today weather is very hot.
i had a hot steamboat tonight with my cell.
i am feeling very hot now.
i am tired.
good night friends :)

PORTRAITS
we were tasked to take Portraits of our classmate today, an
d it require a wide shot, and a close up shot. the purpose is to bring out the personality of the person himself. i like the outcome alot. i enjoyed that shooting class that day :D

LITTLE BING BING IS BECOMING MORE AND MORE DEARLY~
##pls ignore my big head and focus on the little one instead.

take a step back and look at the big picture.
will it be more beneficial to her and us, or my persistency is holding everyone down?
i do not want this to fall apart, i want to hold on to it as long as i can.
i am afraid to face the aftermath.
i am afraid to see the outcome.
it had been 19years, he had always been in the picture.
at least in my mind, he does.

i still remember my 19th brithday, the birthday greeting he sent. i was over joyed. that was the greatest thing i ever received from him, exactly on my birthday...

that handphone was suppose to be a gift.
what a ugly surprise he had installed for her.

i don't understand where do i stand now.
everytime when i see him come home, i am actually glad to see him.
but why does he always like to surprise us this way?
i used to pray for him.
but now, i can't find my strength to do it anymore.
i am disappointed, little can i do anything either.

every facet of the unknown, i see no beauty in it,
neither did i see joy and happiness reflecting.
then why she enjoyed being a substitute?
does being a second class makes you happier?
or you simply have no limbs to work for own live?
you are just like an algae, feeding on the others to survive.
you are unsightly, slimy and unwanted.
most of all, you are unwelcome.

should i blame him?
i really don't know....

Apparently i don't like my current blog's skin and i am fed up changing it. then this lead me to question myself, "did i have too high expectation for it? or the things i want to see in my blog's skin is unachievable?"

the current theme of the skin is one if the Blogger default skin. i don't like how the post is being arranged. the previous post and the currents are too close to each other, agree? hence, it makes reading difficult. ARGGGGGH!

piss piss~

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Make a Smilebox scrapbook

BINTAN~ :)

A trip to Bintan for 3 days 2 night is really what Olihua needed.

day school, night homed, sleep. this have been the daily cycle after school have started. the stress in school have long drained my energy to have any post activity after school. all i look forward after school is- sleep.

I want to say a BIG THANK YOU to MISS JING for inviting me along with her friends to Bintan. we have lots of leisure time, tanning under the sun, soaking in our private pool, and playing some of the extreme ride.

-hahaha!-

the ATV (all terrain vehicle) ride is the most memorable one. especially when your driver is Olihua. reluctantly Jing was my passenger, and i think that is the most nerve wrecking experience she ever felt. nonetheless, De-most-memorable one too. ;)

let me illustrate to you what happened....
driving an ATV is almost like driving a car, and to Olihua, the only 'car' that comes closes to a real car that she ever drive is, The Go-Cart in Escape Theme Park. to her, she thought she can treat that 4 wheel as another Go-cart ride. apparently, ATV and Go-cart is 2 very very different thing.and i tell you, that ATV is really hard to maneuver!

lets' go straight to the crucial part. the accident began when i make a U- turn and i ran into a bush! so i tried to make a reverse and tried to steer back to path. panic- struck, i must have accelerated to the max, instead of turning just abit, the whole vehicle made a circular trun and down the LONG KANG!!!!!!! HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

well, i can't really remember what happened exactly. like, did i really accelerate to the max when the vehicle was already heading towards the LONG KANG??? i cannot remember. HAHAHA!!! the only thing i can still remember is, the pale shock stricken face of Jing.

HAHAHHAAHAHHAHA!!!! and after, Jing took over the wheels for most part of the journey, and i only took over wheel at the last part of the journey. not a very nice ending though...... :s

Jet ski was the most SHIOK ride. we are all paired up, and Jing was my partner again :) this time round, she let me drive the ski first because....

" there is no obstacles on the sea...." -quoted from Jing. HAHAHA

she also given me the golden key to accelerate to the maximum. it is like the key to freedom. sounds like she controlling me? the reason is because, during the ATV ride, she constantly telling me, "slow down slow down, turn right, don't go too close, speed up a little, turn right, turn left...okay, you are doing good."

i enjoyed the thrill when accelerating, but i am not a cautious driver. so Jing have to instruct me during the ATV. but now we are on the sea! we blast the speed meter and ride against the wave. extremely exhilarating to speed, speed, SPEEDDDD!!!!

the expenses there is really high, it is a either of, fun or food. we choose fun so we have to have to be a little more calculative on food. then we decided to have a little sneaky sneak. not shop lifting of course, we buffet lifting. (very sin-ah-poreans acts) to put it in a better term, we "ta-bao" some food from the the buffet. hee hee.

take some advise, if you plan to go there to enjoy the sports and other activities with limited money. Bring your own food there! bring enough to least cover your hunger. for example a 3D2N stay, 6 cups of instant noodle will be good :)

Hasselback Potato

potato is my favorite dish.

i have not been journaling much. it is either i have no time, or i don't know what to write. there is so many issue and personal thoughts that it is not convenient to raise here.

close friends is my best "journal". i shared with them my thoughts openly, keep those memorise for me yea :)

Just now my sis came running into the kitchen with Chevelle in tow and they strike me down like a bowling pine!

why: my mum just mopped the floor
how : she sister slipped
what : happen next, chevelle cried but my sis, mum and i burst into LAUGHTER!!!!!!!!

c'mon! its so funny! she slipped flat on her buttock and i fell on my knees and elbow. though my fall wasn't that painful as my sister, the cup half filled with water spilled on face! can you just imagine the scene?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

we have good laugh though :) the fall is worth it! HAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

today we sort of learn how to edit audio sound. we sort of edited the audio. we sort of understand how to do it.

in the end, we are all very certain that we still don't really understand anything?!

this is RP. the faci just came into class today and tell us that we are going to do audio editing. he taught us briefly on a few selected function, then left us exploring the rest of the 95 other functions on our own.

with the very limited and little timing given us to finish the assignment, it is impossible.

overall, audio editing is boring, stressful and not fun. we got homework today! IS FINISH EDITING THE AUDIO RECORDING! say woo lala, say woo woo lala. i am going insane.

i think i will be the 2nd person to commite suicide in RP. do you think i am kidding you? i really dead not serious about it.

bye.

Another day passed in a wink ;)

Best Friend - Hillsong

I know this have long pass. just to share, i find it funny!

year 2 year 2, yes i am in Year 2 and finally started my own course.

in a class with 24 other creative people can be quite challenging. there can be alot of conflicting concepts. in the end everyone in the team have to agree on one, and work on it.

every since schol starts, weeks seems to pass so fast. i kinda wana rant about this fast moving pace. i have no idea why am i so tired everyday?! since yr2 start, i've only part time on weekends excluding sunday. but why am i still so tired?

weekdays is a day in day out of school, and weekends i work (normally on Friday and Saturday), Sunday, Church.

as plain as that, there goes my week!

~sight~

i don't know if i am being stressed out in school. maybe?
the normal 2 breaks consisting of an hour break and a 2.5hour break have been cut short. which means, we have lesser time to complete our daily presentation! this is not fair ok!

now that i have analyse, i think i know where my daily stress comes from. it is like meeting deadlines everyday! this is like some preparation, moulding us to handle stress, training us to the working world. THIS IS CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!

STRESSSSSSSS!!!!

the add on to the stress, the shites teammates you can get is a bunch of unmotivated people who is totally not interested in the day's assignment. the amount of stress to do everything by yourself can really tears me into two.

nonetheless there is fun in the week. i enjoyed all the Photography class. it is fun in the beginning, but as the weeks passed, it gets more challenging. the Theme we are require to shoot always revolve around the campus. after the first two weeks, we really have to hunt for something new.

the highest stage i can get is only stage 2
ahhhhhhhhhhh! this is so tough!
try it yourself, Spot the Differences.

Fairates, i will name, my current biggest enemy.
Fuods, i shall call it, my another sinful temptation.
when there is Fuods, there is Fairates. when there is Fairates, there is depression.

Chevelle is growing fast. this is her 11months and she can walk by herself already! i haven't got a clue how to turn the video upright, if your got neck cramp... i can't do anything either ;)

i am orsai. im very smelly. byeeeee

how do you juggle school and work and church?
work may be only on Friday and sat.
but Saturday night had to work till closing.
it eats into my sleep and turn me into a zombie the next day in church.
physically there, mentally absent.

there goes my weekend.
i spent my Sunday morning zomb away during sermon and in the latter part of the day, stoning infront of my laptop.

zomb part two.
today i reached school nearly the time for the first break.
there is a slight hiccup on my way to school.
standing in the Q for the shuttle bus to school for nearly 15mins.
when the bus finally arrived, the bus was packed and the door close on me.
give up, i took the escalator up and wanted to walk to school.
just a few steps out from the interchange, rain starts to pour, so i have to run for shuttle.
half drench, and caught a slight morning flu.
not swine flu, morning flu.

is her laughter that everyone love.
when you just came back from school, and when she reach out to you for a hug.
that is the most heart warming thing ever.
when she falls asleep in your arm, peace descent.
when you succeed in making her giggle, it makes your day. :)
sunshine!
but when she cries, it is like earthquake and high pitch thunder.
nonetheless, she is still the most adorable thing in this family.
ALL HAIL LITTLE CHEVELLE! :)

she is already 11months old, and turning 1 year old in about a month time.
i haven't got a clue how we are celebrating for her, that we'll leave it to her parents yea. :)

thinking about all this sweet moments with her, brings a smile across my face.
some wacky photos of her above.
i hope those photos bring a smile across your face too :)

as much as i love my current job, its an irony.
that place, indeed is C (starts with a 'C' and ends with a 'D').
you'll figure out what is it.