just let me piat like this on the floor.

you were someone i hate throughout my growing up life. i used to hate you everytime when u are back. you were like a threat to me each time. you were the caused that made me really tremble in great fear. you never seems to do your part. you used to bring us out. now i hardly see you. you talk alot. you brag alot. things like this, u never change at all. i pray for your safety, i pray that you will be home. i cried when i think of you. but why? u never seems to hear my prayer? u let me down many times. i can barely count the blessing when we were together. all i left now is pieces of my childhood times. blured and incomplete. i don't see an excuse that u want a son is valid. it is rubbish. a son is what u got the very first birth. but u put him to death. is it really a son u want? or a sinful pleasure of someone else? i hate u. i hate u. i hate u. i thought u really cherished the pockets of time with us. now i wonder is it a lie. please wake up!