if Ah Yee din tell me how dissapointed she and uncle was with my sudden decision to go back. i'll probably blog

i love you i love you i love you i love you my Dearest computer.

her words made me feel so remorseful. my aunt told me that my uncle was thrilled for me when he knew i was going to a poly. he welcomed me to move over to his house, and willing to even chip into my school fees. yesterday night when i told them i want to go back home. my excuse was, i can't surf the net for long. my uncle got so upset with me. right now i just can't stop tearing, i feel so bad inside.

it is true that i missed the "unlimited" net surfing and no curfew life when i was in my aunt's house. but now i just feel so foolish for coming up with that excuse. i din know it will upset my uncle so much. i din know he cares for me so much.

when my aunt told me that today before i left, i was totally lost of words. tears just flow outta my eyes. their good intention towards me, i just can't explain how much gratitude i felt. my uncle and aunt treats me better then my physical parents.

i really din know this will cause so much dissapointment to them. my uncle was so upset with me because he thinks that i took them for granted. i din mean it, but unconsciously i did. i am really sorry.

just now in the car, i find it so hard to compose myself to apologise to my uncle. the word "sorry" will make me burst into tears of remorse. after much struggle, i finally apologise. but he said, " i am too dissapointed with you."




i'll never be able to acess this key anymore. i don think they will ever let me stay over at their place anymore.

decision was made so sudden. my enviroment changes so sudden. i hope i can rewind my decision. but it will never happen.

the first day in my aunt's house, i was given a curfew to be home by 9pm every weekdays. by the time i came home, it was my Pri 2 cousin (Samuel) bedtime. the next day, my aunt told me that Samuel was very upset with me, because he was waiting for me to get home to play with him. i was surprise that Samuel actually told my aunt this, " i don want jie jie to stay over at our house. she treat this place like a hotel." those words makes me reflect on my own selfish thoughts.

it seems that my irresponsible act causes so much hurt to all the members in my aunt's family. they have been my 2nd closes kin, but now..................

LAP TOP LAP TOP LAP TOP
i GONA get one, and i GOTTA have one.

YEA~

Republic poly was not my ideal poly. but still, RP choose me. New Media is the course that i'll be studying. i read up abit about what it does, and i think its kinda of interesting. i am not appealing. thank you Eunice for your advice, hence no effort wasted.

its A THANKSGIVING!

God really fight through this battle with me. from the times before O to the times when i was doing my last minute mugging, to O level itself, to the release of my result, to filling up my JAE, to now how i got into RP-New Media. ITS A ANSWERED PRAYER. He didn't let me go through all this by myself, this is my prayer at the very beginning. this itself, IS a answered prayer. =D

body switching.

this Hole-in-Cow's-belly just pop up in mind.

Shopping again,with kc and mak mak ( she prefer to be address this way).

i plan not to spend more than 6 today, so i brought only 6 bucks out. i intend to left my cash card at home, as to prevent myself from swiping it. but still i brought it out to top my ez-link. at the end of the day, i spend about 30. i spend the 6 i brought out, plus those that i swipe using my cash card. gosh, the invention of "convenient" cash is killing my bank. i must lock my cash card up.

later then, we went clarke quay to meet joey after his work. we slack together, and enjoy the scene of the balls launching off. girls and guys, they just go "AHHHHHHHHHH-AHHHHHHHH-AHHHHHHHH" i dono why, but tonight (out of the so many times) i find it most entertaining.

at one point of the time, we start to play games that was used to play back in our childhood times. Simon says, Chop Chilli, A-E-I-O-U, in CLARKE QUAY. LOL. kc suggested Catching, but er....... not to appropriate to run around there? not to mention, Blind Mice that was suggested as well. i don want to drop into the river while blinding ya know. LOL.

i cannot rmb how the gay subject started, but all of us ended up searching for the gay club. we din manage to find it, more like we gave up while searching.

HOME, was next :D. mak's father drive us back.

I goes:
design is my life,
no design no life,
no life no design.

Mak goes :
lap top is my life,
no lap top no life,
no life no lap top.

we were singing this in mak's father taxi. obviously she is singing to her father to get her one lap top. LOL.

forget about the last post thing. erm. it is very confussing.

Today was a SUPER WORK OUT. in the morning i met up the Wen sisters and their mother for cycling, and bladding at East Coast Park. i was panting heavily after 30mins, collaspe after 1hr. this shows how frequent i exercise. my legs felt so heavy, muscle tight, my back was aching from bending. i just lost my momentum to continue. i just drift slowly, while the Wens sister was no where to be seen.

Thank God for the good weather, very windy and sunny. perfect day for exercise. i finally caught with the Wens by the beach, and we went back together. i dono why, bladding back is so much easier as compared to when i just started.

bladding at east coast is very challenging. alot of slopes, twigs, leaves, mini coconuts and mini durians. very exhuasting, got a slight burn, but the best is, I PERSPIRED ALOT.

i don rmb that there is skyrunners & hip hop dancer audition today, until wenjing reminded me. dude. (i must really start to train myself to rmb things from now)

the audition is all the way to Bedok Camp. very far and very army. i think that place is some kind of army premise (lots of army guys).

at the beginning.....

supposedly was a warm out, but it turn out to be a set of dance move. i got a hard time remembring. then all of us got divided into groups of 10, and the audition begin. 10 by 1o we were brought to the stage to dance the few move that was taught.i tried my best but i still screwed up. i messed up my steps, plus i was SO nervous.

the feedback to me was "not enough energy." (okay~~)

the bladding, the stretching, the dancing and jumping. it had been centuries since my body got so worked out in a day. today is only the audition, so i am stil not sure if i am selected for the sky runner.it look so scary challenging.......

My Last Post.

not that i am closing down my blog, but taking a 40 days break from computer as part of fasting.
today is SUNDAY.
i got a good news for all of your. i am married to Jesus.
(my take away for today sunday service.)

after service wl and i met up with joey boy, leonard, wayne, cass for poollllll. as usual i don play much.COS i dono how TO PLAY!!!!!!!!!! its okay, i'll just rmb the few pointers leonard thought me, and practice on it ya. thank you all ya TEACHER (s) who taught me. :D

wayne wanted a cup of juice, but the stalls in the hawker center was closed. itchyboobs suggested HONG KONG CAFE, for kopi ice, hot milo and mango ice. for the mango ice, its only the scoop of ice cream that taste the nicest. next time just order SCOOPSSS of that vanilla ice cream will do. :D

since it is my last post, and i have a guest with me. lets welcome MAK MAK, and share a few of her thoughts with us. LOL.

ahem,firstly i would lyk to thank my mum&dad for this chance to be here.oops!

oli:"hey y thank ur parents?you should thank me for this chance"

okok,shall thank her then,-.-

MY BELOVED OLIVER TAN.OLIHUA TAN.OLIVIA TAN. wadeva.

Oli:"stupid"

okok,shall start now.

today's service was pretty interesting.Ps khong did sumthing different.there wasn't any consolidation.Only altar call.He called for those hu hadn't really pray thru e psalms.well.i was guilty of that in a sense.so, guess wad? i went out wif e whole cell.n some of us confessed.yea n of coz God did spoke.yea.okok.shall stop here.someone's falling asleep.(u noe who) LOL.yupp.to be continued.LOL.byee.dun miss me. =D

good morning, i am Olivia here to blog. yup, thank you MISS MAK MAK for her sharing. the journey to my house was crazy with MISS MAK MAK. we literally DANCE to my HOUSE, under the MOONLIGHT accompanied by TWINKLE TWINKLE LITTLE STARS. its a crazy night, crazy people. we pass by the open field, and laid there for 20 mins or so. just to adore God's creation. never mind abt the insects, never mind abt the mudded field. just plainly enjoying the studded night and the breeze. WHOO~real relaxation.

during the praise and worship today, we sang an old hymn. that hymn reminds us of a camp song that goes....

"as we walk to the left

as we walk to the right

as we walk as we walk

as we walk all night

with the heels and the toes

and a half turn around

with the heels the toes a new friend found!

HELLO!!!! "

-MAK MAK & OLIHUA version -

" as we LOOK UP.........."

" as we HOP........."


"as we HAHA/ HOHO/ HEHE......."

"as we ZOOM ZOOM......"

to the left
to the right
as we .... as we... all night
with a boob and a toe
and a half turn around
with a boob and toe and a new friend found!
HEYYYLLLO.

THE END.

SEE YOU IN 40DAYS TIME WHICH IS

28 MARCH 2008.

BYE BYE.

a day out with my sis, there will always be a standard procedure that i surely will go through. first, she will give me a earful of remarks about my clothing, my total apearance and so on. then she will start picking about my worse taste of clothing choice,my shoe and blah blah. lastly, she will never failed to make jokes about my complexion. she always find it so entertaining. plus, she don't JUST mock, she mock LOUDLY in the public.

haiyah~ embrassing is of course. but somehow, i have gotten use to it. I HAD BEEN THROUGH THIS ALL MY 17 YEARS. so, if she ever say something nice about my dressing- she is in a good mood. whatever lah.

sound like she is my Image counsultant huh? ya, she is kind of in that position. haha. occasionally i will seek for her advice on clothings, buying and matching making them. not all the time her words are liable, we have diiferent point of view. :D

back to today, i went out with my sis and jing chuan. one good thing going out with them is they will pay more, like the fondue we ate. :D


12 Feb



i met up with wenling for a office job interview at clarke quay. i thought the interview we had was sucks. the day before today, the manager called us and we got the job. i am skeptical about this company. the office is small and not much furnish, and it don't look establish. till now i don even know what is the name of this company that i'll be working in! OH MAN. there is no other staff when we reach there. only a couple of people waiting for their turn to be interview. it really looks like some swindler company. the more i think about it, the more i don't feel safe working there.

during the interview the manger give us a little idea of what they are doing. they help people to solve their high electrical bills? like giving them resolution to save electric and stuff? and if they see that the family is having some kind of financial difficulty, they will help to fund for the family bills? HUH!!!!!!!! i don even know there is such a thing?!! do you think its credible? superly suspicious.

he gave us a little idea on our job scope as well. he said he need staff that is talkative, able to present ideas? something about meeting clients..... it is getting more and more puzzling! we have no idea how much are we gona be paid, because he said it will be brief on our first day of work. tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk. i think..... i will still report on that day, and see how things goes. i will get 999 number ready on my phone. if anything goes wrong, i'll dial it right away.

after that we had our lunch at Waraku. their food portion is small and expensive. their pasta is like any pasta out there. overall i'll say its average. but i LIKE the pizza. then, wenling cab down for work and i meet up with the rest.

i decided to change my belated celebration to shopping instead. initially i plan to have a Crazy Hair Party, then a stay over in my house. but some of my friends have exams to prepare or they gotta work the next day. that day, i spend nearly a $100 on 2 pairs of ear rings, 1 pair of heel, a bag, Waraku (lunch) and Hong Kong Cafe (dinner). food make up the most expenditure.

this is jessebelle or we call her AH MA!!!!!! :D
she din join us, because she got an exam to prepare.

how is my portfolio? it had only just started and 1% of it is completed.

yea~ tonight is my first time into a club, with ziying, shawn (her bf), tom (shawn friend) and jing. we got to sit in the VIP zone as well, because tom is one of the staff there. i heard that he negotiated with his boss, before we arrived. The Pump.....something.....i cannot rmb. i am not drunk. i just cannot rmb.

we had Coke Vodka, and Lychee Martini. Coke Vodka is quite a mild liqour. the Lychee Martini is much more stronger and it tasted like Wasabi. none of them tasted nice. today is ladies night, we have FREE entrance to any clubs.!!!!!! this club age requirement for ladies is 21 years old and above. but thanks to tom again, so we just bluff our way through.

some grooves, alot of ang mohs, life band considering one transexual. the songs were OK. not groovy enough to make me wana dance. LOL.

we went to Arena too (being 18 is good). there were this guy that approch us, and he goes " hi, are your from china?" NO!!!!! of course we are not!!!!! man. of all asian countries, why china? it is a total insult la!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHH. we stayed inside for awhile and left.

i'll summerise it, it is quite boring.

i can't open my eyes, the camera light is too strong.


tilt your head to your left. too lazy to flip the photos.






half way in The Pump, jing and zi ying went to toilet and left only tom and i. he siad something like "you are hot" to me. at that moment i felt as if William hung telling me that. i just freak out. the music was blasting. i must have heard him wrong. shawn says that he is chinese speaking, so he could have translated it directly. maybe he was trying to ask me, "ni re ma? " direct translate will be "you hot?" so yay, it should be. my first impression on tom is when he start to dance. his para para move is...erm...ahem....erm...erm.... a little....... gay. his ang moh boss even come and tell him, "if you continue to dance, i will throw you out." LOL.

we wanted to go MOS, but it was a long queue. we gave up, and tried CLINIC. but we not allowed to go in, we can only sit outside. (-_-)hummm. that IS-IT for tonight.

just let me piat like this on the floor.

you were someone i hate throughout my growing up life. i used to hate you everytime when u are back. you were like a threat to me each time. you were the caused that made me really tremble in great fear. you never seems to do your part. you used to bring us out. now i hardly see you. you talk alot. you brag alot. things like this, u never change at all. i pray for your safety, i pray that you will be home. i cried when i think of you. but why? u never seems to hear my prayer? u let me down many times. i can barely count the blessing when we were together. all i left now is pieces of my childhood times. blured and incomplete. i don't see an excuse that u want a son is valid. it is rubbish. a son is what u got the very first birth. but u put him to death. is it really a son u want? or a sinful pleasure of someone else? i hate u. i hate u. i hate u. i thought u really cherished the pockets of time with us. now i wonder is it a lie. please wake up!

CONGRATULATION TO
ITCHYBOOBS WHO HAVE JUST PROMOTED TO WONDERITCHYBOOBS!!!!! ON THE BEHALF ON THE ITCHIENS I PRESENT TO HER A WONDER BRA. WONDER Z SIZE BRA! I KEPT MY PROMISE I WILL GIVE AND SO I DID.

SEXY RED WITH LITTLE LACE Z CUP WONDER BRA AS REQUESTED. GOOD JOB ITCHYBOOBS.
OH, i wanted to send it to you via DHL. but i just couldn't find a box that can fit your WONDER Z BRA nicely. i don wana crample it you see.... so be patient i'll find another way to send it to you :D meanwhile just hold on to your itchiesboobs ;p

today after my tutoring i caught Kung Fu Dunk with the Wens sisters. seriously, i din know Jay was the main actor in this show. at the start of the movie, they will always have a subtitle about - director, actors and actresses and so on. that was when i saw - " Main actor >>>> Jay chou." (so that's how i know.) Sianzzz....that was my first expression right away.

thank God, the other actors in the show save it. esp ZHANG BO LIN / BOLIN CHEN/ BARON CHEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jay act cute alot in the movie. esp the part where he dunk the ball and poses all those "yay" pose.in the movie he played a" innocent" character, and a skilled kung fu fighter at the same time.

it is quite entertaining. GO WATCH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

zhang bo lin is the guy 2nd from the left =D



zhang BO LIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

for the FARTERs LOVERS.

shortly after this cuties arrived at Olivia's studio, i dress them up and start my photo taking session. not long later...they have their own portfolio done. :D





#1 the Warrior solo shot

#2 the Princess solo shot

* ps. kids, never stand on horses back. the above model is a well trained horse rider******

#3 A combine shot

A great THANK YOU to Eunice (my cell leader) who gave this to me :D

i LOVE them, esp the warrior. that is the reason why there are more picture on the Warrior. if u have realise......

good morning people!!!!!!!!

the time now is 7.10am. (i feel so good to type 'am' )

rise and shine and BREATHE~

it is fresh air~

it had been so so so so long since i last seen morning.

everyday when i wake up i see noon.

maybe is because i slept too much yesterday.

waking up early is FRESH.

today is very special, so i want to blog this first thing i wake up!

now....should i go for roller bladding or a stroll?

GOOD MORNING :D

i want to dedicate this picture to Ruoping & Kumweng :D the ice creams in waffle cones.

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Day 2 into Chinese New year

i am at home the whole day.

last night i had a really good sleep.

it was SO SO good that i slept till 5pm today.

i am awake for 8 hours now.

one good news.

my flu is GONE!!!!!!!!!

HURRAYYYYYYYYYYYYY~

BUT

i sense a sore throat blooming inside.

i hate sore throat....

it was always the leading factor to cough and fever....etc

THEY always come in a package. =(

so i pray pray pray.

my sore throat will be gone.

falling ill is EWWWWWWWW.

i don like.

i don want.

i don like / want to be sick.

no more house visitation with my family.

mom had started work today.

dad want to chiong mahjhong before his work start.

me...........?

chiong portfolio.? so far i had come up with 4 design. but had not started anything yet.i am still short of materials. i need to buy some of them.does anyone knows where to get cheap fabric? or do u have any unwanted clothing to give me? i need a gold fabric and a white silky fabric.

****IF YOU HAVE THE FABRIC*****

****AND WANTED TO GIVE THEM TO ME******

****DO TAG MY TAGBAORD AND LET ME KNOW******

****I REALLY NEED THEM RIGHT NOW*******

****I UTMOST APPRECIATE FOR YOUR GENEROSITIY******

****THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU******

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*****IF YOU KNOW WHERE TO BUY CHEAP FABRIC******

*****DO LET ME KNOW TOO*****

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