I refuse to be understanding
at this point of time i am not sure who am i more angry with.
my mom or sister (elder)
for the entire afternoon, i was left alone to take care of my 2 niece.
one only a month old, another is about 1 and 1/2 year old.
the one month baby couldn't stop crying.
i cannot settle her down, and i don't know what is wrong?!
at my age now, i really can't take all this nonsense.
i have no choice but to help to look after them.
my mom left me home with this 2 nonsense because she told me she need to pick up her specs.
ok.
i thought that would be a fast trip.
in the end, she went for some relaxation herself
and she just came back!
do you know how helpless i felt?
the baby's endless cries makes me insane!
on another hand, i thought my mom also deserve some break.
she have been working 7 days straight without any break.
then again. she did something that i really disagreed on.
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so i blamed everything on my sister.
she bloody give birth to 2 when i feel that she is not ready to become a mother!
many times i argued with her over this responsibility issue.
they are her child. her responsibility, not ours.
not my mom, and definitely not mine is bloody hers!
she bloody put her child here and put all responsibility to mom- to take care, raise and do most of the discipline.
seriously, when i look at her i can tell that she still want her single hood freedom.
she is not ready to take the responsibility to raise her kids!
then don't give birth to so many when you are not ready to take up the role of a Mother!
i am sorry, but at this stage of my life right now. i got no patients with kids.
i want my own time, space to do MY stuff.
in a simpler term, i'm being very selfish right now.
leave me out with all this family responsibility thingy.
i am not interested in setting up a family at my age right now.
career come first.
i think my sister is solely to be blame.
if not for her child, my mom and i would be having our own time.
none of us will be exhausted from taking care of the 2 tods nonsense.
aaaaaaaghghgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg,.
i know my days will come when i'm a mother myself.
definitely i will feel equally lost being a mother.
but whatever it is, i'll make sure everything else is secure before i'm prepared to have a family.
