design

many overnight to rush and do this assignment. this time round we are assign to design our own Portfolio Webpage. initially i only wanted only sheeps on the 'land', i thought it looks boring so i drawn in other animals. hahaha. is not a animal farm, i didn't plan it to be animal farm. it just happen when i was drawing the characters.

i've uploaded them into my Tumblr too, but they are only the JPEG. i couldn't upload the GIF animation, so you are seeing more here :D

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Home page Design

Portfolio page

do you find this page more plain and not in sync with other pages?
maybe a little right?

Profile page

the colours in the GIF is slightly off, esp the yellow they look mustard here.
this is my least like page.
it looks like it lack of something.... but ahhh heck, i was too lazy to edit it further.
plus plus, i am running short of time.
the navigation buttons can be further improve.
i find them quite badly done. :(

About me page

the final page.
Did you notice a jump in the animation?
that is because there is a differences in the text arrangement.
there is a flaw in the header " About Me"
it was drawn free hand with my newly bought Wacom
the lines are wavy ;s
i only realise it after i export them as JPEG.
and again, i was too lazy to go back to edit.
so it shall be it.

All the characters i design for this web page. i didn't use all though.
most of the character are drawn in sketch book.
i got them scanned in to my computer, trace & colour them in Illustrator.
then i bring them all over to Photoshop and piece everything together.
:)

i'm back

just came back from Swing for Charity dinner. met up with a group i haven't seen for a long long while. after the dinner this sudden loneliness hit me as we depart. i just feel like a bastard. on the usual days, i don't talk/chat/ meet up with them or what so ever. then because of today of the FOC dinner and i was invited then i went for it.

when i was on my way therer, i was really looking forward to meet the group because i really haven't seen them for so long. during and throughout the dinner, i couldn't help but feel awkward.

then, i wish i hadn't went.

i don't know how or where to start a conversation... this always happen when i am with them. just.... awkward. like the level of their understanding and my mine is so different. they seems to know so much that make me feel shallow.

i reflect on my walk with God, i know i have back slided. in the past when i was walking close with God, on the days when i feel 'low', no matter how 'low' i felt i know there is someone i can fall back on. But now, i just  feel like a dog chasing my tail in circle....

hello Sista

instead of Miss, Madam or sometimes, Aunty. Most of the bagala address me as 'sista'.

woke up at 7.30am today and went to polyclinic for my follow up check. the waiting hours nearly cooked me to death inside. at first i was blog surfing with my Lg phone, then i got tired and i slept in the most unsightly way ever. i had my head hung down & swaying from left to right (perfectly normal) but i don't know why at some point of time my head toss back by itself. sound like my head had not been just swaying from left to right, it had been circulating in circles!?!?

meet up with my FYPeas in the afternoon and it was so unfruitful. i got really really tired by then. FROM WHAT? i don't understand myself either. i hadn't done anything physical straining the entire morning and i feel tired?? ridiculous.

what happen to my youthfulness? all the energy and spirit? what happen to all the nights that i can go without sleep? WHAT HAPPEN?! i'm pretty mad at myself for feeling so lethargic all day long. such a negative spirit. i am still young!!!!

i've been in front of the computer for too long. i am starting to think that my inner self is actually a geek.

Accustom

exhaustion is nothing new to me, something which i start and end my day with. it feel like some kind of illness, it make things around all seem so unattractive. food don't look or taste as appetizing, even my eye candy in school don't  psych me up like it use to. FYI, my eye candy IS a 100% guy. i had to make this declaration because i get teased by friends thinking i'm a lesbian.

i look at all the sexes in this world. In RP, i feel that generally all the girls dress better comparing to the guys and some, i find their dressing pretty interesting.... girls are funny and weird, because we got too many options and no boundaries to what we can't wear. we wear everything from A- Z! FYIIIIIIII, my most love sexes i love to look at are the ones who can't decide to circle F or M on the application form, end up circling the ( / ) . they are the most interesting creatures to me. ;)

well what i'm trying to imply here is, i learn from the girls around me. thumbs up for the fashionista in my school and secretly feel a little sad for those try-too-hard-fail.

my mum serve me a bowl of yong toufu for dinner, i gobble down the whole bowl but i wasn't hungry. the worst thing is i am on a carb diet and my mum cooked my favorite Dong Fan (transparent tasteless noodle) which i couldn't resist not to take! :(

mum, pls help me to slim down and don't cook my favorite dish please, especially at this hour (8.50pm) because it is fattening to eat at this hour. anyhow, i broke my carb taboo for lunch today too. the sauce just go so well with the rice so i finished all the sauce-stain-rice.

guilty guilty guilty.....

I am really in love

with this exact same pair i posted on my previous post!

(ASOS)

so pretty ~~~~~~ after clicking on the link makes me even more want to OWN IT (click on the 360 view)! omg man! just by looking at this picture make my heart fly with excitement, i think if i wear it i'll fly to moon to meet unlce moon. ahhhhh, but can you just look at the price tag? so expensive..... why can't china plagiaries something like this and sell it in Bugis? HAAAAAA, i'm just kidding. No i am not, i really wish they do. but no, even if Bugis really sell it, i don't think i will dare to wear it because i'll be embarrass to wear the imitation. but what if china make it like a 'A' class imitation and it look 99% like the real one? hmmmmmmmmmmm......maybe........i think.....I WILL BUY!!!! HAHAHAHAHAH! aiyaaaaa, i'm really in love with this awesome pair.... (***heart melt***)

can some one buy me this for my 21st?  * GRIN* i am wearing UK size 6.5 and EUR size 39. 

Another Friday i skip school

The start of this week i've been feeling tired all the way till today (friday), shiok not. One major reason cause for this tiredness is most probably, have to be - work. full time student on the weekday, full day work on both weekends. Not a single day to breathe~~~~~~~~~~ must psycho myself abit for the sake of being able to buy the things i want... HANG ON~ (i'm beunoing)

i wonder if i'll pass this semester? my grades like shit green, the red-late-indication floods everyday, every module. My Advisor told me "if you want to be a good designer, you need to SACRIFICE your leisure over work" - iye-erk-gree.  when my friends paint the town red, i paint my room blue with my laptop.

FYP pack this entire week, my 3 weeks of holiday is coming and my team have lots to catch up and things to be done. we are doing on a Light doodling stop motion we have posted up a few experiment videos in our FYProject blog @ www.kiasubuffet.com. kiasu buffet was our previous idea but we scrap that idea and change to do Production instead. check it out :)


I have been shopping for Footwear recently :D
                                       

MELISSA VIVIENNE WESTWOOD ANGLOMANIA + MELISSA WING II

 http://www.melissa.com.br

a collaboration design, so pretty right! i will be so overjoy to own one! Is brand Melissa again, i remember way back in secondary school i posted about Melissa wedges & heels too. recently i bought 2 pairs of wedge from a gelliz.livejournal.com- this is my first time shopping footwear online. hope the sizes i placed will fit cos i really love the shoes and it is so cheap comparing to the other blogshop. *fingers crossed* i bought Brinna black & Rayne black.

i also want another Sandal platform from Pedder Red which cost $80 :s. so expensive but i've been eying it for almost a year already and only saw it yesterday in the shop. BAHAHAHAHA. i really really want it. $80 man,.... my friend say is not worth the buy but i REALLY LOVE IT, i REALLY REALLY REALLY LOVE IT! do i need to emphasis more?

i can't find the exact pictures of it, but it looks something like the one on the left just that the one i want is in platform in Pedder Red @$80

if you happen to come across something like what i mention above, be it online or anywhere at a cheaper price please let me know!!!!

14August i will be selling my 2nd stuff in Supper club flea market with Joey!

i don't know who will buy, because my items are definitely not comparable to the leading blogshop. i just want to get to get rid of all those clothes that i have not been wearing for years. they are all going to be less then $10, or $10? whatever la, just sell and at least earn my rental back and i'll be happy enough.

Yesterday was quite a night with my FYPeas. a friend, friend offer to drove us around to look for a dark spot for our production, because the darker the surrounding is, the better the result will be. he brought us to some deserted place in SG that i never knew of. a places for horses to roam in the day and the road driving up was littered with heaps of feces, saw signs like " SLOW DOWN, HORSES CROSSING", "GO EXTREME SLOW, HORSES WALKING". interesting right?! i saw none of the horses though. only traces of their horseshoes prints in the mud and their trails of shit on the road.

all the photos taken are still with my friends, i'll definitely post up some of the photos when i got the photos. very interesting stuff. (insert cheeky expression)

Today

Bus stop is alwys the first station of the day. it Is like the first place that i'll go, the starting point and the ending point of my day journey.

Feeling a little xtyghkbv because i see so many people all dressed up on a Sat ready to enjoy their weekend but i was in my uniform on my way to report for work. Sian la, of course. i keep telling myself, "Olivia, think of the of the beautiful numbers when your cheque come and MAJOR FLEA-ING after that!" this is how i keep my mind my life alive when i feel paralyzed to work. :D

Awesome weather

unlike the usual hot weather at 3pm, the weather now is quite chilling~cool. :)

recently i have been shopping on http://www.solestruck.com, looking for a peep toe wedge. there is just too many pairs that i like but i'm restricted to only one. this is going to be my first $100 and above heel, i need to choose carefully.

childhood talks on the bus with Jingru was great. our childhood have definitely mold us into who were are today.

today is Thursday, normally the day before i'll have sleepless night burning mid night oil rushing my design. this week i choose to take the easy way, i choose leisure & sleep over stressing about my design homework.

i had too much milk and cereals, my face feel so bloated now. i went grocery shopping 2 days ago, i bought stuff that i really love and i really eat a lot. i'm always the one who finish 80% of the cereal my mum bought so it is only fair that now that i'm working i should top them up. judging by the rate i eat them, i finish one box of cereal in a day, i can eat it for breakfast, lunch and dinner with milk or without.

i seriously need to control my intake especially when it comes to my favorite food. i must learn to eat In Moderation!!!! F- A - T!!!!!!!!!!!!

if you have an Iphone, download Cookie Dozer, this game is so addictive! i just hate that the "cookie generator' take so long to create one cookie. okay la, is only 30 sec, but it seems so long. hahaha. i think cookie dozer is more fun then coin dozer!

Mustafa experience

for the last weekend i was deployed from Marina Square to Mustafa instead because the sales was bad.

Mustafa mustafa...
where do i start?
i was lost for the first day of work. that place is like a huge ants colony. ALOT ALOT of items not to mention the crowd too. i was trying to find my way round Mustafa my first day, i tell you, all the blocks look the same! the supervisor show me around like the staff entrance + the clock in area and my work station, they are at 2 different block. or was it the same? i seriously can't remember, just TIKAM laaaa! :D

my colleagues now are all Indians. at first i thought i'll be left in one emo corner, i'm the 2nd chinese there apart from that guy selling china phone. but no. all the staff there are very friendly and funny. sometimes i might miss their joke but i'll just laugh along like i understand.

the way they work here is pretty laid back i'll say. at Marina square i need to do alot of Hard Selling to the customer, at Mustafa that is not the case. all i need to say is "Video very GOOD! Got MP3, RADIO, ALL HAVE! Camera very GOOD!!!" that is it! hhahahaha, that was what i was told to say by my Indian colleague! HAHAHAHAHA.....

they told me the more i talk the more they will ask, and most of them just enquire and not buying. keeping in mind that most of the customer there are foregin workers from India & Bangaladashi. english is not something that are very good at, simple yet precise words will do.

thank God for the counter that seperate me from the crowd, it can get really intimidating when a whole lot just crowd around the glass panel to look at the phones.

being there, i witness alot of their culture way in showing brotherly love towards each other. hold hands is nothing, hugging each other waist like how a couple will cuddle each other is common too. i am fine with that, the thing i can't stand was the part they adjust their discomfort in the crotch area right infront of you or sometimes scratching it....

*roll eye ball to the back of my socket, can't bare to see it*

it was so gross.

apart from their culture openness, i am cool with everything else. it is very easy to close sales in Mustafa, i sold 20 sets just on Sunday while 5 sets on Sat. ;) the promotion is ending.... means my contract is ending too. :( i like the pay, easy job where can i find promoter job like this again?

Grandparents

when i was on the bus, i was caught in the middle of this group of people. i was kinda sitting in between them. at the beginning i felt irritated when the elderly on my left talked to the lady on my right, i was like thinking why would you want to sit so far apart to talk? i felt it was a little inconsiderate because they were both raising their voice and i was caught in the middle.

it was only on the later part of the journey that i found out this group of people was link. they are sort of a family. infront of me sat 2 kids that belongs to the women on my right and the elderly on my left is the grandparents because the kids address them as "ah gong" & "popo". behind the 2 grandparents sat another 2 elderly couple. they were all chatting happily about their day, the whole conversation sound like they just got picked up from the airport and probably and blahhhhhhh....

the kids were snapping photo of the grandparents, they were all chatting and smiley. the grandparents were the most chatty ones.

being among them i can feel the closeness of this family between the grandparents and the grandchildren. they all seems to enjoy one another companion so much, something that i thought is going extinct in our society now. the normal scenario these days, the elderly always look so grumpy and they are normally on their own. their conversation always sound a little depressing. even if they are out with their family, they look like a maid! carrying their grandchildern bags and look so wear out or just at the corner by themselves. like so poor thing. well, just my observation.

i was staring at this elderly wrinkle skin. it reminds me of my grandmother who i haven't seen for so long. i miss her wrinkled skin, i remember i used to touch her skin it felt so soft. i miss her.

i don't know about you, but when i see a couple of elderly walking together my heart will go like "awwwwwwwwwwwww~"

It is like a drug

i had a great fetish in snacking on nuts. NUTS! like almond, cashew, pistachio, walnut, raisin.... NUTS! i know i swear to myself that i'll never touch Carmel Nuts ever again ever since i worked for them... but now i am hooked. every minute i'll think of it and WANT to eat it.

all this nuts is nut expensive too. i can finish one pack within an hour. i eat it like a meal. this is nutty, i know, but it is like eating potato chips. even though you already feeling full, but something in it that makes you reach for another and another and another till you finish the entire pack. then you'll rub your stomach and whine for finishing everything and feeling guilty for eating so much. -.-

i can't help it! 

those nuts is that addictive!

oh do you know the PT promoter job i am taking on is not even 1/2 tiring at all comparing to all the other jobs i've work before? i want to Thank God for locating me in this outlet, because everyone is so nice to the promoter, the people there is so friendly. best of all, i can do my homework there when there is not customer and play games all the time!

thanks to technology, Motorola came out with XT and Milestone which is equally compatible and competitive with iphone. this is what i play with from the start of work till i knock off. i surf net, play games, blogshop with this phone! once i travel around the world, i went to Tokyo Disneyland, i went to see the Great Wall of China, i went to hunt down Eiffel tower and check out New York City with their in build GPS map powered by Google. the pictures are super clear! k la, not like you can zoom in till the extent that you can see the roots of the human hair. the most you can zoom in to is a view you'll see from about the 30th floor. not bad right?

k, that is just something i do to pass time at work with the amazing phone.

you must be thinking i must be the promoter for Motorola, YOU ARE WRONG. i am the promoter for LG, i was hired to promote their Cookies series phone. they do have a life set which i can play with, however they didn't provide any SD card or SIM card. i can't access the net without a SIM, or play any music as demonstration how 'loud' it can go because there is no SD card inside. how dumb.

that also explain why i don't play with the phone that i am suppose to promote.

la dee dum.
bye~

Quick update

this morning when i wake up i wish i was a guy, because wearing a bra is troublesome.

my presentation really suck today

i contemplated going to school today 

because i didn't do my work, 

i did, actually... but not well done.

i feel embarrass to present them.

anyway i turn up for class and my presentation lasted for only 5mins.

preparing to get another C or D from faci.

Design Studio, is only the module with the most work to do

and the only module i put in all my effort to do it

yet my bloody faci keep giving me a C!

it is so damn demoralizing!

i feel entirely not myself today. 

not in a bad way.

just not that chatty, not cranky either.

more quite?

after school i found out the answer to my qns.

my DA YI MA (menses) is here!

i realise there is a warning pattern before it come.

i'll have 1 day of no break out.

the following daysssss, they will start popping out like some mob flash on my face.

sight.

this period is the most depressing. 

hokay. i need to get to work on my UT design now.

:(

Shingz balls

scare the me out of me. i changed my laptop password today in class, just now when i tried to switch it on, I FORGOT THE NEW PASSWORD THAT I'VE CHANGE IT TOO.

yesterday was my Mum's birthday and we had a little DIY BBQ right outside my house along the corridor. we use the normal aluminum tray as our pit, when the charcoal got hot, it burn a hole right through it! My mum save the pit by placing some tiles at the bottom to cover up the hole. pit saved, BBQ continue~

Great day. yes it is. but i did-no-work yesterday. this week i am PACK, with 3 Magazine cover idea sketching due on Thurs, as for my PD (portfolio) i need to churn out something for my advisor by Thurs, and Fri is my due date for my UT (understanding test) Magazine ad design. basically, i need to get most stuff done by Thurs. Tomorrow (Wed), i am meeting my FYP we are going out to do experiment which take place in the night.

i need to find time in time.

by this week, i have decided to get my hair coloured maybe trim. k, i don't want to type already. the whole world is in the soccer frenzy. i seems like the only one not knowing what is going on. wellzzz. i donch caressss ;)

aiyoooooooooooo, just look at those dark circles! SO HUGE!

that is not the purpose of this photo.

i am showing you the large patch of black that have grown out.

I blog most when i feel like i need to rant

Yesterday was a deplete...

working in a temorary build up tent in a unpredictable weather is real bad. especially where we have clothes on hanger outside of the tent, when it rain kc and i just have to rush in between in bringing the rack in and cover the table of jewellery before the rain gets the better of it. in the short 5hr i think we go through this motion to and fro about 2 times?

beside the drama when the rain comes, there is pretty nothing much to do. just laid back, do crowd watching and serve the few costumer that come. the caucasian women that hire us put it, "its something like a flea but a more high class one''. touting is not very ideal? i won't want to 'lay long' on top of my voice either...

Attica was a pretty dismay, i thought i'll enjoy, i thought we'll stay till the club close like the usual. no. my sis & friends went in @8pm where the OMG party start. by the time i went, they had already partied and the alcohol have set in and wear off. the side effect have kicked it, they are tired and want to go home. i went in for about less then an hour or just an hour and we left.

:(

i know, so sad isn't it? thankfully Vic work there, my entrance is free. otherwise i'll stranggle my sister for that. at least i get to see how Attica was like, my first time inside. not a very big place but they have A LOT of staff. A LOT. hardly see any female staff, one at the entrance another i saw as a sercurity women and she is a old aunty. no kidding. i didn't even drink much, the vodka craneberry was diluted i wasn't even near high. Oh~ the R&B Dj was cute ;)

the music is okay...but you know what, i just didn't drink enough. once you're high everything is good. ;) when we were about to left, we still have about half a jug of martel mixed vodka with juice my sis made me drink all. because of that i finally feel the kick of the alcohol, but we left! -.- i was walking around with only my eye area red, like a odd looking masquer with golden hair with asian eye. you know how ugly it is when a small eye went red, it looks swollen and ewwwwwwwwww. just imagine i smear pinkish red eye shadow on my entire eye area like some wayang monster basically.

soon after the supper at BK whoopper bar we cab home, the alcohol was still taking effect on me. a little light headed but concious. i tried to sleep with it but i was still having the adrenaline rush. toss and turn in a bit before i snooz out.

share this link with you http://adelinemai.com/photography/ive-got-the-blues/ that i'm looking at now. Just look at those natural blue eyes. so beatiful~ i like the guy with the emerald shade best.

Tumblr update! sorry for the spam in twitter. i was updating my tumblr of my sketches to show my progression for my advisor. ahhhh~ i still owe my Thursday faci an Rj. hell to rj.

in procrastination of doing the REAL work....

i don't want to write the report............

Wed my Nes Day where else but home

Tumblr update!

just one poster that i have finally completed. i might rework it again along with the other works that i said i feel like reworking. for me, once i 'feel' that i have 'finally' complete one work, is like a rock that i've finally can put down. for the past 4 days i keep 'fan' over this poster. this is the exact same poster that my advisor comment it was too literal. :(  not well done enough. i feel that it is lacking of something. something,.....just something.....

my advisor gave me a new idea and ask me to work on it. a way more better and interesting one i said. That- gimme me more time, if i got spare time i'll work on it on my on coming 2 weeks of holiday along with my new assignment to design for a series of collectors stamp. theme is based on Singapore of cozzzzzzzzzzzzxzxzxzxxxzzzz. they are all going into my portfolio, so gotta make it as polish as possible.

this morning when i wake up, i hope i woke up in some nice hotel. just dreaming that i was on a holiday.

sadly no, woke up in my room @3pm, now is almost 7pm and my day have JUST started. tomorrow is my Portfolio review 2! i got a lot of drawings and research to do, otherwise i'll die tomorrow. 

& just a quick update about yesterday-

one of my friend ask us along for a short film screening @ old school. all the short films are done by foreign producer. that was an insight, for all the young aspiring film making ones like some of us. not me, i am not entire into it. but i don't mind being a part of the crew if chances come along. the process is long and tiring, but when you see your film on the screen and people actually appreciate it. you'll feel that your effort is paid off :)

after, a group of us went Timber and sabotage Zec as the birthday boy. he was invited on stage to sing a song, Collide. which he gamely did with a lot of enthusiasm. HAHAHAHAHHA! we all have a great laughed at our seats along with some beer, awesome thing crust pizza (i super love thin crust pizza!) and jumbo wings. Great food, great entertainment. caught the last train & bus home. 

well, come to think of it i think i was the one who eventually sabo him on stage. we were all SMS-ing in our song dedication. so i send "Airplane by B.O.B from the Bithday boy". that was the when the lady goes  "ohhhhh~ there is a birthday boy...blah blah blah...." before that the lady had already greeted us just as when we got seated cos we were the largest table there. she was asking if we were having some celebration and we joked it was Zech's brithday. :) get the story now? it was all a prank.

k, got to do some work now. 

just a timely reminder for myself.

eat only when you are hungry & eat MODESTLY. otherwise FAT face & FAT everywhere.

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Don't feel like doing anything now

do you know what suck? is when you put in so much effort into a design only to realise your concept and idea suck. this really suck.

my face really balls up today. i really don't know what is the reason for the swell, it's an on and off thing that happen frequently. -.-

roll on, merry round face

i am sitting in the school library now after meeting my PD advisor. after talking to him i feel enlighten a little, because he helped me to identify my strength and weakness. i really needed to hear that.

i showed him the cultural poster i'm working on, feel weaken by his comment. "Too literal" he said. this itself makes me feel like committing suicide. when you get this kind of comment, it simply shout " YOU ARE NOT CREATIVE ENOUGH" yea, i know. my idea is very cliche. :(

feel too weak now to complete my work. might just present whatever i have now. :( 

piss out. bye.

Sunday is not the same again

i've not been going to church. can't wake up, this is my excuses. though each night before i sleep i told myself i must wake up for it. the following day i just give myself excuses and slept in. :( honestly i really want to turn my Sunday back like how it was in the past. where i meet my cell people, sitting together praise and worship God together. things changed. :( no effort from my side, only wishful thoughts. not enough. i really want Sunday to be like the same in the past.... when i'm typing this, i can picture Jing discouraging face and tell me this "talk only..." haaaa. yea... useless talk Olihua, like how you always say you want to be punctual for school. you may really have the heart of Wants to achieve it, but no effort and action seen. talk will only remain as talk.

:(

boooooooooo

the sun, the weather looks beautiful & sunny outside my window. here i am bother and being self absorb. self conscious... my elder sister said i had a pear body, undeniably-yes i agree. i have realise this long long long time ago. pttfff. very disappointing because she added in order to have a pear body it comes with a small boob and she go on and draw similarities between her best friend and me. both her best friend & i are small chested heavy bottom. this is the thing about being women, having a pear shaped body is bad because it makes you looks bulky and clumsy, above all- fashion like high waisted, tight jean/ skirts are a taboo to us. screw you pear body.

this is the only time that i wish my body proportion will switch, the small petite boob to the bottom and my humongous butt to my chest. having a bigger breast is better then having a bigger butt because at least you can  flaunt your big asset (cleavage), unlike a huge butt, you just want to hide it behind the cotton.

booo boo boooooo. give that a triple boooo.

ironically, there was once i went all heck- care and went out with a high waisted vintage purple pants with a tuck in black spag & deck in heels waddle around Orchard in the broad daylight. yes i know, i'm crazy much. my huge ass is all out attention seeking. so huge that you can't possibly miss it especially that light purple pant simply emphasis it further more. haaaaaaaaa. I'M INSANE. come to think of it now, i petty all those that walked behind me cos my unsightly huge ass have just turn their day green- Disgusted TTM (to the max).

i'm sorry, not sincerely. HA! that day i was really bother about this pear body thing. why a boobies gets a thumb up and a huge ass gets a kick out? like why can one flaunt a huge breast and feel proud and confident but a huge ass needs to feel embarrass about it- just because of the social stereotype and how the media portray what is sexy? so i took the dare and went out against the human perception of beauty. result? i don't know. HA. I-Don't- Care.

dare me again to wear the same outfit to Orchard, i might think twice now. told you, i was really out of mind that day. you can try getting me a little bit tipsy and try convincing me again to take the dare. ;) i might even go bare. HA, joke. never in my conscious mind i said.


woohoo, that's all folks
gotta get back to my design work
more eye straining to do.
yesterday i don't know how many hours i spend doing my design, but i remember my vision went blurred before i knock out on my bed.

see ya.

Tight

woke up @ 3 plus in the afternoon today. if not for the call from Jing, i might sleep till 5! 

woke up for 3hours, watch some TV show eat and 6pm already. 3 quarter of my day gone. Jing call and ask me out, but i rejected because i needed to work on my poster design. i feel bad for rejecting the outing, i never/ hardly reject any outing with friends. unless my circumstances don't allow. i am not talking about staying back home to study, but like i'm sick or i am going out.

ahhh... this annoying poster i am working for one of my module, Design studio. i really crack my brain on this Problem- "design a poster that reflects on cultural diversity and people of Singapore".

first is the technology, i was thinking to draw it out on paper and get it scan and after trace it out with illustrator.
the problem is, very troublesome.

second, go straight to the point, draw it out on illustrator. the problem is, IT IS SO HARD TO CONTROL YOUR STORKES WITH THE MOUSE! not even Wacom makes drawing easier. ptffff.

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my mum just came back with ta bao food from my grandmother's house. i am feeling very full to sit down!

just gave some thoughts to my future career and the me in the near future. i am sort of complaining for having to sit and arching my back, spending long hours over the computer. frowning and stressing over my design/ concept/ ideas, whether or not my design convey the message across.

having to eat walnuts to clam my stress down and balance the bitter taste out with raisin. soon you'll realise too much sweetness from the raisin makes you gag. i'll eat walnut to 'remove' the sweet taste and the cycle continues till my stomach is filled with walnuts and raisins.

why walnut you may ask, it was a coincident. i was working on my design and felt so stress and feel like taking it out on food. something hard like biscuits? on a second thought binge on biscuits is fattening. i found some walnuts on the table and thought they have the same hard properties. and wowlaaaaa~ experiment succeed. walnuts did effectively and almost instantly remove those stressing brows on my forehead! :D

relax enough, i need to get back to work. Time IS running OUT.