Same Issue.

Yesterday my mum told me this " i should get involve and helped out in the household chores and stop living in my own world." My mum got a point. i am living in my own world because i choose to abstain myself from my family matters.

Family matters- going round financial stuff AND taking care of nieces and their stuffs.

phew. i am not even their parents, but i have responsibility for them? that's is why i shut my door at home and thankfully i have my own rooms because i just want to soak up in my own world and do my own things. i will blast my music and drown all frustration and nonsense cries.

is frustrating to me because firstly i am not their parents and i have to take of them, secondly when they cry even i have my door closed i am not that hard hearted and let them go on crying without going out to check on them if they are alright. Thirdly, household chores. My house is like a obstacle course and when it comes to cleaning, i just want to retreat into my room!

my family now is about raising my Sister's kid, getting them feed, clean, school and get to bed on time. All these are the agendas for the everyday life. it take up the whole entire day and it will keep going on in circles This-Is-The-Life-For-Raising-Kids. No Life. Mundane life especially when they are not your kids and you don't have to pledge any commitments to them. You get what i mean?