Vain

1. excessively proud: excessively proud, especially of your appearance
2. unsuccessful: failing to have or unlikely to have the intended or desired result a vain attempt at persuading them
3. empty of substance: devoid of substance or meaning

i don't know, some people is not up for me to judge. they are looking for love, what seems to me is seeking for security or some kind of self assurance? they move on from one love to another so easily, and each time they call it love. yes, i think love at the first sight is love. then again, how long can you love him for his appearance by just knowing him barely 14 days? oh well, this is love isn't it?

love is a mystery, so cheesy, easy, weesy.

Quique The Head

Durain is "smelly" enough, imagine durian vomit.

the entire day of today, i've been running back and forth the toilet. according to the doctor, i've consume some dirty food that causes this upset in the stomach. back ache, queasy feeling inside my stomach, fatigue face from vomiting, cold, best of all- i can't control the urge to shit. everything was involuntary. :(

i am feeling much better now. the diarrhea have gone, so as the sensation to barf. my lower back is still aching, feeling both mentally and physically feeble still.

yesterday was my my elder sister and mum who got this disease. little Chevelle is having diarrhea for quite some time. seems like this disease is contagious. this whole drama starts early this morning when i was about to prepare for church. that was when i felt this strong sensation to barf- durain vomit. the smell really sucks.

time now is 9.16pm and i hadn't consume any solid food except for the medication. i didn't dare to eat, i'm afraid to agitate my my stomach and i'll start vomiting again. i am hungry...i can feel my stomach growling...

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Popcorn Invasion Chapter 584
what it is, tonight i got a shortage of $40 at work. i work a lot this month and i lose a lot at the same time. -.- AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. for this month, i have accumulated a shortage about $120. which is like 1/3 of my pay- gone.


i quit.

Broken Sentences

like how i have predicted at the start of this month. i will be totally worn out. true enough, i feel really exhausted (mentally) now. it is almost the end of this month, i feel like i don't have enough rest everyday. school, work, school and work after school....this is crazy!


HOPEFULLY, next month will be different. i think having enough rest is really important for ones mind. it really refreshes your brain, so idea can flow and it affects your reaction to subjects and matters around you as well........


i don't really know what i am typing. i think you call this mental blockage?

I'M FREAKING LATE AGAIN!

....woke up late, puffy face, protruding tummy!

suicidal morning...

:(

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle,

Life is a maze
and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
I've tried
and I don't know why


-The show By Lenka

Letter of tonight, L and F

Love and Fat, they are two individual.


does anybody know of the next flea coming up? i feel like shopping again. MAD shopping... nope, i am not feeling rich, just feel like shopping to de-stress. :D

uncle, can i have apples and pear?

maybe orange and mango?

what about watermelon and papaya?

hell no, no papaya!

YES! i want duriansssss.

there is nothing on my mind.
blank.


maybe i need to go for a movie? maybe i just need more pockets of quality time with friends? i need to find a way to get rid of the little-stress-block in between my brows.


hey Joey, thanks for the motivation. i will HANG ON, i am Buenoing~

TGIF

Tonight i feel relaxed. after school i went for a telematch and my group came in first. all credits to that guy (one of the organiser) being so sporting and enthu about it. otherwise, i think we'll just stroll through the game.

i feel good not having to RUSH off anywhere after school. simply spending some time with my friends and chat. ahhhhhhhhhhhh~ this is little relaxation that i feel contented of.

i made a joke about me being 21 this year. it was then i realise 21 is not far away from me! 21- is, in fact arriving in 2 years time from now :( i feel oldddddd at the thought of it now. i should be proud being 19!!!!!!!!

when i was 16, i wish i was older.
when i was 17, i was afraid to enter 18.
when i am 18, i feel like i have to hold a certain responsibility.
then came 19..... i wish i was 16 again.

OMG, next year i will complete my 2nd set of Tens. that is like.... O-L-D.
the time seems to have fast forward. it is like a constant reminder to me that i got no time to waste.




just to share something about my current class. there this group of acoustic boys in my class that will entertain us with songs everyday. sometimes i'll just sit among them and get drown in their awesome strums. i got limited vocabulary, i cannot think of the perfect adjective to describe the feeling. it is just so-awesome. it makes me feel so small, being not able to play any instrument. yet, i like the feeling to just sit there and watch the boys flaring their talents. the word is AWESOME! if you know of a better adjective to describe the feeling of being incapable yet enjoying it at the same time, do tell me. YOU can do me a big help to expand my vocabulary. A million thank to you from the rock bottom of my heart.

Once Bitten, Twice Shy...

today is my first time i report for work, late, and being send home. the feeling is totally humiliating. it totally sucks.

my manager is being too paranoid, being in her 60s, i'll try to be more understanding. i am serious about this job, it just so happen that i got too many 'incidents' that clashes with my working days...

sucks.

the contract is 6months, i've got a feeling my days working there will end soon... after this 1st week of my sem 2, the amount of works i have to do is increasing. Portfolio is one of my major stress now. i need to come out with a proposal on what i will be focusing on, and submit to my supervisor on Mon to get his approval...

lots of planning, thinking, research to be done.

stress. stress. stress.

i just start working in my current working place not long ago. i don't want to give a feeling that i'm not serious about it. i try not to reject my manager too much if she ask me to replace anyone, because i need to show her that i am interested in working. i try not to change my working dates with her, unless under some circumstances- crop up in school or something...

the first time i told her i couldn't make it for work was because of a friend birthday. i struggled to tell her that, this is something i felt is too personal, work to me, comes first. furthermore like i said, i just start working. but she excused me...

the second time was yesterday i had to meet with my supervisor to discuss on my portfolio. i called my manager and told her i'll be late for work. in the end, she ask me not to turned up for work because it was pointless by the time i reached there.

and today, i was late. before that i had lunch with my cell group and came down from there. according to her, i'm late for an hour. she lectured me and send me home to repent if i'm serious about this job. she spoon on the past 2 issues where i couldn't make it for work. i was really disappointed...

i really don't know what to do now. i need more time for my school, but this month i am schedule to work almost 4/5 days in a week. i can't find replacement, i can't tell my manager. she will think that i-am-not-serious again! argggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i feel physically and mentally weak right now. is like taking things one step at a time, and see what will happen next. now, i am standing at the edge. i just need one more 'incident' that i can't make it for work, and down the cliff i fly.

Bad Start
i start my term 2 with my laptop down, sore throat, and feeling all moody. on top of this, this month i am being schedule to work almost everyday!

in my previous work place, i'll give my availability, but i DON'T get to work all the days i have given. likewise, i thought my current place work the same too. so i only crossed out 2 days in a week, thinking that i'll give my manager more choices. never did i thought that she will put me to work all the days that i did not crossed out. -.-

some times i wonder if i should give thanks or complain about it. well, in this case, i can only blame myself for being so careless. knowing that i am starting school, i should have inform my manager about it. aiyah...olihua..olihua...when will you stop being so careless?!

ever since mon, i have been suffering from mental blockage in class. i call this symptom, Holiday Lag. plus, i got bonus blow from my illness, that makes a combo Lag.

semester 2 is really where we start hands on, this ONLY come after 1 and a half long years! homework really starts to come in. whew, i foresee this month is going to very very very busy, stressed and loaded.

this month is going to be very challenging for me....

A response to my friends ...

after reading Sheena's blog,
I feel envious.
Sheena, you sound like you eat a lot of good food!
Nike say "Just do it"
and Sheena's interpretation is
"Just EAT it"
Sheena, i am envy of you because fat is never anywhere near you.
you don't even need a second thought before eating...
:(

dear Ruoping, after reading your blog....
you shared something so personal, for example your struggles.
i really feel for you, especially the one you blog about you caught in the middle to give up netball or not. "i forgot being a netballer is my dream..." i feel for you....
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i'm listening to Energy by Keri hilson on Lyricsfly.com. my brain wasn't focusing on the lyrics, instead the word Energy seems to speak to me more. in this period, where i got plenty of time on my own. so much so that i do a lot of reflections.

i realised that i have been running around the clock, 24 hour against the time. this is how it is like having to study and work at the same time!

Energy,
is what i lack,
when i pushed myself too hard,
and suffered a energy breakdown.

Holiday is a Energy recharged for me
i get to have my own time,
to catch up and relax with my friends.
to take a step back and awe

"Awe
mixture of wonder and dread: a feeling of amazement and respect mixed with fear that is often coupled with a feeling of personal insignificance or powerlessnes"

this practically summarise how i feel the entire time during this holiday...

Viciously Biting My Apple...

3 Hippos, 2 ducks and 1 Chicken

pass, the bus

i waddled home today

pass, the main street

i cut through the blocks.

came upon an interesting graffiti on a Kindergarten school wall,

walked pass groups of Malay dressed in their colour outfit,

walked pass the soccer field.

finally, i waddled home.

i got 2 SiSter.
one is Sister, another is siSter.
this sIster, is me.


sIster was playing with my siSter today.
we had a friendly cat fight.
sIster asked my siSter to accompany me out to visit a friend of Hougang, Ang Mo Kio.


my lazy [square.box] [triangle.chocolate] [circular.mooncake] siSter refused.
so we had a sISter friendly cat fight.


is ok, nobody is hurt.
siSter laugh.
sIster laugh.
little Chevelle at the side also laugh.


good.
happy ending.




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i got 2 SiSter.
one is Sister, another is siSter.
this sIster, is me.


sIster was playing with my siSter today.
we had a friendly cat fight.
sIster asked my siSter to accompany me out to visit a friend of Hougang, Ang Mo Kio.


my lazy [square.box] [triangle.chocolate] [circular.mooncake] siSter refused.
so we had a sISter friendly cat fight.


is ok, nobody is hurt.
siSter laugh.
sIster laugh.
little Chevelle at the side laugh too.


Good.
Happy Ending.

I GIVE UP

....on photoshop tonight. ever since after i came back from working in comex, my eyes seems to get too stress out in front of the computer screen so easily. i was doing research on using photoshop to create an Ice effect. i was researching and trying out, when my eye starts to protest. this sucks. computer and me is like a buddy now... and my near future....

i cannot take already...have to rest my eye now.....

"something smell really foul now....

i mean really...."

-the above statement have got nothing in relation with the following post.

hey, today have been a well spend day with Jasmine.

I'm glad we went out together today. :)

I've finally settled the past and move on.

no longer I'll be haunted by the piles of uniform in my closet.

i was struggling this morning

at the thoughts of going back to that taboo number place again.

whew~

aftermath, all my worries, is redundant.

may it be a truly sincere greeting:

"hey so nice to see you!"

or just a superficial one....

i think

i am glad...

soooooo, one heavy load lifted off, i am glad, more then glad, very glad :D i will miss working there, that place have open up my world by 6m in diameter. by far, i have say the people there is the nicest people i have work with. yay, really, thank you _ _ _.

Jas and i had about a 50% tour around the national museum. there is so many things to see, so many artifacts. SO MANY, that we can't cover it within an hour. THAT, we will cover the rest in another day. the night is so foggy tonight. i wonder if our neighbourhood country's woods is on fire again?

we had Monster Ice for dinner, come to think of it now. the bowl of ice is pretty not worth the money. it is not really nice, it taste like ice with fruits. they uses real fruit, ya...that is it, and that small bowl cost 6.50! what the hell, what am i thinking?

i feel like eating strawberry prata tomorrow, i feel like having a dinner at chomp chomp tomorrow.....

REST

4 crazily intensive day working as the cashier in Comex show have finally ended. therefore, i name this post, rest.

aunties were the most irritating costumers. they were the bunch that asked a lot of questions, and not just that, after you have answered them, they will ask you why. every aunty i served will at least take 10-15mins. the nastier ones will make a big fuse when they don't get the things they want. they want all the free stuff in the house. they will talk to you in the most impolite manner and they demand for their things. bossy, arrogance, unreasonable, they bargain like as if they do in market. the thing they do best is "WHERE IS YOUR MANAGER? I WANT TO COMPLAIN!!"

go ahead, i am more then happy to direct them to him :)


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i was at my grandmother house just now and was being entertained by my 4yr old cousin. he played a Ultraman CD and he start imitating the moves of the Ultraman. the most amusing thing is, there is a part where there is a Ultraman dance! it was totally retarded! all the Ultraman stand in a formation of a bowling pin position and start doing the Ultraman stances.

i thought it was very amusing for me. i wonder what is it about this characters that fascinate so many young kids. how did i fall in love with Power Ranger and Ultraman when i was young? i still remember i was a big fan of the Yellow Ranger. now to me they look so hilarious in the body fitting outfit fighting live size rubber monster.

oh whatever. all thanks to them, they make up my childhood :)

6 Sep 2009 I Completed the first 5k run in my life.

- the yellow ribbon run

this is really a Thanksgiving. the best part was, the rain came after we ended the race.

i thought i would give up half way and start walking. never did i expect that i would finish the race, and not feeling too exhausted at the end. i sign up the race with my club members of Skyway, and make this a club run. we split into 3 section among ourselveshe fast runner, the mid runner, the slowest.

i, definitely don't fall in the fast runner section, me of little faith of myself, i choose the slowest runners group. i think in this group i act as a motivator to my other friends, constantly cheered them on not to give up and spur them to run. this, i was constantly reminded of wenjing, who encouraged me not to give up during training. ;) Wenjing, you got the credits too! :D

that race was not only the climax on Sunday, the aftermath travelling to church was the part 2 of the climax. we couldn't hop on to any bus to church, because it was too packed. so as the consecutive buses that came.

we hiked alongside the highway, walk on top of a 35 degree steep slopes and chit chatted in the rain. it was only until one bus stop away from church then we manage to get on a bus.

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yesterday was my official day to have my own counter in my new work place as a official cashier. my first day and i have a shortage of $36............ :(

today is like a food revenge day. i literally gorged at my food today.
for tonight's dinner in celebration of my dad's birthday, we had a spread in my house.
i pig at every dish in front of me. my stomach almost burst from overloading, but my mouth refuse to cooperate. so i continue to gorge more food down the throat.

after the awesome spread, my mum baked cookies, and a failed attempt of a mango cheese cake. i was really full, still, i ate 3-4 of the big cookies. took 1 big slice of the failed attempt cheese cake. beside that, there were still some cookies mixture left. my mum fuses the rest of the mixture with mango puree and make them into mango muffin. i had 6-9 of the little ones.

-.-

what is wrong with me tonight?!

this coming sun, i got a Yellow ribbon run. this week, i did not even train a single day for it. today is already Friday!!!!!

oh man oh man. i feel a little faint right now, at the thought of the run this Sunday. sigh~

I'm still awake and waiting for my dad to come home and blow out the candles. he went off after dinner, he said he'll be back at around 1plus. now is already 2.37am to be exact. the sky is red (it is going to rain), tonight is going to be a cool cool night~

something quite disheartening when i saw my dad earlier on. both of his feet is swollen like 2 big ham. we try to persuade him to see a doctor, but he refuse. what a stubborn man. he is already so old! those swell looks infectious, he better consult the doctor soon, before who knows what will happen..... sigh.....

ever since holiday start, i spend more time at home, and catch up the life at home. like seeing the chores my mum dos everyday. the nonsensical cries she have to dealt with my niece everyday. the little growing up moments of Chevelle.

is amazing how much i have missed out in my niece growing up days. we stay in the same house, but i hardly interact with her. i either came home late, where she is already sleeping, or I'll spend most of my time with my laptop more then her. what a aunt huh! :(

now Chevelle can dance, make funny faces, and take command! like she know how to "HI-5", wave her hand to bid good bye and blow kisses. she understand what is 'come', "take your water bottle" and things like this. I'm amaze at how much she understand our language now, though i still couldn't figure out what is "gugu gah gah ah!" her little baby talk.

i was playing with her one day, and i asked her to smile.

this is what she give me.

she tossed her head back and gave me a big smile.

Drama MAMA

the missing taboo numbers.

the unknown stress that i was feeling earlier on was gone. As i played the christian songs on my player, i felt a immediate peace. it is just amazing how this song can clam things down at time. God is amazing. all the time. :D

space
freedom
music
DANCE!!!

hey, today is Wednesday, the official day of my semester break.
nothing to do.
penniless.
idle.
oh government, grant me something to do.
if i call on my Mom, she will probably ask me to do housework.
that- is something to do.
but i don't like.
if i call on God, He will grant, if only i seek.
but now, erm....er...not....really.... (never mind)
if i call on my Friends.
that will be excellent idea to spent my time with.
but, definitely have to spend, in terms of money.
sucks. no.
gotta to watch my spending carefully now.
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH

ukulele ukulele
i dono how to play
ukulele ukulele
i am very bored today.

my mum and i always quarrel over who have the most "thrash". like, obviously she have more then me. her things is everywhere over the house. there is this big pile of STUFF behind the television, she got the whole store room to herself! everytime when we quarrel, we will provoke each other to throw away each other stuff.

in the midst of our argument, she made this funny comment. "you have a lot of photos in your computer! you should throw them all away!" i don't know why, but i cannot help and broke out in laughter when she said that. yes, i do have a lot of photos in my laptop. BUT they are not useless. half of them are my school work, another half are photos i took for my own interest, and some are photos i had captured of the good times i had with my friends.

furthermore, they are not occupying any square space in this house! HAHAHA. my mum and her humor.

this is a never ending argument, because in our own perspective, this "thrash" is precious to us in our own way. this argument will subside for the time being, until either one of us begin to feel that the house is getting messier,then we will start to pick on each other again. HAHAHA. THIS IS-NEVER-ENDING. no one will give in! we just want to get rid of the others' possesion, and keep our own. selfish isn't it? HA.

in the nutshell, i am just plain lazy to tidy up my stuff. i know some stuff have been sitting there forever, this also means that they are of no use to me anymore. i am just too lazy to pack those things away. arguing back with my mum is just an excuses for me. HOHO. maybe, maybe one day when i feel like it, i WILL pack out those things that i no longer used anymore. as for now, is now. :D

quote "looking good is never easy..."
-Fashionista by Jimmy James

i was just wondering have the eyes of this era getting narrower. there is a saying, beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. what about the size? in this era, girls are tyring to fit into UK size 8 and below. anything above that is like a crisis have fallen on them.

staying and befitting into Size 8 is crazy. some of the apparels in Bugis street come in weeny size. people like me, categories under Mid-giants, can't fit into them. are they trying to emphasis small is the IT thing?

face it.

quote "beauty has a price..."
-Fashionista by Jimmy James

1min

1min, pass so fast when i swim today.
1min, pass so fast when i do my test today.
1min, on the bus is like a sleepy spell on me.
1min, i can cover a longer distance when i run.
1min, pass so slow when i run.
1min, i wish i have chest like guys and not breast.
1min, i still want my breast.

1001 OLIVIA
Olivia is a pig.
Olivia is a mixed blood.
Olivia is a state.
Olivia is a photographer.
Olivia have wrinkled skin.
Olivia is a hotel.

I AM THE QUEEN THAT GUARDS OLIHUA'S DOOR EVERY FORTNIGHT.

5 words journal

eee, erm, yuck, what, HUH!

sleep, tired, stumbled,drifting, subconcious...

cute, irritating, funny, don't, shoo.

think, blank, stress, ideas, block.

type, letters, words, simple, expression.

1234
my computer runs slow

5678
it's time to get an external hard disk

1234
do you know our daily sandwich cheese goes well with Maggie mee?

5678
i just had a bowl with cheese

1234
i am blasting music on my phone now

5678
this Sunday there is a flea going on in St James!

1234
popping hopping SHOPPING!

5678
my semester break is coming!

this eish ers verish randumb dumb post. i eish waitingsx fox mice Internet brownser to loadies. it ish takes sooish longssss.

do you know i can hear the cheena talking right now from my house? that is because i stay only on the 2nd level. i am getting retarded. i am asking and answering them myself!!!!

duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

suck suck suck suck.
suck my fat cheek in!

one classmate had been telling me that he is trying to "get used" to my new look. i am too, trying to get used to it. it is too straight, too neat, and emphasis greatly on my round round face. :(

it is weird, just last week i can resist all food before me. then this week, my menses came and the circulating hormones washed away the mental defence i have been trying to sustain. boo menses. boo.

my body weights seems really nonsense now. today i may weigh 55, tomorrow i weigh 58, then the next day 56. nonsense right? maybe you suggest that it is time to change my weighing machine. i suggest, its time to move my thunder thigh and shake the earth abit.

boooooooooooooo....................

so easy to say
so hard to move them
so much of redundant talking
so. SHUT UP.

Just Imagine....
Human beings are the only animals that copulate while facing Armpit!
Owls cannot move their eyes, because their eyeballs are shaped like olivia tan.
Ostriches stick their heads in Rice not to hide but to look for water.
this is bullshit! HAHAHA
http://thesurrealist.co.uk/trivia.pl?subject=olivia+tan&gender=f

the marshmallow grading is out, i got a C. expected though, because i kinda stray from the expectation.

man, my faci is stressing on building our portfolio. i am clueless where and how to start! i did some research on Online Portfolio making. i viewed some of the good example of good Online Portfolio, and you know what? i feel weak and discouraged to continue what i have just start off just by a weeny bit. my portfolio looks pathetic comparing to theirs. OH MAN!!!!! -.-

how to continue....................

awww~ i just finish watching the Kite Runner movie. it is so so so nice. unlike harry potter and the half blood prince, totally dissapointing ending.

hey! half of this year have passed, how have you been? i got a new hairdo. for the passed 4 years people tried to convince me to get a rebond. i refused. guess what? yesterday at around 6 plus i walk into a salon, intention was just to get a hair cut. in the end i end with a washed, blow, layers of serum, washed, conditioner, washed, some more other stuff, washed, finally i got my hair iron straight flat!

how do i look now? i look neat. like every now and then when i see myself in the reflection i will get a shocked. in the past, i am so used to go in the toilet and see myself with the frizzy, unkempt fluffy hair. then I'll be like "so messy, but i like." Now, when i look up into the reflection of myself, my hair is so so neat! i am so not used to it. no matter how i messed it up, it falls back into place. so weird. so straight, so neat! I AM SO NOT USED TO IT! furthermore, this straight hair literally take the shape of my head, so now you can see my square face more obvious now.
-.-

then again why the sudden decision to rebond it....why, let just say that the hairdresser won the conviction game.

My shots of the day. this is not what i've presented though. it is kinda of gruesome, you can try to guess what it is, but it is not gonana be easy. *hint hint* it is a food.

WORK.
truthfully speaking, i've gain alot of insight from my current work place. recently, i've been pondering over a great amount of time, if i should quit or stay?

reason 1
i am tired, very very tired of the working environment

reason 2
the people there is turning more and more cold

reason 3
i need some sort of income to support my expenses

so to quit or not to quit?








































































the photo is actually mashed and squashed marshmallows.

My Sunday colour code:
Red, white, black and dark brown with a touch of gold.

yesterday was really quite a good catch up with my classmates. the word 'catch up', may seems quite inappropriate, because we see each other everyday. during school hours, we talk only about school work, school discussion of the day problem. the topic never ventured too far away from SCHOOL SCHOOL and school.

i missed out the morning fun in the Sentosa due to work, BUT i catch up with them in the evening. we open a very expensive Chivas in Serenity restaurant bistro, which cost us $200 plus in the end because of the high GST charge. well, i guess everyone have enjoyed yesterday night, the atmosphere was nicely tune by this acoustic live band called TryCalling. the money we paid, is worth it.

i have enjoyed myself too. school life is really draining, i need more social life like this :) everyone lets toast to this more social weekends! CHEERS!

Nothing beats going home.

Today we are to recreate an art work of an famous artist work. our team chosen Salvodor Dali. his work is mainly about surrealism.


this is Salvodor Dali, and his iconic mustache.

here are some observation we made.

- his work have smoothness and flow

- most of his paintings is oil painting

- he uses wide range of colours in his work

- his distortion art, is like a 'liquid' merging style-like distortion

- alot of roundness, and smooth edges

- surreal ( this is given)

One of his most famous artwork. The Persistence of Memory

we are not just to get inspired by this artist artwork and recreate. we need to fuse modern technology in recreating the artwork. for my team we used Adobe Photoshop. the following artwork is our creation.

( the colours used are all pretty similar, if you want to get a better view, just click on the picture)

Actually, i am the one who draw this, so if you ask why is the picture so red?

well, i don't really have an answer to that. all i can say it wasn't intentional. the background i want to create some sort of gradient, but why red? er.....because it is not blue, orange or purple?

the lip and the tongue is actually the staircase like thing. i want to retain the original colour of the object because if you notice Dali's work, even though the elements changes the form, but the original colour is being retain. for example The Persistence of Memory, the clock retains its' original colour, but changes its' form. in this case, he make the clocks melts.

my faci commented that this look like a Dali and Picasso art. i have no idea about the Picasso part, but i am just glad that the end result give the Dali's feel.

~whew~

yesterday worked is crazy. ever since school started, I've only work on, maybe a weekday or a weekend, or both. everytime when i report to work for the week, i feel more and more detached from that place.

i used to see that place as my second home. during my holidays, i spend most of my days and time there. now, is only once or twice a week. people that i used to look forward to meet when i go for work, have either left or changed. Gobi seems like having PMS everyday, maybe he is pregnant? i don't know? he seems easily irritated, his usual friendliness is not there anymore.

the wicked have survived this brutal working environment, the good men have left to priorities their time to something more important.

here, Olihua, is still surviving a-okay there. just too lonely when there is no costumer for me to entertain to. most of the time is only Macros and i. i stare at him, he stare back at me. sometimes when Little Mr Lee will come by and entertain me with his unique way of speaking. which is quite entertaining, because you can crap with him. just that now a days, Gobi must have taken a huge influence in his life. Little Mr Lee is sounding more and more like Gobi. every 2-5 word say, the *F word will either act as an adjective, punctuation or a noun.

yesterday there was this 800pax party going on. not very happening, if you want to compare it to the Grand opening. there is a life DJ spinning in 700 ( indoor dinning) and so, 700 was turned into a dance floor . 800 (outdoor dinning deck) were fully reserved for the VIP, whereas the 900 (Chill out deck) is the only pubbing and dinning area for the guest.

my voice box is hurting now. apart from the reason of the blasting music, another reason is because, i have to double raised my voice so the giants ang moh can hear me.

watermelon juice, and apple juice, my own detox juice.


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the reason that i don't like to take the thrash out, apart from my laziness to step out of my comfort home. another major reason is, i don't want to meet the mystery guest that had been waiting for people like me, to open the bin and release him. EWWW, NO!!! yucky creatures like them should be confined to the rubbish bin FOREVER! there is where they should belong, that is their heaven. they shouldn't be release to terrorise the innocent out there.

if you still don't know what is The creature i am referring to.it is The Cockroaches i am referring to.


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History of Arts class is getting more and more BORING. it is like Cognitive class. (so, now i finally see the usefulness of Cognitive class that we had to study in year 1) the cognitive in arts is understanding the reason behind the art. what is the artist intention for creating this particular art piece. question like, "why do you think the artist choose this colour to illustrate this, why not that colour".... the list can go on.... and....on.....

there is just too much question that the faci throw at us. sometimes i just wonder when he said that all this question is to help us to process out, or he meant to confuse us indirectly??

today's RJ (reflection journal) question:

"How has today's problem helped in developing your understanding of the influences & motivations behind the creation of art?"

er... excuse me Mr Faci, honestly i am lost the 3/4 of today's class! but well, i think we pretty smoke up something at the end of the day. Thank God i am group with people that Knows what is going on...hurhur!

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wouldn't my life be good IF i am a goody goody student in the day, and heroic hero that swim with stars and moon in the night?

Albatross Necropsy

for the video click here. (i try to paste the code here but it wouldn't work. boo. )

plastic is non-biodegradable, we humans litter the ocean with all this plastic, and this had become the diet for this birds.

i Stumbleupon this website, do read it up. this is the reason why things will become extinct.... sounds like i am a very environment conscious person? well, no. but this makes me reflect, i hope it will to you too.

today weather is very hot.
i had a hot steamboat tonight with my cell.
i am feeling very hot now.
i am tired.
good night friends :)

PORTRAITS
we were tasked to take Portraits of our classmate today, an
d it require a wide shot, and a close up shot. the purpose is to bring out the personality of the person himself. i like the outcome alot. i enjoyed that shooting class that day :D

LITTLE BING BING IS BECOMING MORE AND MORE DEARLY~
##pls ignore my big head and focus on the little one instead.

take a step back and look at the big picture.
will it be more beneficial to her and us, or my persistency is holding everyone down?
i do not want this to fall apart, i want to hold on to it as long as i can.
i am afraid to face the aftermath.
i am afraid to see the outcome.
it had been 19years, he had always been in the picture.
at least in my mind, he does.

i still remember my 19th brithday, the birthday greeting he sent. i was over joyed. that was the greatest thing i ever received from him, exactly on my birthday...

that handphone was suppose to be a gift.
what a ugly surprise he had installed for her.

i don't understand where do i stand now.
everytime when i see him come home, i am actually glad to see him.
but why does he always like to surprise us this way?
i used to pray for him.
but now, i can't find my strength to do it anymore.
i am disappointed, little can i do anything either.

every facet of the unknown, i see no beauty in it,
neither did i see joy and happiness reflecting.
then why she enjoyed being a substitute?
does being a second class makes you happier?
or you simply have no limbs to work for own live?
you are just like an algae, feeding on the others to survive.
you are unsightly, slimy and unwanted.
most of all, you are unwelcome.

should i blame him?
i really don't know....

Apparently i don't like my current blog's skin and i am fed up changing it. then this lead me to question myself, "did i have too high expectation for it? or the things i want to see in my blog's skin is unachievable?"

the current theme of the skin is one if the Blogger default skin. i don't like how the post is being arranged. the previous post and the currents are too close to each other, agree? hence, it makes reading difficult. ARGGGGGH!

piss piss~

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Make a Smilebox scrapbook

BINTAN~ :)

A trip to Bintan for 3 days 2 night is really what Olihua needed.

day school, night homed, sleep. this have been the daily cycle after school have started. the stress in school have long drained my energy to have any post activity after school. all i look forward after school is- sleep.

I want to say a BIG THANK YOU to MISS JING for inviting me along with her friends to Bintan. we have lots of leisure time, tanning under the sun, soaking in our private pool, and playing some of the extreme ride.

-hahaha!-

the ATV (all terrain vehicle) ride is the most memorable one. especially when your driver is Olihua. reluctantly Jing was my passenger, and i think that is the most nerve wrecking experience she ever felt. nonetheless, De-most-memorable one too. ;)

let me illustrate to you what happened....
driving an ATV is almost like driving a car, and to Olihua, the only 'car' that comes closes to a real car that she ever drive is, The Go-Cart in Escape Theme Park. to her, she thought she can treat that 4 wheel as another Go-cart ride. apparently, ATV and Go-cart is 2 very very different thing.and i tell you, that ATV is really hard to maneuver!

lets' go straight to the crucial part. the accident began when i make a U- turn and i ran into a bush! so i tried to make a reverse and tried to steer back to path. panic- struck, i must have accelerated to the max, instead of turning just abit, the whole vehicle made a circular trun and down the LONG KANG!!!!!!! HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

well, i can't really remember what happened exactly. like, did i really accelerate to the max when the vehicle was already heading towards the LONG KANG??? i cannot remember. HAHAHA!!! the only thing i can still remember is, the pale shock stricken face of Jing.

HAHAHHAAHAHHAHA!!!! and after, Jing took over the wheels for most part of the journey, and i only took over wheel at the last part of the journey. not a very nice ending though...... :s

Jet ski was the most SHIOK ride. we are all paired up, and Jing was my partner again :) this time round, she let me drive the ski first because....

" there is no obstacles on the sea...." -quoted from Jing. HAHAHA

she also given me the golden key to accelerate to the maximum. it is like the key to freedom. sounds like she controlling me? the reason is because, during the ATV ride, she constantly telling me, "slow down slow down, turn right, don't go too close, speed up a little, turn right, turn left...okay, you are doing good."

i enjoyed the thrill when accelerating, but i am not a cautious driver. so Jing have to instruct me during the ATV. but now we are on the sea! we blast the speed meter and ride against the wave. extremely exhilarating to speed, speed, SPEEDDDD!!!!

the expenses there is really high, it is a either of, fun or food. we choose fun so we have to have to be a little more calculative on food. then we decided to have a little sneaky sneak. not shop lifting of course, we buffet lifting. (very sin-ah-poreans acts) to put it in a better term, we "ta-bao" some food from the the buffet. hee hee.

take some advise, if you plan to go there to enjoy the sports and other activities with limited money. Bring your own food there! bring enough to least cover your hunger. for example a 3D2N stay, 6 cups of instant noodle will be good :)

Hasselback Potato

potato is my favorite dish.

i have not been journaling much. it is either i have no time, or i don't know what to write. there is so many issue and personal thoughts that it is not convenient to raise here.

close friends is my best "journal". i shared with them my thoughts openly, keep those memorise for me yea :)