Chevelle just got a haircut. straight bangs!

*ps/// i'm wearing my hello kitty pj

Can't suppress it any longer....

obviously this issue affects me greatly

imagine it is YOUR birthday,

you have plan what you want, and how you want it to be celebrated

you send out your invitation

no one come.

you send your invitation to your "close friends", putting them first

you just want to celebrate it with them

and no one come.

i can't believe i have to beg and argue just so you could come.

i am so disappointed.

i am really really sad

for the 2nd time i cried over it.

I'm sorry, but i think your are so selfish.

for a friend that you call friend

i believe there is always- exception

isn't it?

coming all the way, JUST to make an exception

JUST for your friend's birthday. isn't that worth it?

when you are feel unwilling to attend a certain friend's birthday party,

you procrastinated before you come

you probably don't call that person a Friend

is more like a distance friend, whom you are not interested in.

i think it is time to reconsider this friendship.

when one's birthday is around, it does not always have to be the birthday girl to send out an invitation to celebrate her birthday with her.

IF, we call ourselves friends, i believe we could take an initiative to surprise or plan to celebrate her birthday.

and not blame the birthday girl for not inviting.

Friends are we?

or just a gathering group?

if that person is your BEST FRIEND, i believe she don't even need ask you to celebrate with her

you will ask her isn't it?

this time, i was really disappointed.

i know your boyfriends are important

at the same time, i think you should have your own say.

you are old enough to defend for yourself.

sometimes i think is not a matter of your boyfriend.

it is you yourself.

and how you weigh this friendship.

because it affect me so badly, that i cry.

........Too many emotions at one time.....

i was disappointed by my friends response earlier on. then i just found out about my portfolio sort of like critic session is due this wed! feeling a little panicky, a little stress because my works are all 'half pass six' kind of work. they are all so sucky.

too many emotions clash in at the same time, makes me feeling kinda blue right now.....

It's a Birthdaysss Bash Weekend!

Friday celebrate Jing's birthday,

Saturday celebrate Mak's birthday,

Sunday which is today, celebrating Jesse's brithday!!!!!

some where next week one more birthday to celebrate, and that is

MY BIRTHDAYYYYY!!!!!

i'm gonna party until my pant drop

my head spin

my knee weak

my fingers crample

until i total go HAYWIRE~

ok, i got to go now for the birthday celebration

before i'm late :)

*SHOUT*

IT'S A BIRTHDAY BASH WEEKEND!!!!

A firm "NO"

wah lao, there is like no place of negations with my mum to get my own room. my reasoning is, i need "A PRIVATE SPACE" where i can feel isolated and do my work. i need a empty room with no food and tv, simply layout yet comfortable for me to focus and concentrate on my projects. is it that hard?

and HER reason for not granting my wish is because, she sees that room as another source of income. she can rent out that room for more money....... if Money is a real person right now, i'm willing to commit my first murder in my entire life by killing him!!!!!

yup, just to gain MY freedom. MINE, ME, I. very selfish. very. BUT i really feel that i need one!.

my study place now is a shared corner in the living room. where activities took place, where people walk in and out of the house. where television is blasted, where my niece is free to run to me and ask for a 'bao bao' (hug hug). it is so freaking open that i must seat appropriately, because i got tenants living in my house.

i just want to be in my comfort zone when i work. tsk.....



i have start working again. i've been in the working industry as a part timer for about 3 years now, and i feel tired already. i am so tired of the F&B or Retail or any costumer related job. it is interesting that you get to meet all walks of people but one thing, serving another human is not a easy job.

This is to all consumers!!!!!!!!

• you as a CONSUMER, i don't care how rich you are, but when you talk to a service staff, PLEASE ask with POLITENESS, showing at least some HUMANITY would be greatly appreciated. so what you are rich and of high status? your manner just imply to me that your parents probably hadn't been teaching you some basic manners in your entire life!

• "where is my food? i've been waiting for 10mins already!" hello! you want good food, you need to wait for them to cook. you want your food to come fast, then i think fast food restaurant will suits you better. HEY, don't be so impatient. the restaurant don't serve you only. OPEN YOUR EYES, LOOK AROUND. there is other tables of costumers too! but of course if you have waited for 30mins already, just check with the waiter NOT SCREAM at them.

• A SMILE or an act of COURTESY, like a THANK YOU and PLEASE will make the service staff more willing and happy to serve you. if you want a good service, be a POLITE consumer. this way, service staff will feel more enjoyable serving you.

• USE YOUR BRIAN A LITTLE PLEASE, the service staff have probably stand the whole day, part timers like me come from school and work in the night feels physically strained already. DON'T BE SO SELFISH ANS DEMANDING. when i first started out working, when a costumer raised their voice on me, i swear my tears will just burst out instantly. now, i have learn that they are just being some BIG SHIT OF ARROGANT people, WHINERS and KINGS AND QUEENS of COMPLAINERS. now when i met a nasty consumers who abused this "Consumer is always right" policy. i feel like sticking a fork into their throat and dig their eyeballs out.

there is also some sterotype groups of people with seriously bad attidue. i don't want name names here, for those who have been in the service line will probably have a list of them.

i got a feeling i'll be late for school tomorrow again. nothing new. hey, i feel that i got some Waking up disorder. should i consult a doctor?

Something milk, creamy and thick

each day my tongue will crave for a new texture of food.

some days Hot and spicy,

someday oily and crispy.

right now, i want something boiling and sweet liquid.

so i satisfied my current craving with a cup of Milo mixed with a pack of instant Horlick.

have you tired eating horlick powder before?

it is not that nice as milo powder, drinking horlick taste much better.

i feel. :)

each morning i struggled to wake up.

the snooze function is a bad invention.

i feel like i am in a bed of quick sand every morning.

my head feel so drowsy.

i feel mentally weak to battle against the sleep monster.

my lateness is getting worse!

sight......

it had been so long since i feel the morning rush.

the feeling of racing against the time in the morning.

the feeling to have to catch the 8am bus

the feeling of being punctual.

when was the last time i feel the sense of urgency in the morning?

now

every morning when i wake up i'll go,

"shit, overslept.

********sight***********

late again.........

******ARGGGHHHHHH*****"

i DO feel piss when i wake up and realise that i'll be late for school

AGAIN!

late late late.

this feeling sucks.

Not there yet, not even close...

this is the current work i'm working on, which is still uncompleted.
A big Thank you again to those who have feedback on my work, really appreciated.


i decided to redo the entire thing, which means more research.
the research part really kills me.
It is hard to find the right photo and the right tutorial.


i felt a little demoralise, because my photoshop skills just suck.
hopefully i could come up with a better one this time round. :)

WAH, Sian.

i really refuse to switch on my computer when i reached home hours ago. i procrastinated for like 4hours till my RJ time is close. anyway i am sending them in via email because my LEO is still 'freezing', so heck about the 'Rj closing time'.

i feel really 'sian' to turn my computer on, so tired of looking at this rectangular lited screen almost freaking 70% of time in a day! i got a feeling, that Mr Spec is going to knock on my door soon.

take a walk around the level during class time, and look into the other class in RP. you will most probably find many 'zomb' faces that transfixed their eyes on the screen. i just feel like screaming "GET ME A LIFE!!!!" sometimes the class get so quite because everyone is on the com, instead of talking to each other face to face, we chat through the MSN. what happen to talking face to face? what happen to this amazing creation by God call Mouth? ARGGGGGGHHHHHHHH.

i was planning to continue my design on photoshop when i get home. well well well... giving my eye a break on other medium like watching television programme and reading newspaper (yes! i am actually reading newspaper. to look for a job) is way more relaxing then starring into this intensive screen that consume my energy 4 times faster.

AND you know what, just found out that 'Allah' which means God in Malay is ban to be use by non-Muslim in Malaysia. so you people better be careful when you make any racist joke when you are in Malaysia. is there is penalty for offenders? i cannot remember what i read. OH HO.

did i mention before that i don't feel like getting a job? this is a question, because i cannot remember if i mention it before.

well anyway now a days i got the feeling to want to work again! reason is as simply as a gogocart. i need money to SHOP! isn't that obvious?! i am like struggling to hold back my temptation, i can't control it for too long, i'll go crazy~ HAHAHAHA. FLEA FLEA FLEA FLEA!!! i haven't been flea-ing!!!!! must must do it soon soon!

Officially Obese

another photo of Chevelle to share :)

should i announce my weight?

i feel like one lump of fats right now.

i weigh bloody sixty! SIXTY!!!!

oh my fatty fats fats!

where do your come from?

i seriously need a lipo suction.

i didn't know one term of school is so freaking expensive! $1050! i have an unpaid school fee and my access to LEO was being freeze. which means, i can't view or do the daily assignment through the usual way. i have to ask my classmate to send the documents to me. URGH! so troublesome. which also means that i can't get my lipo lipo until i pay my school fee. boh ho boh ho~

Relationship
a relationship is build based on communication, time spend. i think time = relationship. the more time you are willing to take off to spend with your friends or family, the closer bond there will be. understanding don't come over night. therefore it takes time to build relationship.

i need to need to learn to make time and not waste time. this year, making more time to spend on building the distance relationship shall be my goal.
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just now, my mum came in and sat beside me and watched me do my stuff on the com. honestly i feel that my private space was being invaded. i am not used to her being around, but i can tell she want to spend some time with me. or like want to 'kaypo' what i am up to. ahhhh, which ever it is, i am not comfortable with that. you know somethings are meant to keep away from parents?

this is a public blog. so if one day she just so happened to read this post. then...................................................

Chevelle's Photos update!

this is a series of collage, some of the pictures are small.

but do scroll it down slowly and look at the EACH and EVERY SINGLE photo.

it's worth it, trust me.

:)

#1 top:

i love this photo. i think this is the sweetest smile i'd capture

so far!

#2 top:

in this collage, you can tell from her face,

she was tired....

#3 top:

believe it or not, Chevelle cam whore too!
it is evidently shown in picture at the top right corner! :)

#4 top:

Chevelle got a scolding from her mum for toppling the cup

of ice onto the floor. she was being very grouchy that day.

#5 top:

if you look carefully, you can see Chevelle's mucus! hahaha

(or you can simply click on the photo to enlarge it)

#6 top:

it was a family bbq at east coast, and happy little Chevelle!

:) :)

#7 top:

everyone have their own 'Big Head shot' so as Chevelle.

look at her hair, it was still not fully grown out yet.

#8 top:

HAHAHA, little Chevelle drumming the yoga ball!

she love love it!

some great shots too! ;D

#9 top:

Cheeky Chevelle

#10 top:

posing for FHM. so sexy ~

HAHAHAHA

#11 top:

see how well she posed?

she is a potential model!!!

:) :)

I'm side tracking...

i am suppose to be doing my project, and yea here i am SIDE TRACKING. my blog is so plain omg, i am so lazy to 'beautify' it. if only putting picture is so simple just drag and drop them in here. i assure you, I'll post many pictures! ;)

*the music that is playing on my player now totally suck!

oh yesterday was a oh-so-awesome day~ Thanks to Kc for organising it, and gather all the precious busy bees together so we could have a steamboat in my house! :D i know i am sucky host, i only pack my sty when my guest had arrived. Imma damn lazy dog........

we played DIRTY truth and dare via Kc's itouch, those dare was really dirt~ Thank God there were only girls. ;D it was a quite record breaker yesterday.

it was my first time licking ketchup off Na's h_____.

it was my first time going top n______ in front of precious.

it was my first time my tongue k_______ Na and makmak.

the list goes on....

we have really lots of fun, and Kc next time you must really do your Dare k! otherwise.....MUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHAAH~

we had so much to eat, 5 girls and we eat at least $60 out of the total $75 worth of food. the prawns was really a waste, we cooked all of the prawns but none of us eat it. Na was making a joke about us being so 'rich' using prawns as our soup base. i added, " if we are richer, we'll use real abalone as our soup base." :D nah, this will never happen, who will cook the abalone and not eat them? not me! :)

school is starting tomorrow!!!!! my holiday project is left uncompleted. very well done Olivia. i actually have start a little on my poster design, then vfnruefh vonf oinv ajnv iuaernvoureah foanvoaiurh voavn oauhv oav ankjfv oafoweunavkl hgoolnval nv poegh oirgvj oajnougho arigj oaihrguahgohojbgaognovj pojrfiawj9 jbvaeg.

Good night.

Happy New Year in 2010

hello, how was your countdown? yesterday i was working while the clock struck 12 as the whole world enter into the new year, 2010. it was a only a one day job, my friend's workplace needed some temp staff.


the crowd got high on alcohol, crazy mess happened. this ang moh girl came to me upset because this another ang moh girl from another group threw wax at her for no reason. she wanted me to talk to that girl who insulted her, or do something about it. but, erm, i don't think i am fit to confront her, plus that was between she and her, not mind. i can't do anything about it really. that poor ang moh girl who came here to party left upset. i felt really sorry for her and that pretty dress she was wearing.


another crazy ang moh case, this another ang moh guy got too high on alcohol wank naked on the parapet. EPIC! FYI, he was seated 7 storey high up in the sky. i didn't see the part he wank on the parapet, my colleague told me. i only saw the part where he got into a fight with this chinese uncle and trampled on the ground by about another 6-8 angry men. this ang moh guy was real bastard that ask for beating.


at first it was only a dual fight between ang moh guy and chinese uncle. the bouncers manage to separate them in the beginning. while the bouncer was busy holding back all the angry chinese, the ang moh was behind the bouncer- free. he was was really cocky, he puts his hands up high in the sky, like some soccer player who have just scored a ball. he thought he won, because the chinese was being held up by the bouncers. then he moved on to provoke the angry chinese by wanking his weeny *ick. (Heavenly Father please cleanse me eyes for what i've seen.) his *ick really looks small. one of the bouncers gave him his brief for him to put one, but he threw it back at the bouncer. fair enough, the bouncer gave him a punched (or maybe a few?). his action evoked more anger in the crowd. the angry mob break through the bouncers and that was when the ang moh guy was being beaten to the ground. it was quite a long winded fight. the bouncer separate the crowd, the ang moh guy provoke again, fight, bouncer came in, provoke, fight....


the whole thing ended with 2 bouncers trying to hold the ang moh guy in custody while waiting for the police to come. i did not stay till the police come, i got back to work at the part where the bouncer was trying to take the ang moh in custody. what i heard latter was the ang moh guy ran away! hahahha! 100% sure he was naked!


hahaha! so that was how i enter into the new year 2010, by witnessing a fight. woohooooooo!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!