I'm stalking Lady Gaga on Youtube

i am watching this video of Lady gaga performing poker face in acoustic version, suddenly it just came to me she love her ass a lot, or very proud of it. watching her perform is so pyschotic. all the insane she can put up, i wonder what's going on in her mind. i wonder what is running through her mind when she stand on the stage and perform? is that her real self? or is it her inner like mad person that she can't express it out in her normal self, only on stage she can let her inner mad soul run? her fashion is over the top, or you call it cutting edge. but i call it Over the edge and fell off the cliff. it is so extreme! if she would ever start her own fashion show, i think i'll probably walk out feeling i've just watch a cosplay. everything is so "BOOMZ" "BAMZ" WHAMPZ!" i realise in most of her vid, she is superbly into the swimwear fashion. the V that cut your butt in the way that reveal your cheek butt? she totally hype that.

this is one fashion that all the hype boutiques are adpoting too. it depends how the V cut, it is actually quite sexy too, like how Dawn yang wear it with a pair of jean. me for sure can never adopt this fashion, the high V will reveal my muffin top! awwww, but i like it. :( too bad, i am fat.

back to Lady Gaga. i know i am slow, but i realise Lady Gaga don't just have a pretty face, but a great vocal too. for moment, i thought Lady Gaga looks bimbotic-not. she is talented and definitely artsy crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!

if only i could have a collaboration with one of these great graffiti artist...

http://buzzinn.net/the-art-of-graffiti/

i think i will even laugh in my dream when i sleep... :)

Heart Not in Peace

i cannot find my camera charger, i get very vexed and impatient. it annoys me a lot, those little mess in house looks 5 times messier. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! is times like this i feel like throwing away stuff, i pick on everything around me. i just know that my charger is some where around in my house, BUT WHERE?! there is so many bloody stuff, thrash, use-less stuff!!!!!

tsk. i am a messy person myself i gotta admit. i don't put the things back to place after used. my stuff is everywhere. i am suppose to start on my holiday homework, i wanted to took some picture of my drawing so i can upload into the computer to get it digitise, that was when i realise the camera battery is low...

where are you Charger!!!!!!!!!!!!?
ARGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

Trying out the Gritty Effect

Before

After

http://photoshopfrenzy.com/?p=94

Gone

just last week i was really sad because i accidentally deleted ALL the data in my computer. according to my computer, it say "Permanently delete" none of the deleted file went to the Recycle Bin so i can't just 'restore' them back. to make things worse, i put all my hope on the IT people in my school. even they told me they can't do anything about it.

at that point of time when the IT guy tell me he can't do anything about my lost data, i can't help but to teared in front of him! it was so embarrassing to think back now. there wasn't just one guy there, there is like 3 IT guy, and some students. it was really drama, but i can't hold my emotions then. ALL my previous works i did in school, some potential works that could go into my portfolio just... "POOF" how can i not be sad?

i went back to class and only my faci was in the room, it was break time then, so the classroom is empty. i can still remember his shocked face when i walk into class.

maybe it just a women thing, the more you comfort or ask "what happen"/ showing concern, the more it makes you feel like CRYING! my faci (guy) ask the very tangible golden qns and yea, you should know what happen. full blown tearing, gag on my words, sniffling and all... -.-

there is a piece of good news to this what-seems-like-tragic. Jing's friend who is good in IT help me get back most of my lost data! how happy it that?! :D my initial intention is to complain about those corrupted- retrieved files. but you know what, i think i should be thankful and stop being such a whinny Singaporean.

AND ALWAYS BACKUP YOUR WORK!!!!

AF-AY-TI dinner.

is 2 prata, one cheese and one ko-song (plain) and salties mutton curry. my sister told me something interesting, she told me one reason that i am still so fat is because my Head is hungry rather then my Stomach is hungry. Get it? i eat out of temptation and not out of real hunger. so i have a tendency to binge.

"8 MORE DAYS TO CHRISTMAS!"

what is the colour for this year Christmas? i was thinking purple, red and glittery blue? what about you? *long sight* Christmas Christmas Christmas...pretty dresses...mad flea shopping... i am outta job man. can't flea (no money) like i want too. see, this is the only negative part about not working. apart from this, i got plenty of Time back in return. yay yay, and boo boo.

shopping is addictive, is it like a possession! sounds extreme, but it is! i like to shop in flea, firstly you can bargain, secondly you will never know what you will find. for me, when i flea i don't have any style of anything on my mind, i solely depend on my eye. whatever catches it, I'll bargain and buy it!

yesterday kraabbing 2.5 star, though i got a sore foot cause by my heels, but i got a temporary toner thigh, so kinda worth it. i know this is a self deception, c'mon this dream will only last for a day or 2 before my thigh will bounce back into (flabby ) shape. my dream will end soon, don't worry! :)

Current update

i am pretty idle right now. i am spending as if i still can support them financially, when i'm not. life without a job is laid back with one focus in mind, school. which is good in a way, however i still feel tired after school, but differently. i feel tried now, most probably i am still trying to recover from last Friday.

today i went for a Universal Studio job interview with my friends. it turn out to be a false hope, can't blame my friend though. her aunt is working there and she was told there was a high chance we could secure a position in the Entertainment department. unfortunately the people there told us a different story when we went down for interview.

"the Entertainment department is looking for full timer currently, because we are looking for someone who can commit more time." ok, i can understand on this part. they just started, and they need stable man power to kick start the business, and not part timer who comes in every 3-4 times a week.

the alternative that they offered us is, Public Ambassador. sound like some awesome post right? in the actual fact, what an Public Ambassador do is exactly like what a cleaner does. you pick up thrash and ensure the cleanliness in the park, and assisting the customer in any quries. Cleaners, basically. that-is-it. THIS, is rubbish. you know what is their reason for putting us (poly students) in this department?

"....we want to change the perspective of the typical cleaners in Singapore, not just the old aunties or uncles. SO, we need youth like you, with open heart to learn and take up new position.....i understand poly student have a tight school schedule, i don't think your can commit during weekdays. so this department suits your better, it requires lesser commitment........."

-i fall asleep while blogging half way, and i just woke up. i don't like continuing what i have stop, so i shall stop where ever i have stop. BYE. :)

"Sometime you just want to be alone to hear yourself better, and not let the world tells you who to be."