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her words made me feel so remorseful. my aunt told me that my uncle was thrilled for me when he knew i was going to a poly. he welcomed me to move over to his house, and willing to even chip into my school fees. yesterday night when i told them i want to go back home. my excuse was, i can't surf the net for long. my uncle got so upset with me. right now i just can't stop tearing, i feel so bad inside.
it is true that i missed the "unlimited" net surfing and no curfew life when i was in my aunt's house. but now i just feel so foolish for coming up with that excuse. i din know it will upset my uncle so much. i din know he cares for me so much.
when my aunt told me that today before i left, i was totally lost of words. tears just flow outta my eyes. their good intention towards me, i just can't explain how much gratitude i felt. my uncle and aunt treats me better then my physical parents.
i really din know this will cause so much dissapointment to them. my uncle was so upset with me because he thinks that i took them for granted. i din mean it, but unconsciously i did. i am really sorry.
just now in the car, i find it so hard to compose myself to apologise to my uncle. the word "sorry" will make me burst into tears of remorse. after much struggle, i finally apologise. but he said, " i am too dissapointed with you."
i'll never be able to acess this key anymore. i don think they will ever let me stay over at their place anymore.
decision was made so sudden. my enviroment changes so sudden. i hope i can rewind my decision. but it will never happen.
the first day in my aunt's house, i was given a curfew to be home by 9pm every weekdays. by the time i came home, it was my Pri 2 cousin (Samuel) bedtime. the next day, my aunt told me that Samuel was very upset with me, because he was waiting for me to get home to play with him. i was surprise that Samuel actually told my aunt this, " i don want jie jie to stay over at our house. she treat this place like a hotel." those words makes me reflect on my own selfish thoughts.
it seems that my irresponsible act causes so much hurt to all the members in my aunt's family. they have been my 2nd closes kin, but now..................
